"Lola, come back to me please, It's not the same without you" he took a deep breath. "Fuck! You promised me till the end, you promised me", he was crying. Tan never shed a tear and here he was, i struggled to open my eyes they were heavy but i pushed harder then i started seeing a white light, i pushed harder, i was looking at a white sealing, what was this place? I felt the sparks on my left hand, lifted my head slowly only to see Tan sleeping with his thumb circling the back of it. He looked like an old viking, ugly beard and his hair was longer, he looked old. "You need a shave", i whispered making him jolt awake, his eyes wide and sparkly. "Cute face? oh goddess thank you, thank you", he said holding my face in his hands, a smile appeared on his face then turned into laughter, he hugged me so tight that i was afraid i would pass out again but i didn't stop him, he needed to feel me, he needed to know that i was really awake. He started petting my hair like i was a cat that i had to smack his hand away making him laugh even harder, he pulled me in a hungry kiss making me moan, i was about to deepen it but then the ward door was burst open, entering a panting Janet. "Don't you ever do that again", she said pushing Tan aside and hugging me reminding me of the day she gave birth. "How are you feeling?", she said inspecting my face. I smiled and asked for water, "Oh goddess of course", she took a glass and helped me drink easier. My eyes met Tan's, he was smiling and looking at me like he still couldn't believe it. Roman and Jasper came, then Alessia, then Tan's family, they were both happy to see me.
"Liam, Lily, look at sleeping beauty, she is not sleeping anymore", Janet said handing Lily to me they had grown so much. I felt sad that i missed alot of their progress. I spent the whole day with them. We played and Janet told me about their naughty adventures making me laugh, Liam couldn't stop playing with my hair, he was so handsome, i kept squeezing his chubby cheeks making him laugh. Tan helped me move around, feeding and cleaning me. He was quiet than usual, he only talked when i did, avoiding my eyes as much as possible. And at night he would stay awake until i fell asleep. Something was bothering him but i was not going to push him.
"How is work?", "Good", "Just good baby?", "I haven't gone in a while, Arthur is handling stuff for me", he said trying to focus on folding the dirty clothes that i just got out of. He hated folding clothes, i knew he was doing it to avoid sitting idle with me, that meant he will have to talk to me, and it was clearly not the option he wanted to take.
"She is good now Sir, you can take her home, just make sure not to overdo things", "Can i have sex?", i asked making the Doctor smile. "Yes you can, eager are we?", "Yes, i feel like am back to being a virgin", i said making her laugh but Tan remained silent, arranging my stuff. When he was done he pulled me down from the hospital bed, i said goodbye to the nurse and hugged the Doctor. We went to the car and i got in. The ride home was a silent one, not even a radio, the tension was getting thicker. I turned to him, watched as his body tensed when he knew i was looking at him.
"Surprise!" Our friends and family shouted from our living room. I almost got a heart attack. Everyone was here, even my Lina and Alexander are here. I hugged everyone and we sat and talked about everything that happened when i was in a coma. I was happy to know that everyone was ok. We had barbecue and as usual i gave my portion to Tan who said thank you without looking away from his plate. When i turned my eyes met Roman's he looked between me and Tan then gestured for me to follow him to the kitchen which i did, making an excuse that i needed more sauce. "He blames himself for what happened to you", Roman told me looking in the distance. "I know, he has been avoiding me since i started therapy", it was no secret, i noticed the moment the nurse instructed him to be careful with me. "Just give him time ok?", he said with worry on his face, he did care about him. "I will try. All i want is to be with him you know?", i said feeling tears fall from my eyes. "I know Lola, but it's not easy for a man like him to recover from such a situation, he went nuts when he didn't find you at home that day and when Andra came back and told him she knew where you were, he just wanted to go in without a plan, he never does that", he said making me remember, "What happened to Andra?", "He killed her", Roman said shortly. "Not surprised, she had that coming the moment she started working with Volder", "That is true, it's not easy being the first and yet watch as your parents give the throne to another", i just didn't seem to understand why power was so important to these people.
The party ended and people left, i went to the bathroom, it was great to use my shampoo and soap again. I enjoyed as the warmth from the water massaged my body. When i was done, I dried myself and took Tan's t-shirt his scent calming me instantly. I walked out of the bathroom hoping to see him but he was no where to be seen, i was tired i decided to get to bed and hoping to wake up in his arms.