The weather's changing
A storm's approaching
I've come a long way from who I used to be
Shedding my skin each season as I evolve into someone I think I should be
Each skin with a different face
A face I never really recognize
In the beginning I was myself
A quirky, weird, adventurous kid
Then things began to change and I shed my skin
A scared preteen who fought to keep a stable mind in a chaotic household
When the auras of the house would fluctuate
I became a girl who put on a smile so no one would know what she was going through
Battling herself mentally trying to figure out her worth and a reason to live
Peeling away my skin for the approaching season I release the old me
Revealing a broken teenager wallowing in self doubt and struggling with accepting herself
Lacking guidance and love
A lost soul
But my skin's ever changing
With the coming seasons I am reborn once again
Through the pain
The trials
And the soul searching
I've discovered yet another girl I do not recognize
A young lady in her twenty's
Unable to let herself be loved
Scarred from her past
Her trauma filled heart yearns to be seen
To be heard
To be understood
Throughout her years
She had yet to bask in the palms of someone's loving hands
Hadn't let her skin soak in the calm comforting waters of someone's love
She hadn't experienced breathing in the scent of empathy and patience
Inhaling each other's passion as they explored each other's psyche
She craved intimacy
This young lady before me is just another one of my many skins
My many faces
And in due time
I will discover yet another woman I do not recognize