Fu Heng turned and he and the other two men disappeared from view.
"Where have you been?"
"I wasn't cheating on you if that's what you're worried about. I would never do that and I think faithfulness is the most important thing in a marriage. So you can calm yourself now, my body is still only yours."
I practically spat the last few words.
"I only walked around the city."
"You walked around the city at night alone?"
I stared into his eyes, hoping he could see how much I hated him for what I'd seen, how much it hurt to know he respected me so little.
"You have no right to be angry with me. Not after what I saw today. You cheated on me."
He snarled.
"How can I be cheating when we don't even have a real marriage? I can't even sleep with my own wife. Do you think I'll live like a monk until you decide you can stand my closeness?"
That arrogant bastard.
Because of he and my father had made sure I didn't even talk to other men until my wedding to him.
"God forbid. How dare I expect my husband to be faithful to me? How dare I hope for this small decency in a devil?"
"I'm not a devil. I've treated you with respect."
"Respect?" My voice rose higher.
"I caught you with another woman! Maybe I should go out, bring a random guy back with me and let him eat me in front of your eyes. How would that make you feel?"
Suddenly, he flung me on the bed and was on top of me, my arms pinned above my head. Pushing through the choking fear, I said.
"Do it. Take me, so I can really hate you."
His eyes were the most terrifying thing I'd ever seen.
His nostrils flared. I turned my face away and closed my eyes. He was breathing harshly, his grip on my wrists too tight.
My heart pounded against my ribcage as I lay unmoving beneath him. He shifted and pressed his face into my shoulder, releasing a harsh breath.
"Fo God's sake, Shen Mi."
I opened my eyes. He released my wrists but I kept my arms above my head.
Slowly he raised his eyes. The anger was gone from his face. He reached for my cheek but I turned away.
"Don't touch me with her liquid on you."
He sat up.
"I'm going to take a shower now, and we will both calm down and then I want us to talk."
"What's there left to talk about?"
"Us. This marriage."
I lowered my arms.
"You sleep with a woman in front of my eyes today. Do you think there's still a chance for this marriage?"
"I didn't want you to see that."
"Why? So you could cheat in peace and quiet behind my back?"
He sighed, and began unbuttoning his shirt.
"Let me take a shower. You were right. I shouldn't disrespect you further by touching you like this."
I shrugged.