THEY SAY FAMILY IS THE ONE WHO PROTECTS YOU... BUT IN MY CASE IT ISN'T TRUE"
6 years ago
9th may 2012
"I'll miss you dad". I said in a trembling voice.I was hurting so badly every part of my body was in pain as hell my eyes got swollen and my face was pale from continuously crying.The funeral was just ended and I was sitting on an old chair shedding tears,after tiring myself from long sitting I pulled myself together and started process things which happened lately while processing I felt severe headache which made me realize I have an injury on back of my head due to accident,I was taking it lightly.
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I heard my mother's voice talking to someone this late.I got curious so I walked to the living room and what I heard I couldn't believe,It was like someone stab me so hard on my back. My mother was talking to the owner of the Angel guardian home about taking me in. She was planning to send me to an orphanage where children go when they lose their parents. I got the guts to ask her just to comfort myself maybe what i heard and saw it's not what it looks like.
"Mom who is going to an angel guardian home?". Her face was clearly showing hatred.
"Rachel we'll talk about this tomorrow now go to your bed". She turned her face on me.
I was insisting her to answer me "but mom i heard you are sending someone there who is it?" I asked in an innocent way.My mother,Rita park is a kind women and a great mother,My dad loved her so much we were a perfect example of a happy family in town,but they said right there is a end of a happiness something like this happend dad left us in this cruel world alone he passed away in an accident after that mom didn't talk to me yet and I don't know why.
"YOU" I AM SENDING YOU TO ANGEL GUARDIAN HOME'' She shouted with her lungs out at that point I was scared and lost enough to react. A Lot of questions were building in my head. I know my mother loves me but I failed to find an answer to why she is doing this to me.
"Why mom".I just couldn't help myself and asked only these pitiful words slips from my tongue.I was already crying alot but the answer of my why left a scar on my heart.
"Because of you your dad isn't with us....he should be standing with us.you are the reason i lost my husband my love my everything,we shouldn't have had you.."She said all those poisonous words while crying.
I know mom you are upset but how come I am the reason for my own dad's death these all the words were clashing in my mind i didn't know what to say in my defense I can only cry at that age.
She was shouting and spitting harshful words on me "YOU ARE THE REASON RACHEL".she barked. "YOU ARE THE DAUGHTER WHO TOOK HIS OWN FATHER'S LIFE"I was shocked would be an understatement.
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I was feeling left alone in a dark room with no doors and windows.it was like i did my both parents funeral.I was standing in front door of angel guardian home on left of it there was a park where I saw mother and daughter celebrating mother's day my heart feel a pinch when i saw that my mom handover me to the incharge of child home miss alberta marshall like I am leftover piece of food and she didn't hesitate a bit.
I was looking in the direction of her car moving until it left my sight, at that point the picture of a happy family got shattered and I realized that family is nothing to do from now on my priority list or I just thought.
When she was gone I only said 3 words while my eyes were continusoly tearing.
"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY"
TO BE CONTINUED