The inside of the new store that opens near the greatest academy in the empire have held in many curious potential customer.
"This is really convenient and useful clothes…"
"It changes the temperature required of the wearer, such function is practical, and I am going to buy this"
"…"
"The design of the dress…"
The female customer has an entangled expression.
"Miss can request for personal design of this temperature item clothes, it only charge a few extra"
The pretty staff of the Meir Alora Store inform, having a warm and standard polite smile.
"…I will request for specific design"
"Please follow me this way"
"…"
"Gas stove? LPG? What item is this?"
"Light bulb? It light up without needing ether or source stone? This is like the expensive glowing pearl that only few nobles could buy!"
"How much does it cost?"
"This is even affordable for even farmers"
"This light bulb last for six month, then we will need to change a thing called battery. Just buying the battery is cheaper than a candle"
"…Will you buy it?"
"I calculate, the penny we spend on candle over the year cost more than the light bulb with its battery, the battery need to be changed only after six month while candles and wax are needed to be bought after every few weeks, the conclusion is, I will buy it"
"…Damn, you are so particular in keeping tab on how much you spend"
"If you're going to buy it, I will as well"
"Hmm… It's good I happen to come to the city to sell my crops, I don't have to miss the first open ceremony discount"
"…"
"This flute produce illusion of butterfly fluttering around when played…"
"It's not very useful"
"I think young miss will like it, to play around with it"
"…"
"A tape recorder that does not need the imbued of ether…huh…This is interesting"
"Polaroid? Camera?!… What a strange name….."
The inside of the store was buzzed with excitement and interest.
Some students from the academy came in with their friends to check out the new store, the residents living around the area and those who are interested after receiving the hand out advertisement.
A very novel way to popularize a new open shop that is why it got a few interested visitors as well.
*
I was looking around the store with doll no 1 body.
Whatever it sees and heard I experience them as well if I concentrate my will on it.
It feels like I am inside a cyborg.
I could not sense any sensory nerve like heat or cold, the caress of the wind or my feet touching the ground. I only have an ability to move around normally, see normally, hear normally and speak normally.
It was a somewhat novel feeling when I first will my consciousness inside Doll 1 body but I get the hang of it now.
The store as I've seen is doing better than I expected.
The curious students were quick to buy the entertaining products while the practical people buy the convenient appliances.
Business is doing just fine so I withdraw my consciousness, leaving the store to its own accord.
"Are you checking out your store?"
Mother asked, sipping her tea.
"En"
Mother happens to be free today so she immediately held a simple tea party between mother and daughter.
"Is little Ruru not going to sell the toy gun?"
I am used to my mother knowing my every activity.
"No"
Like I said, I will not sell something that can be upgraded to great levels, copied and manufactured in large quantity causing mass destruction.
I am at least that much sensible.
"Why?" Mother asked, looking at me in confusion "It was a good toy"
"A good toy that can cost millions life if not handled well"
But where is there thing that has ever been handles well when it comes to weapon?
Look at my previous world, a method to make bomb can be easily found on the internet even though it was a restricted weapon. Look at the many illegal purchase of weaponry.
Those bombing case that gets to the headline of the BBC news often.
"Meir, you know…"
My mother looks at me, her expression calm and no longer has that constant gentle smile expression.
"If you want to, I will let you… The cause of it, mother can handle them. I want to give you everything you want and let you do whatever you want…"
"I will be spoilt rotten…" I grumbled, looking down at the tea cup.
"It's okay, I don't mind a spoilt little Ruru. My little Ruru can be spoilt rotten all she want"
I hug the patchwork teddy bear closer.
"… Wh- who want to be a spoilt rotten kid"
I stumbled on my word, my expression a bit fierce as I snap back.
My soul is already an adult.
Ugh…
Why did she say that?
Embarrassing!
"I know…" Mother hum a reply "Little Ruru has always been a sensible child since a baby, crying rarely, making trouble rarely… mother is not the best kind of mother, I don't really understand motherhood. I don't know how to act as a proper mother. I just know how to give whatever is asked of, I don't know how to have a bonding time normally like most of my peers does with their children. I lack very much"
I felt a hand on my head, caressing my hair gently.
"Mother is really lucky to have Little Ruru who is always understanding of mother, accepting mother with whatever I lack"
I grab the patchwork teddy bear a bit tighter.
"Ruru is the best daughter, thank you Ruru"
I hug the patchwork teddy bear a bit tighter.
I blink.
Blink a bit profusely.
The tea picnic was finished earlier than usual as I want to head back early.
*
My cheeks felt a warm liquid.
Some flow down near my lips.
Salty…
I get on the bed and cover myself with the blanket.
The tears kept flowing down even though I try to stop it.
My throat hurts.
My bitter whimper that was held back hurts.
Pitter Patter…
The uncontrollable tears kept pouring.
Why is it that my life in this world is such a stark contrast to my life in my previous world?
I am the one who is lacking.
I am not sensible. I am actually a very bad child.
If I am such a good child, I should've taken up my role as the eldest daughter and not be so neglectful of my younger siblings.
I will not have such a thought of not wanting my parent to pass away before me in fear that I will lose financial support and that I will feel ashamed under people sympathy and not dare raise my head.
The tender feeling I have of my family is just that superficial.
The mother I gained in this world, she is so selfless when it comes to her child even though she didn't know how to properly raise them.
Her love is immeasurable.
I am searching for a way to protect her from the war only because I don't want to be lonely.
Most mothers are always there for their children and tolerate them.
I can only trust a mother love, I don't trust anyone.
I trust in her love as a mother and not in her actual self.
I am despicable.