My adrenaline is rising. I felt both heat and cold all over my body. Even in this injured state, I was still able to stay alive. I sensed that I could help that person, the army Major of my enemy's army.
I remember that he also wanted peace for his country. I remember the first time I chatted with him at the cafe. He wanted peace as much as I did, but he was also the target of his army and mine. He was threatened there, both his troops and mine would kill him.
I quickly ran there even with blood continuously coming out of this wound on the right side of my stomach.
I was only halfway through, but instead, I vomited blood and was exhausted.
I vomited my blood. My head is so dizzy. My body temperature began to be unknown to me. It felt so cold, but it also felt so hot. It was all caused by this wound on the right side of my stomach. I was on the verge of death from lack of blood.
I found the rifle with my eyes blank and couldn't think for a second. It's an assault rifle. It was Tracking Point Guns, a rifle I was able to use.
My mind is completely blank. I was just thinking about approaching it. I didn't realize that by holding this rifle, my adrenaline shot the people around me to death. I was the one who shot them.
My wounds increased as I continued to shoot at anyone near me. It happened when someone pointed the gun behind me. I received the bullet, and it managed to injure my back as well as my thigh.
However, I quickly stopped that before five bullets managed to injure me. I managed to shoot the guy and kill the guy.
After that, I staggered towards where he was. I wanted to tell him something after my meeting with him happened. I want to say that I would have done something for his daughter if he died and my country won.
My feelings were so strong to go there, but they had no intention of making me there.
From various directions, a hundred rounds were fired from their rifles. I was right on the battlefield, which just happened.
When someone jumped at me, thrust the knife at my head, I grabbed his right hand holding the knife and took the gun that was in his uniform pocket. Then, I thoughtlessly shot him in the head and killed him.
I could no longer think that the people I had killed were my friends. I'm just thinking of a way to get there. During this war, I have been betrayed by my superior. That's why I thought that the ones here were my enemies.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
I don't know how many people I've killed, I just have to get there. I don't feel that I am guilty of their death. This feels so much fun. My adrenaline had increased, and it made me unable to think about the fate of their family anymore. It's so much fun, killing hundreds—no, killing thousands here.
If that's your wish, I'll follow that.
I said that in my mind. They just want me dead, so I should try to counterattack them.
I was ready to die at any moment. I am in a world that is always at war. So wherever I am, I've got that set up. However, I didn't expect that I would die because I was betrayed by my own country. This sounds so funny.
I have poured my heart, mind, skills, expertise, and abilities for them, but somehow they have no respect for me at all. I finally understood that what they had given there, awards, medals, and positions, was all just their charade. Their real aim was, to reduce the human population and make their territory bigger. That's why this war happened and involved me and that person, who had the same power and position.
They are cunning, the bosses are very cunning. They must have cooperated to make this war happen, which seemed fine to reduce their forces. They are trash, the trash that should be thrown out of this world. If they didn't exist, this world would have long been peaceful and prosperous. The humans in this world don't cry, are afraid of gunshots, and are pessimistic about living their lives.
This world has become a world for trash people like them. I should have realized this from the start. I can prevent this war before it happens. I can kill my superiors, and bear the burden of their deaths, which I will surely be put to death later. I should have done that instead of joining the war here, which was meant to kill me.
Death is something that is bound to happen. Therefore, if I realized that I could choose my death, I would choose to die after killing my superiors, not die here.
To be honest, I had predicted that I would die here when my subordinates said that. After all, this war involved 12,000 people. I might still be able to fight half of it, but I'm not sure that I can fight 12,000 people. I realized that today would be my last breath in this world.
I realized my death here, but at least I had to say something to the man, which made him keep thinking about his daughter's fate if he died here too. I have to tell him that. If I didn't say that, he would die with a state of anxiety for his daughter, whom he loved dearly.
I can't let him die like that. It was so painful for sure. I must not let a good man like him, who received and welcomed me so warmly in his country, die in a state of anxiety for his daughter's fate.
Even so, I had to get past the 3,000 people in front of me, who were at war. Plus, near that person, there were still another 4,000 people who were also at war. I can count that number with my adrenaline rush. I can even see well in this condition. It just happened, as if I had to get there before I died.
I'm just a 25-year-old man, unmarried, who doesn't have a girlfriend, who is only focused on work, and who just wants to convey this to that person. I am a 25-year-old man who will die here.
Before that happens, I need to get past them. I have to get there soon anyway.
However, something got in my way again. This time, a grenade fell right near me. It made me quickly run to the side.
BOOM!
The grenade exploded, destroying the place. As a result of that, I received a wound on the right side of my body. Half of my face was covered in my blood. My blood was getting less and less due to the exploding grenade. Even so, I'll still stand up and go there.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
I managed to kill at least 50 people who were near me. The shot from these rifles, Tracking Point Guns, with the bullets I had saved, kept me going this far.
