*Chapter 1*

"Ah, I see, so I died after all huh…." At least they are not that type of person who will get flustered when you try to dare them something, even that will cost you the life itself.

-FLASHBACK-

"HEY, YOU LIL'BITCH! HOW DARE YOU COME NEAR MY DEAR JASON!" Sharon shouted.

"But, he is my boyfriend, Sharon, why would you ask such a question? What did I do this time? Spare me, please." I begged for her as I don't want to get bullied again.

You know, the typical normal setup in college, having friends, having fun reading, studying, taking lunch breaks, it would be more fun if you are with the group friends, or rather "close or best" friends. That was the good side, you didn't even see the very darkest ones even the officials of the school don't mind the scandals if it is related to the rich side, money is the key to everything they say. Imagine, they will cover most of it like nothing happen, as this one now.

"HEH, BOYFRIEND? I CAN'T BELIEVE A DUMBASS LIKE YOU HAVING A BOYFRIEND LIKE JASON, THE POPULAR GUY IN COLLEGE?"

Ah, me huh, I already know the fact that I am hideous, of course, from the looks of it, I really look like shit, Natural black straight frizzy hair, with bangs that almost covered the half of the face, pure white pale skin, freckles all over as well. My dress? Just a simple one, imagine wearing a gray old t-shirt and black jogging pants. I don't like wearing like Sharon, almost a slutty one (Imagine it fellas, uwu). This makes me comfortable in my life although I have my reason for it… It's like—

-SLAPS-

*-uh oh, they are starting again, poor girl-*

*-oh hot damned, Sharon's at it again! Take a video, quick! -*

*-laughs-*

Hmm, people again are here around me, taking an opportunity to ruin my day again…

"ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?! YOU BIG SMELLY OAF? HOW DARE YOU! TO MY JASON"

"but Sharon, it--- "

"What is the meaning of this? SHARON!?" Jason blurted.

"Oh, Jason…. Sharon is at it again…" I replied.

"Sharon…"

"What? I have enough of this bullshit, Jason. C'mon and tell her the truth?!"

"Wait, what... Jason? I nervously asked him.

Well, Jason and I have been together for like almost 2 months now and supposed it should be 3 months by tomorrow, my plan would be to ask him out for an official date. Honestly, I feel something was up with him since the day he confessed it to me. Of course, the handsome guy suddenly asked you to be his GF, me, an ugly girl with a dark secret within her out of nowhere. I really wanted to ask him about this, but I got scared since he will be angry over this, that's why I kept silent. You know, I really wanted love and attention in my life since I have been abandoned and abused ever since little with my family, yes, my OWN family.

This is getting personal though, all my life I wanted love and affection. I came from unknown background, I was raised by my own relatives since my parents were in prison for abusing me, and now I thought that my life will be good, unfortunately, I think this runs through their veins as well. They even thought of me as a sicko and a spoonfed waste of money. I don't have a choice but to love and trust myself, but am I sure I can do this? It's hard to tell, I wanted to end it, but all these moments in my life I wanted to have joyful encounters with friends, but luck is not on my side though. My relatives used me as a punching bag whenever they are stressed and agitated, they won't let me feed anything unless I followed their non-stop orders, like cleaning the house, washing their clothes, etc., the longest time of not eating will be days or worst, weeks. I am lucky to have a part-time job in the convenience store, at least this made me feel alive, my relatives only know that I am just attending overtime at school due to activities and projects, if they know this, I am sure that I will not go unpunished. My relatives are just average ones, that's is why they won't even provide a caretaker or maid, they all rely on me who is good at this kind of stuff.

Back to the present time, I was waiting for the answer that shook me, of course, Jason is my boyfriend, he will surely defend me—

"Babeeee, you just ruined the fun. -chuckles-*

"What? Jason?" I nervously panicked as to how it has come to this.

"What, you dumbfuck? You don't realize that you have been played -laughs- "Sharon laughs

"Ja-Jas-Jason? What is the meaning of this?" I cried as I asked him.

"Huh? Of course, I don't give a fuck, it's just Sharon won the bet that in a month if I ever make you my Girlfriend, I will win money and vacation on an island with her? Why would I be serious around you? PFFFT~ This is so fucked up. Sharon, you shit, you broke the fun *kisses Sharon*" He answered.

"What? All this time is just a joke to you all?" I spurted angrily at them

"Excuse me, you dirty pig, did you think Jason will take on you seriously? I am just this bored that I made that "BET" in the first place, Oh Babe, look at her face?! HAHAHAH! Do you think that someone will make a move on that face? Just Ewwwww~" Sharon laughed.

