CHAPTER 1
**EVELINE**
You know that moment when you think for a second that your life is starting to look up? That when the universe in my case decides to take me for a spin. Who could have thought that of all days my damn transition would start on my birthday party? I am dying. I am struggling to breath and not scream at the same time,,, a task hard to do. I need to get out of here.
"Eveline! Leaving your own party? no that's not allowed….oh my God Eve are you okay you look pale"
I can't deal with this right now
" Kelsie I'm fine I think I'm about to puke" that works.
My vision is blurred and another wave of bones twisting makes me scream but it's so loud no one hears me. I make it outside and fall on the pavement just outside the club's entrance. Its gruesomely painful and I can't believe I'm going through it alone. The only thing that's in my mind right now is that I need to be far away from here. I crawl to the alley.
I can't make it. My clothes are tearing apart my claws and face distorting, waves of pain bone crunching….no no no …someone is coming. I can't make the face but I can see the silhouette of a man. no! this is not happening to me right now. I think I'm crying and screaming at the same time and scared. The last thing my mind registers is a blinding pain through my skull and the figure leaning down towards me.
Cold. That's the first thing that registers when I wake up. I open my eyes slowly as my mind start recollecting the last thing I remember.
" you're awake" dad.
I try sitting up and my body is covered in a woolen cloth. We are in the wood.
"Dad what are you doing here? what happened"
"you're shivering honey.. drink this" he hands me a cup of tea. "Eveline,i know we don't agree on some things but yesterday could have gone so differently. Your mother and I were so worried. Why did you have to sneak out on the most important day of your life? We wanted it to be special…"
"dad seriously…I'm okay and for what's worth nothing went wrong I'm here now aren't i?"
"Do you even want to comprehend the seriousness of this matter or you just want to shut me out as usual? I'm trying here eve…talk to me. If I hadn't found you in time in that alley.."
"But you did. I'm really cold, can we go home now? I would love to be have a shower and sleep I'm really feeling tired"
honestly speaking I don't want to sound like a brat or so rude to my dad but I'm an emotional wreck right now. I know my parents were worried about me and I'm sorry I put them through so much constantly but I just don't know how to open my heart and not completely fall over the edge.
You see, my parents are really not my biological parents. My biological parents died when I was pretty young. Something I don't like thinking about since they were killed and I had to have adopted by Martha and Jeffrey..my mom and dad as I know them. I love them so much but clearly I have a lot to deal with or else I will continue hurting the people I love most in this world. yesterday was hard on me.
I missed my biological parents in a way I didn't expect. I remember so little about them but even with that it hurts. I would have wished that my first transition would be with them.
My mom encouraging me as we turned together, the three of us running in the woods..hunting together…i guess that's why when that couldn't happen I just wanted to be alone .of course I organized a party in a club with my high school friends and I had figured if I started feeling weird at any point I would have left. We know how that went.
My mom meets us at the gate and I can see how worried she is" Eveline honey" she hugs me.
"I'm sorry mom"
"shhh don't apologize.. let's get you inside good lord! You're shivering"
we get inside and I head to my room to get a shower. After awhile my mom calls me downstairs
"something smells delicious mom what's cooking?"
"well I made you a special plus I wanted to make this day a special day for you. One might say it's like a birthday"
Jeffrey stands in the kitchen doorway "your mother insisted on calling it that don't blame me"
"well thank you and I think if it comes with this deliciousness I'm in. I think my appetite is higher than it was "
"your appetite Is always high sweetheart"
"haha thanks dad"
we eat breakfast and laugh at my dad's jokes . I keep wondering and dreading when the scolding is going to come since I broke a pact we had made a while ago about my first transition.
Martha is the one that speaks first "Eveline I want us to talk about yesterday. "
"mom I told dad I'm really okay-"
"no. you get to listen this time. What happened yesterday was special. We would have loved to be a part of it. But that's not all.
Something could have gone wrong so badly as well. We live with humans Eveline. You always see the measures your father and i take every fool moon. Because we know that if anyone ever knew we were different how fast our lives would change. I'm not scolding you but that was very reckless of you. Selfish even.
We have taught you this since you were a kid so this is not new to you. Our wolves don't think like we do on any other day. Our animal instincts take over. You could've hurt someone yesterday when you were hunting."
my dad takes my hand " we love you so much eve. All we are doing is protecting you. That's why we have decided to move back home."
"what do you mean?" I'm starting to get confused.
They surely can't be meaning home back in Laurentia.
" We are going back home in Laurentia where it's safe for us as a family.you will be able to grow and learn more about our heritage. Your dad and I have decided that and it's final."
"no! you can't just decide that without even asking how I feel about it. Dad please…I have a life here..you can't just uproot me" I'm grasping at straws at this point because I can see they already made up their minds.
"it's good for you eve. It will be good for us as a family too. I don't expect you to be open about it but we are doing it and I hope you will take this positively."
If I'm being honest with myself I want this move. I need it even. I have always been curious about my homeland but I couldn't really ask my folks directly because they would start getting worried why I had so many questions.
this could finally mean I get l the answers I have been trying to find about the details surrounding the death of my parents.
"I understand. Will I get time to say my goodbyes to my friends though?"
my parents are shocked, that I can tell even if they are trying to hide it.
" yes of course. We are leaving in a week's time so you can do that" my dad tells me.
"honey are you sure you are okay?" my mom always worries about me
"im great mom. Thank you for the breakfast. I'm going to head out now 'i'll see you guys in a bit."