"Shhh, it's okay, I'm okay, you're okay too."
"I won't go now, I won't listen to Jake. Don't be sad, you're not alone."
"I'm not alone, I'm not sad either, I'm just not able to breathe," I said trying to make him laugh and he did. He pulled away wiping at his nose which had turned red from crying. I sighed, disappointed at myself. I can never stand my ground, can I?
I wiped his tears with my thumb and kiss his forehead causing him to immediately try and nuzzle back but I pulled away leading him along with me on the couch. He settled next to Seok-Min and I sat down between him and the mysterious boy, I looked at Jake before sitting and he gave me a small apologetic smile which I returned with a genuine one of my own.
It was okay, some people deserved to be forgiven.
I shifted in my seat a little and tapped the boy's shoulders whispering a polite 'can you move?' He stirred in his sleep, immediately waking up. He didn't look up, just nodded and pulled me onto his lap and I jumped at the sudden action and yelped. What just happened?
The boys were equally as surprised when he wrapped his arms tightly around my waist cuddling into the small of my back. I jumped again when his nose brushed against my skin over the top.
Did he just-
"Don't move now princess. I don't think you wanna cause a problem you can't fix, do you?"
I shot up from his lap in an instant and turned around to face him. He slowly looked up at me with a cunning smile and even though I hated him already I couldn't deny he was attractive.
Heck, I think he was the most attractive one out of them. Mint colored hair which were disheveled & covering his forehead, black jacket, white tee with a pair of lips and tongue printed on them, cat-like eyes, skin whiter than all those in the room, Veins on his hands and forearms, lean but buff at the same time, his fingers covered in multiple beautiful rings, four big ones on his right hand, multiple letters printed on them, wrists covered in two bracelets on the right and a silver Rolex adorning his left hand, face and skin undeniably pretty while his Aura screamed control.
His nose was pretty too, are noses supposed to be pretty?
He leaned back on the couch placing his arms behind his head and started man-spreading. He looked me up and down, twice and then bit his lower lip.
The audacity-
He looked at my face again and tilted his head to the side. He patted his thigh signaling me to come back and sit on them. I tore my eyes away from his eyes and lock them on his thighs with a gulp. Not gonna lie, It was too tempting, he was too tempting and I almost moved forward to comply, his dominance was asserted even by a simple gaze and I couldn't seem to not listen. It was like falling into an Abyss, there was no escape once you were in. It was not like they show in movies but somehow it was exactly like that. I was overly aware of everyone around me and even the ticking of the clock on the wall to my right was loud enough for me. He was dominating me, intimidating me and it was working.
But that wasn't me. I snapped out of it and anger bubbled up in me. First, he grabbed and pulled me onto his lap, and then he tried to act cocky with me? Asshole.
"The fuck? Who the fuck do you think you are to touch me without my permission?" I asked, arms folded across my chest.
"Oh yeah? Why, didn't you like it, babe?" He said with a subtle wink and smirked.
The rest of the boys sighed all at once as Nathan came up behind me. He grabbed me by the shoulder and turned me around towards Seok-Min.
Seok-Min extended a hand towards me and I gladly took it.
"Sit with me, he's an asshole," Seok-Min said and made me sit down between him and Trevor.
"Hyung, please don't trouble her, she's a special guest," Nathan said exhaustedly.
"I can see with the way Tae was crying and clinging onto her, he doesn't even do that to me now." He said giving Trevor a judgy look. Trevor looked at him and smiled broadly.
"Hyung, we did wrong to her, she is indeed special to us." Jake said and my eyes immediately softened once meeting with his even softer ones. He was right, they did wrong but I could forgive him. He'll have a reason for sure. After all, some people do deserve to be forgiven. I cleared my throat twice and nodded, amidst all this chaos I forgot what I really came here for.
I needed to concentrate on my main motive, for now, this could be forgotten along the way. Concepts of friendship and attraction were even vaguer than pain and happiness to me. Everything was like a trap, a continuous cycle of traps. You make friends, you care, you become happy, you feel attracted, you love, you find pain, and they leave or you leave.
The whole cycle repeats itself over and over till the point you stop caring because if you just don't care, you don't need to go through happiness and then pain but unfortunately in my case, the cycle's still repeating itself. The abyss I've fallen into just keeps getting deeper and deeper. The harder I try not to care, the more I do.
In movies, right around this time, the protagonist finally finds the landmark of happiness and pain mixed into a drunken dangerous combination called true love, but I don't see that happening anytime soon.
"I'm here to know more about Mr. Brown."
"And you are?" the asshole whose name I didn't really know inquired in a flat tone.
"His daughter." How does he know that?
"She's Felony's daughter, Beatrice." Jake said, hands interlocked in front on him resting on his knees and his face propped on them. I never told him about that and I didn't think Nathan had said it yet.
"Jake, how do you know that?" Nathan asked with a raised brow and jaw clenched. Oh, this must be his thinking face.
"I never told you anything about dad, how in the world do you know that Jake? Did you do some research on me or something?" I asked him calmly, too calm. He knew if doesn't explain right fuckin now I'd explode.
"Bee, do you even have an idea what we actually do?" Jake asked releasing a breath.
"Jake, not now." Seok-Min objected from beside me. He seemed a little hostile about this situation.
"She's gonna know anyway Hyung. Bee, we're con-men. We're scammers." He paused for a moment while I tried to process everything that was happening. What did he say?
"We had planned to scam you too, it was mine and Trevor's plan. But. We started liking you way too much for our own sake and decided to let it go. Me and Trevor decided it was best if we don't talk to you anymore because we couldn't believe that we were gonna scam, con the only person except these boys who trusted us enough, let us in her shell. We couldn't do that to a person as beautiful as you." He said, eyes brimming with tears and voice dripping with sincerity.
"What?!"
I had just found out that the only time I risked everything to be friends with somebody, their only intention was to make profit out of me. Use me for their good and throw me away. Was I supposed to be sad? Or happy that all my insecurities weren't for no reason? Or relieved that they had realized what they were about to do, was wrong? Do I forgive him because he didn't scam me?
Or be angry that he had left me, that they left me, that even though knew about my insecurities, my weakness they still asked me to let them in? Nothing made sense, I didn't want to hold grudges against him, that was what he did for a living but I didn't want to forgive him so soon. So, again I did something I didn't think I'd do. I avoided it.
"Okay. I need to know about my father's connections and especially his enemies." I said, loud and clear, even if I was shaking on the inside, they didn't need to know that. Just because I felt weak and defeated and wronged, I was not gonna give them the satisfaction of seeing me cry or go weak. All of them, including the mint boy looked at me more than just surprised.
"Oh, okay, whatever you wanna know we'll tell you. The files regarding his business and allies are all we have right now, Trevor's gonna be using all of his knowledge to open the files and dig up more details too, you don't have to worry. " Nathan said, he seemed to have understood my internal battles so I smiled faintly at him.