"Tsk, oh god babe, I almost puked every time I'm with her, gladly you stepped out of the boundary for me" Jason replied.

*-DAMNNNNN, look at that scene, did you record that? I'm gonna post that on our school homepage. Shits ain't real on this! -*

*-Hehehe, poor girl, got played on that guy, got what she deserved, such a feeling to date a popular guy like Jason in that appearance, yuck! -*

*-Murmurs-* *-whispers-* -*chuckles-*

Everyone in the scene just laughed at me, this is absurd, why did this happen to me, I had enough, I am so done in this life, everyone just…. abandoned me and no ones takes my side. Everyone is so afraid to go near me and think they will get bullied like me. Why is my life coming to this, is this betrayal? Why did let me live in this life? My parents, my relatives, my college life, Jason. Oh god, why? I had enough, I want to get this over with, I…. hate this life…. I had enough...…...-*sniff*- My emotions are so fucked up, my morality is depleted and I am so stressed out. It's like my mind is confused and at the same time getting fucked up and mixed with other ones.

"Ah, I see…." So, this what is like to be punished by you, God? Why does it have to be me?...

"Eh? What you bitch? Got that cat in yer tongue? *laughed*- Sharon interfered.

I had enough of this…. I just can't anymore…. I got no one now…... I felt like crying, I will just completely erase my emotions, I don't care anymore, it's like expressionless people surround me. I don't know, I don't care… Fuck this life.

"Hmm, no wonder you were this slut, Sharon...." I replied.

"What did you say?" Sharon spurted.

"Ah, yeah, how many boys did you fuck up aside from Jason? Are you this attention seeker whore? I pity your parents though, *chuckled*" As I changed my expression into somehow made them terrifying.

"This motherfucker! HOW *pokes hard on my shoulder* DARE *pokes* YOU *pokes*SAY *pokes* THAT *pokes* TO *pokes* ME *pokes*." Sharon angrily replied as she tried to push me out of the crowd due to her embarrassment.

"Oh? Dare? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH! I see. So, it's true then? OH, MAYBE YOU ALSO GOT FUCKED BY THE TEACHERS AS WELL? CAN'T MATCH UP WITH THE GRADES? OH DEARRRRR!" I shouted.

I don't care anymore…. I don't care…... Fuck this shit, I had enough…...

*-Oh she's a goner now, Sharon's pissed as well-*

*-whispers-*

*-startled- Uh oh, she's in troubleeeeee~-*

"HO-HOW DARE YOU YOU PIG WHORE!" Sharon pushed me hard which made me trip. But, this is not the bad part.

The scene was like beside the busy road, of course, the school time ended so many students are rushing to go home, but with this kind of fight today, they will listen and see what is happening, unfortunately, when she pushed me hard, I got tripped over a small rock, but that's not all, the unexpected happening is next that cost me my life.

Good, I can't get over this shit then. I just want a peaceful life and not this kind of hell I have been living for 17 years…

-SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEECH-

-BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM-

*-OH NO THE GIRL!? KYAAAAAH~*-

*-WHAT THE FUCK, WHAT IS HAPPENING! -*

*-FUCK, CALL THE POLICE! HURRY-*

Ah yes, I got hit by a rushing car, everything got blurry and I feel my heart thumping very slowly, people around me got panicked. How about Sharon and Jason? They run away immediately after they saw me got hit by a car, those fuckers, after all, I went through, I will not forgive you, ALL OF YOU….

No way…. I can finally rest, I am so tired…. I just wanted to live the way I've wanted, why is this happening to me, I wanted a family that supports me, friends that I can rely on…Why God? Will you give me a chance this time? Maybe not, I died after all… I wanted to laugh it all up in the end…...

As my moments come to an end, I felt like, nothing… I can't move my body, my eyes shut on their own… It's turning black, I can't hear anyone anymore…. What will happen to me now?

I don't know…. I just wanted to sleep peacefully and comfortably… I just feel like, floating in the air all of the sudden. It's been like this for quite some time now, barely remember when. It's like forever to me.

Then all of the sudden, I saw some light in the distance, however, tried to reach out but I can't move after all. It's like urging me to go there, I tried so hard to reach it.

"Moveeeeeeeee, self, just move please…, is that…heaven? I have been waiting for you after all this time… now I can live in peace…" I blurted as I tried to move my arms towards the light.

"I can't just stop here…please…. Let me reach you…."

Then I just heard something around me that I don't understand, it's like they are apologizing or something.