My mind suddenly remembered something that had not appeared for a long time. I remembered that my troops, and likely enemy troops too, had several tanks to use in this war.
And sure enough, it appeared. Several tanks appeared in this war, shooting at the humans and making the place even more desolate.
I ran, trying not to get too far from the tank. However, another tank appeared in front of me.
"..."
I was silent for a moment, shocked when I saw the tank was heading my way. After that, I looked around me, which was filled with the corpses of the soldiers.
I quickly checked what the corpses had. I wanted a grenade, so I had to get it fast.
"This."
I managed to get a grenade. Then, I quickly opened the cover of the grenade and threw it to the side of the tank.
There was a big explosion there. The tank capsized, unable to get up and walk. That was the hope I had expected would happen. For that, I was saved from the tank problem. Even so, there are still dozens of tanks in this place. I had to hurry before the tank came near me again.
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And in the end, after breaking through them, and after receiving the wounds from their gunshots to my body, I managed to get close to that person.
When someone wanted to shoot at him, I realized that and shot at the person. Then, I slowly walked towards him.
"Yo. Looks like you're having fun here," I said.
Somehow I could say that when he noticed my arrival here.
"You..."
Just like me, he also had a hard time fighting them. I could even see that his body was covered in gunshot wounds.
I walked over to him. Then, I was behind him and we leaned against each other, protecting each other.
"It seems that you and I were betrayed here. This is very unfortunate," I said.
"As expected, the masterminds behind all of this are the leaders of my country and you. They... they betrayed me just for following orders from those superiors. Somehow, I feel heartbroken. I didn't think that they would kill me, even though they were my subordinates that I educated well."
From his words, he seemed to be saddened by what had happened to his troops. It must have hurt him, just like how I felt about the country I was protecting.
"I have to survive," He continued. "I-I… I still have someone I need to protect. For that, I will try to stay alive."
He said that, but his whole body seemed unconvinced by it. His body didn't look like it would be able to last much longer.
Humans have limits. Your mind wants to do that, but if your whole body can't do that, then you can't do that. That is the limit that humans have.
In this case, he thought about the fate of his daughter. He had to survive even though his body wasn't strong enough to do that. That's the limit, and I'm sure he knows it.
For that, before I said what I wanted to tell him, I took a deep breath and then opened my mouth.
"Take it easy. Your daughter is safe."
"What do you mean by that?" He responded in surprise.
"You remember when we met, right? After you said that you wanted to protect your daughter, I had thought about this. I told my sister to stay there, your country, to look after your daughter if you die here and I won this war. Therefore, your daughter is safe. My sister will take care of it."
"Really?" He turned and looked at me with pleasure.
"Yeah."
"So that's how it is, huh. You turned out to be a good person."
"You are also a good person, wanting to protect your daughter and make the world peaceful."
"So I can't worry about it anymore can I? There was already someone who wanted to take care of her, replacing me. My daughter, she must be happy to be looked after by your sister." He looked up at the sky with tears in his eyes. Then he turned to me. "If it's like this, I don't have to worry about anything anymore. I'm fed up with all of this."
"Oh, me too."
We lowered our rifles at the same time.
We are both fed up with this war, the war that betrayed us. We are warriors, but we are treated and betrayed like this, it hurts so much for us. The world that we were supposed to protect, was destroyed by people like them.
Me and he resigned to all of this with a sense of relief. We finally realized that what we had been protecting all along was useless. As long as there are people like them, this world will not find peace. One way to deal with that, we need to just kill them. We know that, but the conditions we're in right now can't make us do that. We know that this is the end of our struggle in this world, to find the peace that never existed.
We have struggled with useless results.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Hundreds of bullets shot at me and him. We lay on the same ground and looked up at the same sky.
There was no light there, only thick smoke. The sky did not have the light of a single star. It was covered by the thick smoke that surrounded this place. It made me and him unable to see the stars there. Even so, we have been happy and relieved by all of this. Our feelings are the same, we are both resigned to our futile struggle.
Before he and I died from these injuries, he still had time to say something to me.
"You are a good man. I didn't expect that you would think of my daughter. If one day we are born again, I want you to be my relative, not my enemy. Life is short, even I was married at the age of 17 years. And now, at the age of 25, I am leaving my daughter. Geez."
"Oh, me too."
"My name is Ryuki. What's your name?"
"My name? My name is Bagas."
"Nice to meet you, Bagas."
"I'm glad to meet you too, Ryuki."
After that, he closed his eyes.
Before I closed my eyes, I saw a light in the sky. The light pierced through the sky shrouded in thick smoke. I can still see that light in that sky. And after that, I closed my eyes and cried and "died" as a result of this war.