Samuel's POV:
Calla.........
A woman who is a beautiful soul that has done nothing but gave the purest love to me.
A woman who is nothing but innocent.
A woman I don't even deserve to set my eyes on.
A woman to whom I don't know what I gave her for her loving me this crazy.
A woman whose love for me has withstood every possible struggle.
A woman who continues to love me like a drug even when I gave her every trouble in this world, every insult in this world, every hate disgust in this world.
A woman who was lying on this bed near me unconscious, her face innocent as a child, sleeping like she doesn't have a care in this world...
Like she hasn't risked her life just get married fake to me...
My heart ached seeing how crazy she is for me.
I slowly raised my right hand, sweeping her curls from her forehead who were making a fuss on her face.
A natural smile lit up on my lips while looking at her sleeping face.
I haven't seen her this care-free even once.
I have always seen her in her strong armor facade.
I can't blame her...
It's because of me, though.
I have ruined her life for her.
I know I have caused a major trauma in her life...
I can see, how can't I?
How can't see when her eyes in every interview, every newspaper, every picture, every portrait are lifeless, empty like she was dead in her soul.
Her smile in every magazine was unable to convince me that she was happy.
Even I was not happy.
Even today I am not happy.
I was struggling to be happy knowing that she was broken beyond life.
Do I like her?
Maybe...
Do I love her?
Of Course not!
I can't deny that she is an important part of my life if I won't ever agree.
As a friend, As a well-wisher, I can imagine her easily...
As a lover. No, I can't imagine anyone else except Amelia...
But I know that Calla has the ability to change my feelings...
She can easily make me love her...
But I don't want that! I don't want her!
I only wish to live with Amelia!
She was with me my entire life.
I can't just change my life, to live with someone I barely know just because I am attracted to her.
Yes! It is it!
Attraction! Nothing else...
But I am afraid, she may awaken the feelings that I don't wish to have.
Call me a confused idiot, fool, stupid, coward anything.....
But I can't stop my feelings whenever I see her.
But I can't love her.
I can't picture my life with her.
I can easily sacrifice these immature feelings for a future with Amelia.
I can easily shape a future with my Amelia.
Yes! I love her.
When I looked at Calla's innocent sleeping face, my memories take me back to where I first met her, the first I saw her.
The first time I saw her........
How can I forget it!
That memory was living rent-free in my mind for years...probably forever.
******************Flashback ***************************
I was writing a thesis for some college project, sitting on a wooden bench alone in an eternal peace, where the ground was literally grass.
Trees are the only thing that is planted as decorations.
It's as if it was heaven specially formed for nerds or book lovers.
I was not a topper or a college baddie, but I am somehow famous and well known in college.
I was leaning against the seat of the bench, referring to a book, when a sweet, young voice called my name.
"Samuel?" A young girl who seemed my age called my name hesitantly as if she was not sure it was my name.
I was in a deep concentration that I basically looked at her without any thought or even after removing my glasses.
When I looked at who it was, it was an average girl, who was not worth looking at for a second time. Simply, she was incapable of turning heads.
She was standing frozen with a look of awe-struck face.....
That...Exactly that moment I knew she fell for me...
But...... I don't expect it lost even an hour.
If only knew how strong her love was........
"Excuse me!" I asked smiling at her amusingly.
"Excuse me?" I called at her, snapping my fingers in front of her face.
She snapped back to the world at that.
"Oh! I am really, sorry. It's just......" She dragged looking here and there.
"It's just........" I asked her, further pushing her thinking it as a game. But I don't realize its consequences until much much later.
Suddenly her expression lit up like she found what she has to tell.
"It's just I was thinking about an important thing that I was forgotten earlier." She lied effortlessly.
It is amazing and worth praising how that particular trait of hers never left her.
She has never embarrassed herself and her self-respect.
She has always put herself before anything even if it is me.
So, it was a shock rather surprise when she agreed to marry me.
It's a big thing for her.
It must have taken everything in her to take that decision.
She must have fought against herself for that decision.
Another reason why I can't ever seem to escape from my feelings for her.