*"-I am sorry, child, I am terribly sorry, forgive me, this should not be happening…. I will give you a chance in life so please live the way you've always wanted this time…..-"*

Moments later, a force suddenly pushed me towards the light, it happens so fast that It's like sucking me up…...

-*FLASH*-

"Hu-huh? Wha—"

"KYAAAAAAAAAH! LADY CADYSSA HAS WOKEN UP, QUICK CALL A PHYSICIAN?!" The young maid shouts and runs outside the room to seek help.

"Wh-who?" I am so confused about what is happening around me.

Wait, is this heaven? What the heck? Why are my hands so small? I don't understand, is this what heaven looks like?

After a few seconds, a panicked physician came and checks up on me, from head to toe, it's like he's unto something, but I am okay tho—

"Awwwww, my head hurts, my body hurts as well…" Nevermind, I'm not…

"Oh dear, this is what happens if you fell down the stairs, please be careful next time, Lady Cadyssa." The physician carefully sees every bit of my body if there is any bruise.

"Wait, who are you? Are you God or an angel?" I answered.

Seeing those reactions seems very confusing to me, they are shocked for a moment I said, what else would I ask that? I did not know that heaven was like European-styled medieval shit that I have read in the novels in my past life, don't judge me.

You see, in my eyes, all I saw was a room full of people who wear maid outfits, a butler, a physician, a knight? Wait… why is there a knight in heaven? Weird…. Why is everyone calling me Lady Cadyssa, she is familiar to me though…

"Oh no, Lady has an amnesia, what will we tell Duke Lester?"

"Heh, he doesn't even care for his daughter, why would he? We will just report it to him that she woke up, what a bummer and waste of time…" A maid whispered to her fellow maid apprentice.

"Quiet! I will tell the Duke regarding this matter, Doctor, do what you must and take care of the lady. This is not an official problem for the Duke after all." Butler shouted.

-*Wait, Duke Lester? A familiar name, where do I heard that before? -*

Ugh, My head hurts really bad, I'll just sleep the pain away… I don't know what is happening but, I really don't care at all, my bed is comfy and soft, and it has a unique scent on it. Whatever I'll just rest…

After a few hours of sleep, and the right amount of rest and medicine, which I don't have a reason why in heaven has this, I recovered a bit and I don't feel much pain anymore. I tried to look around me and went to the big brown cabinet on the left side of the room. Wowwwww, this room is bigggg~

My current room was like, uhh, I dunno, typical simple ones, has a smelly sofa, a big bed that has little curtains around, a balcony? Wait, isn't this 3rd floor? This place is so big! The color motif of this room was a grayish-brown one, it feels lonely and doesn't seem to care for the maids. Not bad for heaven though, I looked around the balcony and wiped the cement rails, it's so dirty that no one seems to clean it.

I didn't mind that as I will eventually clean that in the morning, meh, my room, my rules now. I saw a medium-sized brown drawer with an oblong-sized mirror. I checked the drawers until I saw a diary. Wait, familiar name….

"Cadyssa Von Bloodhound….?"

Huh? Isn't this the name of the villainess in my favorite story called "The Chosen Love Rival"? Yeah, it is, wait for a second-

I rushed towards the life-sized mirror, as I approached I saw the reflection of a young girl with dark burgundy hair, blue galaxy-looking eyes, crystal clear skin, a blushed pinkish cheek, cute and perfect curly eyelashes in front of me.

"Oh fuck, it is Cadyssa, wait….am I in the novel?" I shockingly said.

Damn right, I am really in my favorite online novel, where this young girl is a villainess who will die at the age of 19 due to being cruel to the female lead, well this story is a fantasy one, so it has some cool magic and swordsmanship. As I said this villainess with an angelic face will die in the future, what a bummer.

So, why would I be the villainess in the first place, what a stroke of bad luck for me, all I know is this girl is so jealous of the female lead for stealing her fiancé, the crown prince, one of the male leads of the story, that makes her kidnapped and tortured the female lead? Luckily, the Crown Prince and the other sub leads came to the rescue and saves her, in the end, the jealousy and hatred of the villainess drives her insane that she wants to kill the female lead, but the Crown Prince protected her and killed the villainess, and they lived happily ever after. The End. That's it, final end for her cruelty. Poor lass.

As a fan of this story, I have researched the story of the villainess, and to be honest, I pity her in the first place. How do I know? Of course, you should be the major sponsor of the novel book, all of my savings in my part-time work goes here, so those avid major fans have the access to every information, as well as the secrets in every character. I am so pissed that the female lead stole the crown prince just because she has the holy attribute and is an exceptional example to other students as well as the other people around her.

