Hi I am a girl and welcome to my story. I like boys but got a little confused when asked and guess what if I had said I am gay which I am not, then I am a clown or they all will not treat me equally. But it conformed when a girl came and touched my thigh. I felt nothing but uncomfortable. That was the moment I knew I was straight but everyone thinks I am gay and even one of the girl has proposed me but sadly I had to reject my crush and then again I realized that it's ok to have a female crush with no sexual attachment but I didn't thought for a second that she would propose me but now she has good gf and I am happy for her. So, everything was great and I only had crush on one particular person Sasuke. He is sooo hot and we had been friends after I proposed him. Yes, humans I have been friend zoned. Even after that everyone shipped us and he also didn't deny it so I thought is there a chance ? Or he just didn't want to hurt me. Well, then we got super close like you know for a 14 year old girl it was great. He started to include me in his team. And everything was sooo great but then one day he came and he hugged me like very close just like in k-drama style. But turns out that he was leaving school. Our last moment was good he just came soo close I stared at his lips and he smiled and again came soo close and said he will miss me and to text him daily and not to forget him, not only that he said study well and become a good person and that he will always support me no matter what. Then he followed me in insta. We talked daily like we said, it was going very well. We shared everything and he always said to study well and hard work "You can achieve anything if you want" omg it means he cared not about me but also my future. Everything was sooo perfect. I was happy but there was still a thing. I was just friend of him and that was ok if he didn't said or talked about his little crush like bro I know you and I are like bff but still we had something and you cannot forget that. It was just going nice and fine but one day it got intense. He suddenly started to say something like, "you know you are beautiful right. I think I like you" As soon as I heard that my heart started beating soo fast and I panicked and said do you ? And he said yes, but don't tell anyone. I thought to myself "why, was he ashamed of me or was I not good enough to be his girlfriend or was It a dare that some dude gave him ?" With all these thoughts I replied no, why ? Then he changed his mind like he didn't want to talk about it and said "leave it". But I couldn't just leave it, how can I just leave it, you cannot just say things like that and just leave it. I wanted to reply him with these words and communicate but all I replied was ok, when it was not. I thought this is what all people do and I didn't want to force him to announce it public if he had just given me a reason but what was done was done and no one could change that . From that we talked about it completely, and pretend that, that didn't happen, when he made me feel like he was ashamed of me. And I was angry at myself instead of him. I said to myself "at least he is still talking to me". And we continued till he said to give me a phone of me. I took a picture of my face and send it to him but he got angry for Idk what reason. Then I posted a picture of me in my sharee, it was of my puja and I thought I looked great so I posted it.

(First notification)

I thought it was from Sasuke. But when I looked it was from his bestfriend, Jughead saying "You look beautiful and pretty than ever in that, you know" I just ignored him and didn't even said thank you and why would he comment like in front of everyone ?I didn't even talked to him. Then I waited for Sasuke for hours. Then he came to talk to me and said sorry about everything that happened in the school, he said "I know I was so rude to you in school " I thought to myself "Ahhh, yeah now that I actually think of it you were kind of rude to me, it was almost like you didn't like me at all and that you hated me". Again for God sake I didn't said all that and accepted his apology by saying "ok, it's cool". But now in my head I was thinking that why he is even talking to me now? I have no idea. Oh was it because his friends were ignoring him? Nahhh, I guess he likes me now and I shouldn't over think. But he still hasn't said anything with the picture. Should I upload another one ? With more of me ?Nahhh, I will just leave it.

My mom – hey you, we have to go to your uncle's house tomorrow soo, just pick up a dress.

Me – ok, should I dress how I like or how you like ?

My mom – is that even a question ? Of course how you like. Why are you even asking me this? Just put on something ok.

(Next day)

My mom – hey!!!! Katharina, are you ready to go ???

Me- yes mom, just wait.

I was in my comfy clothes. A hoddie, bun, sweat pants and I felt great and confident wearing it. I got downstairs in the hope my mom would like it.

My mom- ewww, what is that. You are a girl, you should be beautiful, like others. What have you wear ? Don't you know anything about fashion ?Why aren't you wearing make up ? Here, let's go up and I will choose your outfit.

Here, you have this cute little skirt, this my girl will be great on you.

Me- ok, but didn't you said like for the first time I get to choose ?But it's ok I guess.

My mom – let's take a photo of you in this, you haven't posted anything on your Insta. You can just post this!.

(On uncle's house )

My aunt – oh my god Katharina, isn't this skirt tooo SHORT?? It could be longer I guess.

Me – yeah but it's not that short, aunty.

(In my room)

Should I post it ? I mean I took picture soo why not ? And it is kinda cute. Maybe Sasuke will like this ?

(Posts)

Ok, I have posted, I am kind of nervous tho. Will he like it ?

Omg, he replied to that photo in private, he said that I am hot and should be like that. I didn't thought much and I liked that response. I replied With a thanks. Then he asked more of it, but I said no. He kept on asking.....still no. Then I forgave him without him apologising me. Then again things were like normal. But then he kept asking a little bit....my answer was not changed. Then he stopped replying me....I panicked and blocked him. After sometime, I unblocked him. Then, he again started talking to me like nothing happened and started giving me more attention, like a lot. All were normal but now there was nothing to talk about. If I asked him something about him, he would just ignore me and one time he said I am boring.

Then, our vacation stopped, he had left the school for real. I just found my best friend, Betty. I just told everything that had happened even tho Sasuke told me not to tell anyone about our conversation. As soon as I told her, I realized that how bad he treated me and I was too blind to see that. Betty's reaction was everything, she told that I should stand up for myself.

Later, when I got home, I scolded him.....Like a lot and said it was all wrong and that I felt soo uncomfortable.....And he didn't replied me. I blocked him for days. But after that also I wanted to talk, so I un did everything and instead of him, I said sorry.

He didn't replied me or had seen... Then we never talked for like three days and when we talked, he started to like again act normal and did not stopped asking. I had enough of him and said to just fuck off and leave me alone. Then, it all just went quiet. I didn't block him, he didn't either but we didn't talk. I just deleted all his messages and I know he also did the same cause he was ashamed of me and he also said he didn't trusted me with this or I would screen shot and stuff.

But now I am free, and I wish I would never have to deal with that like ever again. Now, I saw that I was like blind and sooo stupid. From tomorrow the class will start and it will be new beginning of something ? Idk let's see tomorrow.