I wanted to tell her we were in the exact same shoes but all I could manage to say was:
'Anything for you.'
Alicia went straight to the room Eric had slept in, the room on the other side of the house, the room where Kolin's cries could not be heard, the room where there was no baby monitor. That was the room she slept in.
She slept for four hours and in those four hours, I had contemplated suicide so much.
The thoughts were not there because of Kolin, in fact, he had been an absolute sweetheart. He barely cried and I did not have to force him to eat like the night before.
I was contemplating suicide because I found your Instagram page. You had lied to me so much and it hurt even more because I had trusted you with all of me.
I did not want to jump to conclusions about the relationship you had with the woman whose waist you held so dearly.
