"Okay. First, Seok-Min Hyung." Jake pointed to Seok-Min and Seok-Min looked around with big eyes.
"Ah, okay, um, I have a crush." I gasp3e loudly while he rubbed the back of his head.
"The name, we need it." Kyle said teasingly and I squinted my eyes at Seok-Min too.
"It's a boy. I mean a male." He looked down embarrassed. Why?
"What's wrong with that? Why does it even matter?" I said furrowing my brows and the boys voiced out a few yeahs too.
"I don't know, I mean I don't really like guys but I like him."
"It does not matter Seok-Minnie, we all support your dumb ass."
"It's I mean he's here." He looked down blushing deep red. His ears turning pink too.
"Oooh, tell us the name!" Hyun pressed.
"I mean it's okay if you don't wanna share, we don't want you to-"
"It's Joonie." He whispered and I gasped looking at Nathan who was equally surprised and blushing.
"Oh my god,I knew it." Kyle muttered smiling and I smiled too.
"I, I have a crush on you as well." Nathan said very very quietly and blushing hard.
"We have a new couple. My heart is fed and happy." I said dramatically and they both smiled at one another.
"Okay now! Jake!" Hyun switched not wanting to make the two even more shy.
"Yes, tell us a secret too Jake!" Young-Jae yells suddenly interested.
"No, somebody else." We all started yelling gibberish and he surrendered sighing.
"Yeah, so, I fell in love with this girl but she, likes, maybe loves somebody else." He said gulping and probably holding something back.
"Is she dating this somebody else?"
"Yeah and they're very happy together."
"Oh," All of us mumbled at the same time and Jake nodded silently.
"Is she a close friend?" Nod. "You think she doesn't like you?" Nod.
"Well then Jake, you don't have to be the third person. I'd suggest you don't tell her if she's happy and you're friends. It'll only complicate things." Trevor said putting an arm around Jake and hugging him after.
"Yeah, both of you will feel bad about it. It may even hurt her significant other." He smiled at me and then nodded. I had no idea there was somebody he had feelings for. I felt bad for him, he was a whole package, the girl was missing out but if she was already happy with somebody else then what was the use? Why hurt two people and yourself just to have nothing but a fucked up relationship?
"Okay, moving on! Hyun, your turn!" Hyun laughed nervously near us and I chuckled at him.
"Okay, alright, um, I don't really call it a secret but I kinda wanna confess something."
"Go ahead Hyung," Kyle says, cutely as always. I reached out my hand from Young-Jae's lap to pat him on the head and he gave me his cute nose-scrunch smile.
"It's about K, I kind of vented my anger about Bee not being safe enough on him and when he was upset today before coming down today I felt really guilty. I get too strict sometimes. I'm sorry Kyle for doing that and I'm sorry Bee, for not keeping you safe."
My heart swelled twice its size, I felt warm inside and that longing feeling of perhaps family burned in my heart again. The hole that Noah left was filled up by Young-Jae while the one Jack and mom left had now been filled up with my six brothers. My boys.
Cruel how in life, you make one thing, one person, your entire reason for existence and then when you lose them you lose yourself. Completely. Because with them, they take away your reason to exist and leave you behind feeling completely empty. That is what happened to me before I met them. These seven beautiful people and I'm not talking about their outer beauty, that's a given.
Outer beauty could be achieved by anybody but what lies inside is more beautiful than anything else. And they are enough, more than just enough, because all of them, no matter what situation, shine bright. Because the beauty they have inside is so much more than what they look like. How could I not exist when there are seven people who wish for my existence?
"It's completely okay, I can take care of myself, you have to take care of yourself too," I smiled feeling so proud that yet again I had people that are afraid to lose me. This time, I was not going anywhere either. All eight of us, together. Just one sentence and I felt like I had never been sad.
"No. This is not a one-way road, we're all together, in everything." Nathan said firmly.
"I second that, You have to stop taking everything so hard on yourself. You met with her father, we know he must have said something to you and we need you to tell us because we're here to help, not because you're a Brown but because you're my Bee, you're our Bee." Trevor said and now that I looked at it, it was not necessary for the Millers to know they were involved.
"Alright, this is my secret. He wanted me to lure one of my father's acquaintances into telling me about a business deal he had with my father and even if the information's not valid enough he'll let me go."
"Who's this guy again?" Seok-Min asked, I shrugged.
"He said he'd tell me when the time comes I just know he's young. Around 25 years old." I said and Young-Jae hummed in understanding.
"Alright, we'll work on it once we have the information and don't worry he won't know." Kyle said nudging Jake who nodded enthusiastically.
"Okay, let's move on for now, Young-Jae, your turn." I felt him tense under me. I loved how he got nervous over little things but did all big things just fine. Super cute.
"I don't really have a secret," He mumbled. Liar, he was just hesitant.
"Oh come on!" Hyun whined shaking his shoulders. Oh, he was copying Jake. Jake understood and hit the back of his head while giggling cutely.
"ALRIGHT, I MIGHT AS WELL BE IN LOVE LIKE YOU GUYS ARE!" Young-Jae screamed immediately hiding his red face from me.
What? He's in love? Is it me? he doesn't even talk to any other girl, my shy kittle kitten.
"I'm sorry, I don't think I heard you." I teased turning around in his lap to face him. He hid his face in both his hands. Pretty hands. I melted when I heard him let out a shy chuckle. Oh lord.
"I said what I said." He mumbled quietly and I snatched his hands from his face holding them in my hands. He was beet red. The rest of them noticed and started laughing their asses off.
"Oh my god, look at him now, he's not the Young-Jae we know," Nathan said in between giggles.
"Oh shut up, will you? We saw how hard you were blushing when Seok-Min confessed." I playfully teased him and again turned back to Young-Jae.
"So, what were you saying Jaejae?" I booped his nose with mine and he smiled at me. Oh lord, this boy will be the death of me. The smile showed his way too pretty teeth and gums.
"I love you."
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"Say it again," I held his jaw and chin delicately while smiling from ear to ear.
"I love you."
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"One more time," I whispered and he laughed with his eyes crinkling up.
"I love you. I love you. I love you." He chanted louder and I kissed him. Once, twice, thrice.
"Alright this is getting way too cute, some of us are single, take it to the bedroom," We both laughed against each others lips at Kyle's statement and Young-Jae stood up, carrying me in his arms. I wrapped my legs around his waist playing with the hair at his nape.
"Okay, this time, nobody enter the room." Young-Jae warned with a serious tone and all of them laughed again. No, but seriously.
"Lock the doors, we might come in mindlessly like some always do." Seok-Min teased Kyle.
Young-Jae turned around putting me down when reaching the foot of the stairs and we ran upstairs hand in hand.
Everything seemed so fast but oh so beautiful, a glimpse of his face and the world slowed down again still as beautiful, maybe more.
This was my favorite moment by far in my life. The happiest minute of my life. I had a family, the love of my life by my side and nothing to interrupt us. This was what I had wanted always and I hoped to keep it this way because suddenly happiness, once a vague concept seems beautiful and recurring in my life again.
The way he walked, the way he looked at me like I put all the stars in the sky, the way his eyes searched for mine in a room full of people, the way he talked to me, about me, for me, the way he touched me, so delicate yet so strongly passing on the message of his love, his care, the way he said my name, the way he smelled, the way I didn't have to use my eyes to know it was him, everything about him drove me crazy.
It was so familiar, so comforting yet so new, so different. It was like I knew him well, but every day he made me want to know him more. Before I had no idea why I was so intrigued but now I knew. I knew it all.
I loved him.