It was a dark cold morning. I set up the phone with this guy, we'll call him troy, who was coming to get me from the foster mothers sisters house. I could hear the beeping of the alarm. I learned the code that day so I could leave when they fell asleep. I heard them snoring upstairs. Their dog didnt wake up when I put the code in. I was afraid he was going to. I thought theyd wake up to the door opening but they didnt. They were sound sleepers.
I got in his car as soon as he pulled up. I told him I wanted to go "home" and he said "Alright, its gonna be a while though cause Lockports mad far". I was 14, I didnt know the distance. If I did I wouldve never went in that car.
I fell asleep on the way, he said he knew my brother so I could trust him, right? I woke up to the "WELCOME TO ROCHESTER" sign. I knew Lockport was before Rochester. I asked him and he said "I went the long was I missed the exit". I knew he was lying. As soon as he stopped at the gas station and he went in I got out and ran. I didnt look back. I ran until my lungs burned. I was scared out of my mind and for a moment I regretted it. Then I remembered their words. I no longer regretted it and I went looking for someone to help me get "home".
I put myself in a very dangerous situation. I am lucky to be alive. I was raped but I never reported it. I deserved it. I got lucky that I wasnt forced for the rape kit. My mother believed me this time. Not like the last time. No one believed me about her boyfriend touching me and I wasnt going to be told I wasnt raped or that I deserved it. I put myself in that situation and to this day I still don't feel clean. I lied about my age to get help.
That man took my MP3 player and he told me that it costs to stay in his home. "You think this is enough?"..... I don't talk about this because it doesn't help reliving the past. It doesn't change anything. I knew what a penis looked like when I was just a little girl with baby teeth still in my head. I was raped for a place to stay because I was an idiot thinking these men were going to take me "home".
I was an idiot for believing I was safe.