"Oh! Is it?" I asked chuckling, shaking my head not believing this cute girl.
But I was not aware of how gauzed my laugh to imprint in her memory book.
"So, Why are you here calling me?" I asked folding my hands in front of my chest and crossing my legs.
"Can I sit here?" She asked pointing beside my seat.
"Of course!" I said smiling at her.
She nodded to her before taking the book to that place and sitting there.
She glanced at that briefly.
"You are in the first year?" She asked, excitement dripping in her voice with her wide eyes.
"Why? Don't I look like it?" I asked straightening my back, giving her a show.
"Yes!" She nodded, tilting her head.
My smile halted, my shoulders drooping, my lips forming a pout.
"Am I looking old?" I asked, peeking from my eyelashes.
"What? No!" She said shaking her hands and head both at the same time while widening her eyes in protest.
At the time, I was unaware that I was actually enjoying her reactions without giving it much thought.
It was when everything beautiful around her was broken and vanished because of me, it was when I was not able to see them anymore, that I realized how I missed them so much.
The Calla I met that day and the Calla until she proposed to me like a lioness has never come back after that.
She disappeared just like that.
Till now I haven't seen that Calla again.
"You are beautiful!" She said, lowering her face to my level near my face with an expression that could put even a goddess to shame.
This........ Exactly this was the moment when my heart the first beat for her.
And it never stopped after that even after years...
I was spellbound at that moment so much that It was my comfort memory till now...
'You are beautiful' she was the first one who called me that.
And I fell for that exactly.
No one, not even Amelia called me that.
Sure I was called handsome, cool, smart even cute.......but beautiful never until her.
It was as if she has never someone as beautiful as me before.
Her expression at that moment told me that.
She looked at me as if I were some angel.
"Samuel?" Her voice called me in concern.
"Huh?" I asked snapping back to the world.
She was suddenly smiling mischievously.
"Are you remembering some important thing too?" she asked folding her hands in front of her chest, leg crossed and her eyebrow raised.
At that moment, I knew she will make a great CEO.
And see that I was indeed correct.
My cheeks tingled at that.
My cheeks reddened on their own.
I never knew I was capable to blush.
I turned my head to avoid her scrutinizing gaze.
I surprisingly felt shy before her.
I knew the reason, because, for us.
'Remembering an important work while gazing at each other is actually drowning in each other's eyes.'
I was always a confident guy in front of anyone.
But this girl made me shy away on that day.
To think about that I was never really comfortable with the first meeting with any stranger.
But talking to her felt like we were already close.
To this day, I can't get that feeling off my chest.
"Awe...Is Samuel shy? How cute?" She said teasing me openly.
I can't control the smile on my lips.
I still remember the amount of effort I made to return to my normal after that.
I turned to her with a straight face.
"What do you want?" I asked her with a blank face.
"Oh! I forgot! Here!" She gave a book which she took from her bag hastily.
"Mr. Thomas asked me to give you this!" She said before standing up.
"I knew him!" She answered my unspoken question.
"Ok! I am late! See you later." She said before turning back to leave.
I was disheartened at that. I don't want her to go.
At that moment, I even forgot my Amelia.
That how dangerous this girl is for me.
But she quickly turned back to my happiness and surprise.
She came closer to me which made my breathe hitch.
She lightly placed her hand on my head.
She stroked my hair slowly which made me want to close my eyes and turn into a puddle.
She bent down to my face level while still caressing my hair.
"I know this type of action is weird and inappropriate for strangers. That too in their first meeting. But I wanted to touch your hair badly. I can't control myself. Sorry!" She said smiling sweetly looking into my eyes.
"See you soon! I am Calla. Calla Mason!" She said while lightly messing my head before leaving from there.
I just watched her retracting back while lightly touching my messy hair.
'Who is this girl?'
was the only thing my mind thought at that time.
*************************End**************************
I smiled at the memory before looking at the unconscious Calla which made me smile even wider.
I stood up, leaning closer to her to caress her hair just like how she did before.
I smiled sadly at our fate before turning to leave the room.