I was shocked, and I was very sad for my mother, I felt sorry for my mother when I heard that she committed suicide, but in fact, my father was the one who was the most saddened, the woman he loved had no consideration for his feelings at all, I guess.
But knowing that my father raped my mother made me angry again. Also being a woman, I know very well how much this hurts women.
"Dad, how could you do that! That's the woman you love, how could you do this to her"
I was sad and embarrassed, after all, I heard about such past events of my parents and it made me a little overwhelmed.
"I did this to her for her survival!"My father became agitated.
"When a person has no emotions or thoughts inside her, she is dead. Having done this, at least she can still hate me. I think, she doesn't love me, so let her try hating me. Hate might also be her motivation to live. And I want her to get pregnant again, maybe a baby can also help."
I suddenly lost interest in their story and I didn't want to hear any more. It's a completely tragic story!
"Dad, no more of these unpleasant memories, I don't want to hear them! "
"No, you should listen, you have to!"
Whether you want to marry Sven Fox or not. I never approved of your engagement to him from the very beginning. Because you love Sven so much, I just wasn't an obstacle to you marrying him, and you know why, Anna?"
Indeed, my father rarely talked to me about my engagement to Sven. I remembered when I first ran up to my father and told him that I wanted to be engaged to Sven. My father had objected slightly, it just wasn't very obvious.
"Because you don't like Sven?"
"No, it's not because of Sven. It's because of you, Anna."
"Me? "
"Yes. You love him so much, you love him so much that you lose yourself in front of him. You can't be yourself around him, that's very sad and dangerous. Anna. Just like I was in front of your mother. I don't want you to be like me, suffering because of love. It hurts, I know it very well"
"Papa! "
He waved his hand to stop me from interrupting him.
"But I didn't do all I could to stop your engagement because I wanted you to get what I didn't get. Because my marriage did not have a love for each other, I wanted you two to get married because you loved each other. "
It was the first time I had heard him talk so much. He had always been a silent and serious man in my mind. As far as I could remember he only smiled at my mother and was very strict with my brother and me. Sometimes my mother would get mad and would hit me, but except for today when he slapped me, he never beat me. He would only buy me all kinds of gems and expensive toys after my mother beat me. Many times I think he is a man who happens to be playing the role of my father, but now I can feel the real connection between us.
"Dad, you never told me before."
"Anna, I never wanted to trade you to the Fox family for anything. Do you believe me? My father's eyes were surprisingly full of loving light.
My heart was melting, my eyes are blurred.
"You and Sven are both good kids, but you were born into these families, and there are many things you can't make your own choices about. Sven's mother, Katherine, is a very complicated and strict woman who didn't like you from the beginning and she would never let you marry Sven. Now you should not have any illusions about your marriage with Sven, who has no way to compete with his mother. Kid! The most important thing you need to do now is to sign the contract, get the money and leave this country for a while."
"Dad, why? Why should I leave the country? Gavin told me to leave the country too." I was very puzzled.
"Gavin? If you'll in trouble in the future, you can try to ask him for help. But, you better keep your distance from him too, their family is a den of wolves with more complicated relationships than the Fox family."
"Dad, what are you talking about? Why can't I understand? You're scaring me, where are you going? "
"He's going to hell," that was my mother's voice filled with madness and hatred. She violently pushed the door open.
I saw that her beautiful face was completely distorted by hate.
And behind my mother stood my uncle Joshua.
"Sure enough, it's you, you already knew about me and George! You already knew that Matthew wasn't your child, right?" My mother gritted her teeth, her eyes seemed to be on fire.
My dad smiled sarcastically, "Elizabeth, as expected, you're not crazy at all! You've been pretending to be a lunatic, are you tired? I'm already a little tired, and I don't want to continue playing this game with you."
My mother's coldness shocked me. This is not the same mother I usually see.
"Elizabeth, you've already ruined me, isn't it enough? What else do you want? Anna is your daughter. You gave birth to her, so let her go." My father's tone was full of helplessness.
"Why should I let her go? She is the result of sin. You raped me, and that's why you have this evil child." If eyes can kill, I may have died in her eyes many times.
"Mom! What are you talking about? I'm Anna, you still miss me just now, do you remember your conversation with 'Matthew'" I thought it was my mother's mental illness again, after all the last few years she always thought I was my brother and Anna died in that car accident.
"Shut up, you're a scourge, you and your father are both pathetic, both unloved wretches. Do you know how much I hate you?
How could my Matthew die if it wasn't for you? Do you remember how he protected you? He jumped on you and held you in his arms, but he was stubbed by sharps of glass.
He was such a beautiful boy, and it was his eighteenth birthday. But because of you, you, the ominous scourge of sin, he died with his face beyond recognition and his ribs broken, while you were intact. How could you do this? Why was the one who died tragically not you!"