Well, the background of the story with Cadyssa, from what I know today, is that this body is just a 4-years-old child, her father and her older brother have neglected her since Cadyssa's mother died in an unfortunate accident while traveling with her 2 years ago. Duke Lester and Little Duke Nestor von Bloodhound didn't forgive Cadyssa for what she has done.

The story behind the death of the Duchess was that one stormy night, Cadyssa wanted to go out and wants to buy a good gift for her. Duchess Naomi saw the storm outside and didn't want to go since it will be dangerous for them, but since Cadyssa has an attitude of being a spoiled shit, she begs and cried out very loudly in the hall of their mansion. Of course, the Duchess has no choice but to go with her, and then while on the run, they hear the loud noise outside and saw the big landslide just above them, the Duchess was scared about the security and safety of Cadyssa, she protected her by hugging around her and then bam, there goes the story, the Duchess died and she was saved. When Duke Lester heard this news, he was devastated. He went to Cadyssa and slapped her real hard, what a jerk! He blamed Cadyssa for everything and never wanted to see her again, same goes for the little Duke Nestor, he was 7 years old at that time, he loves his mother very much though.

Now you know, Cadyssa felt the neglect and out of love from her family, she is just like me, she wanted love and affection, she was very happy when she was chosen as the fiancé of the Crown Prince, from that moment on, until the female lead appears, the Crown Prince fell head over heels into her and that's what Cadyssa got triggered with negative emotions, jealousy, etc., she begins to bully the female lead and framed her to everyone to the point that even the Crown Prince is angry at Cadyssa. This made her mad even more that she kidna—

Oh, hold on that's enough, it's too redundant if we continue this, anyways it seems like everybody here neglected me, I mean, look at this room, it's so dirty. I had enough of this, I should make a move, I can't live like this forever. I reached out the bell for the maids to call them, I rang it once and seconds later, one maid went into the room and stand in front of me.

"What do you want? Don't waste my time, Lady" She spurted.

Well look at this piece of shit, testing my patience out of nowhere, I will not be the same me in my past life anymore.

"Can you bring me a glass of water?" I said that with an expressionless face.

"Huh, what will you do with that, MY LADY?" The maid answered sarcastically.

"Just bring me a cup, is that hard?" I replied

The maid was just shocked by what I answered her. She just can't believe the child that is coward and helpless before just replied to her with that attitude and no expressions on her face.

"Ugh fine, wait" She went to the table and filled the cup with water.

For some reason, my deception and intuition skills are high, and saw what the maid did while filling the cup, she spits on the cup and smiles awkwardly as she walks towards me.

"Here you go, LADY CADYSSA" the maid sulks.

Heh, how dare you messed up with me, I'll show you that this body is not what you thought it was….

"Hey you maid, come over here," I commanded.

Seeing the face of the maid get confused, she walked towards me.

"Yes, my—KYAAAAH~!" maid shouted as a spilled the water to her face.

"MY LADY?!" She said.

"How dare you make fun of me, you lowly maid" I angrily said.

Hearing the yell of the maid, the butler, and the chief maid went inside the room, trying to know the situation that happens inside.

"My Lady Cadyssa, what seems to be the problem?" The butler asked and seems disappointed in me, hmm, don't care.

"I saw this maid spitting on my water cup, so I spill it to her face, is that a problem? Will you tell the Duke about this? I don't think so, as Father and Brother didn't care to me anyways" I replied.

Chief maid and the butler are shocked by my reply, who would have thought that this kid will fight back. I am the new owner of this body, and I will never be the coward as the previous one, ever.

"Oh yeah, one more thing, get me a new maid, and fire this one, I don't care what report you will tell my father, leave while I'm in a good mood today," I added.

"BUT LADY CADYSSA, FORGIV—" the maid was about to apologize but I interfered.

"I have enough of your bullshit since before, get out while I am being nice" I showed them my expressionless face which even surprised them the most.

"Ye-Yes, Lady Cadyssa" The chief maid replied.

"Good, now get out and bring me some food," I ordered them.

I saw the other maids dragging that lowly maid out of the room, and then the butler and the chief maids bowed to me and leave as well. Seeing their shocked expressions made me happy. I should start planning the next step after all. I will not follow the storyline as I will do I need to prevent myself from getting killed in the future.

For now, let's start with this stupid father and big brother of mine…

-END OF CHAPTER ONE-