I remember quite well the last time that I saw Alexander.
We were all but twelve spending the remaining of our summers days just like we usually did together, just like what all of us kids always do.
*FLASHBACK*
"I'm really going to miss you my sweet Adelia." he said as we under the big fig tree where we would always go to spend time together.
"As will I my dearest Alexander. If only life hadn't been so cruel then maybe you wouldn't have to go."
"I'm quite scared to leave if I'm being honest." he said sadly and I held his hand trying to give him comfort.
"But whatever are you afraid of my lord? Is the sailing across the seas? Why that is absurd. You've done that plenty of times before, so that is quite ridiculous."
"No no." he said shaking his head leaving me quite puzzled, for whatever could it be?, "I am just a little scared to be in an unfamiliar terrain away from everyone I know, and especially away from you my sweet flower."
"Don't worry dear Alexander. I will write to you as often as I can and I will be here waiting for you no matter how long it will take."
"I love you Adelia." he said as he caressed my cheek and I smiled.
"As I you my lord."
*END OF FLASHBACK*
The day that Alexander left for America was the day that my life changed forever, for not only was the love of my life leaving, but was also my best friend.
The heavens too seemed to have been joining in on my pain for the skies cried and cried and cried.
It seemed to have cried even more than I did as I handed him my handkerchief, and kissed him goodbye on the cheek.
Alexander was going to do big things, and I was very sure of that, for although he was still so very young he had wisdom beyond his years and I could listen him talk about the things that he knew for hours on end.
We would to each other every week following his departure, and he would tell me of how different yet similar the Americas were from England and I would dream of travelling there one day, and so I did.
It was the summer after I had turned fifteen, and I had begged my dear mama and papa to allow me to take a trip to America to surprise Alexander and they allowed me to and I was happier than an orphan who had received a new home.
My trip to the Americas, however did not go as according to plan, for I was met with a great surprised when I showed up the Academy where Alexander was studying only to find him wrapped in the arms of another woman as they seemed to have been having a jolly time as he shared to her knowledge on things that he has read just like he used to do with me under the fig tree when we were all but children.
That is right.
We were all but children.
It was foolish of me to actually believe that Alexander would be faithful to me after all these years, especially since he was now in an academy with other students that will match his intellect better than I did or ever could.
Tears fell down cheeks as I had returned home after not spending a single night in the Americas for what was the point?
My parents and younger sister Ophelia were quite surprised to see me home so soon, but I had not shared with them the whole truth for my early return, for the hurt that I had felt seeing my lover in the arms of another was too unbearable to talk about and share with my family.
I did not want the hurt from the memories to resurface, so I did what I had to do, and pushed it aside as I carried on with my life as if nothing had happened.
My family knew that I was not alright from that day onward, but I insisted that I was okay and was just dealing with being a young woman, and they decided not press on anymore which I was tremendously grateful for.
The number of letters that I had received from Alexander had tremendously began to decline over the rest of the months then years until they just stopped all together.
I remained apathetic towards this entire situation for I was grateful that he had finally decided to stop with the lies for I knew well what he was doing in the Americas besides studying.
A new found hatred had began to grow inside me for Alexander since then, and it grew more and more each day for everything had reminded me of him.
I even stopped visiting my favorite places such as the lake and fig tree for we had too many good memories there together and I hated that.
I am now eighteen years of age and Alexander was said to return to England today, and I had no intentions of seeing him.
"Adelia? Adelia!?" said mother on top of her voice as I ignored her and continued walking towards the stables to where my prized horse Cepheus was.
"Mama I am right here. You not need to yell."
"Adelia I command you right this instant to get off that horse and return inside at once. The Astros are already on their way." she commanded, but I had no intentions of listening to her.
"Mama would you please. I had already made myself clear that I have no interest in greeting Alexander. However, please do give my greetings to the Astros, for it has been quite some time."
"Adelia I beg you please. Whatever happened between Lord Alexander and you all those years ago, must come to an end." she begged, but I looked away off into the pastures as a brief memory of what happened three years ago flashed across my mind, and I blinked several times to get the memory out of my head as I felt my bosom began to tighten.
"I am sorry mother, but time does not heal all things. Cepheus and I will be back before supper. Hyah!" I said then clicked my tongue, then my prized girl was off like the wind as we rode off into the pastures away from an obviously displeased mother.
I was not ready to face Alexander as yet, and yes you might say that I was running away just like I did three years ago, but somethings are better evaded than approached.