- Do you believe in your intuition, Chan? - asked Tila tranquil.
- Sometimes. - said Chan, while looked into the pink horizon.
- I take Bo with me walking in the park. This often helps me decide what I should do. When I see it jumping, playing, running, I make a decision to take the M pill. You know, that is the energizer from the future, the simple rule of being active. The M pill is my own personal motivation for absolutely anything I'm considering doing. - explains Tila.
- What is the M pill? Can I buy it from the pharmacy or this is just a metaphor? - preoccupied Chan.
- It's a metaphor, you silly! - laughed Tila and suddenly she stoned her face.
- Yep, I guess it, but I had to bluff you. Your sense of humor is on a thin line almost everytime anyone asked you a rhetorical question. - explained Chan like he cared about Tila's emotions.
- The M pill's motto is Motivation, Move, Mind. If you take this, you should use it in this way. First and most importantly - you find a motivation in doing things. If you are motivated enough, then you have a strong reason of doing something. Moreover, you have goals to achieve. The second step is to move. The motivation is a dynamic thing. This means you should have enough energy points to move around. The more you move, the more things you do. This way you are keeping be active. The moment you stop, you increase the possibility of falling in deep sleep mode. Another way to show how motivating is to move along the way is to challenge your mind constantly. The more you plan, the better version of you is showing up over the horizon. This is a vicious circle of the triple M's. The more you challenge yourself, the more motivated you are. Repeat after me:
Mind - motivation - move - mind - move - motivation - move - mind - motivation - mind - move - mind - motivation...
- ... Mind - motivation - move... - hypnotized Chan repeated the spam.
- So that is the M pill. Now take it an go! - agitated Tila like this is her moment of glory.
- This all great, but... I don't know what is going to be like, when I'm done studying at school. Hence I don't know if I should take a GAP year or should I apply to the University or maybe I should stay here do nothing. - complains Chan.
- Oh no, the last option is never an option. Furthermore, I already had told you about the M pill, which denies the existing of possibility of doing nothing. - she tries to calm Chan's depressive thoughts down.
- But you never know what is correct or incorrect. People are different after all. - he continued with the propaganda of life destruction thoughts.
- You know, Chan. I'm getting late for class. Are you coming? - said Tila in sign of strongless abdication.
- Nah. I'm gonna skip this one. I'm not big fan of this new teacher at all. See you later! - tried to change the subject the empty-souled Chan.
- Um... This is your business, Chan. - said Tila with obvious desire of slapping him at the face.
- I bet it is. - answered Chan with voice filled with painful sarcasm.
The moment Tila took the stairs to the classroom, she incidentally realized that this dialog with his confused classmate is not random.
She tried to be back again the place where they'd talk, but Chan wasn't there anymore.
- What is he doing? - asked herself with stressed voice. Does he thinks the same as me? No, he couldn't be this bad. Maybe if I start chasing him, I'm gonna make him nervous and he will dissappear for good.
This boy has issues and I should take them seriously. Cool, Chan! Now I should be your personal pchycho therapeut, without your approval. Now I must be back in class! I won't ruin my whole school year, because of his strange behavior. I'm gonna find him later today.
***
Meanwhile Chan was started to use the M pill. The first question he wanted to answer was:
Am I motivated enough to complete the full course of my last year of school education?
A. Not that much, because I haven't decided what I'm going to do with my diploma.
A1. Not that much, because I'm gonna burn my diploma down to the ground, and watch it how it burns in flames.
A2. Not that much, because I think to sell out my diploma to someone who'll need it somehow.
A3. Not that much, because I don't want to take an effort to possess something I don't need at this period of my life.
B. Significantly not. Who needs a diploma nowadays?
B1. Significantly not. I haven't been completely prepared for my exams. I'm gonna fail!
B2. Significantly not. The competition is brutal. I won't be ranked. What an effort, after all...
B3. Significantly not. I feel undone. To be a student in University means to have a lifetime goal. Well, I don't.
C. Maybe. Probably I will be somebody. I can take the chance.
C1. Maybe. I can use my latest education to continue it or to get a job. It may worth it.
C2. Maybe. This would be a good thing to do to myself. People say when one door closes, another one will opens. The same is with the possibilities.
C3. Maybe. This is one time shot. Not everyone has the opportunity to be graduated. Plus, my school isn't that bad at all. This would do me a huge favor.
The 2nd part of his selfinterviewing would be like: Am I willing to find an interesting thing to do as my free-time activity?
A. This is a confusing question. What means interesting to me?
A1. This confuses me. What is a free-time to me? What time is not free to me?
A2. This confuses me a lot. How to find something I don't know how to start searching for?
A3. My mind crashes. Do I enjoy having free time at all?
B. Partly. I already have some activities which I don't consider as interesting.
B1. Partly. I already had tried some interesting activities, but I still don't know what is the right one for me.
B2. Partly. I have something to do, but I don't have enough time practicing it.
B3. Partly. I have enough activities at school. It's cool to try something new outside of it.
C. I'm not sure about it. Sometimes I have interests in doing things, sometimes I just want to do nothing.
C1. Not sure. I just don't have patience practicing sports or playing video games.
C2. Not sure. I just don't care at all.
C3. Not sure. I often do things, but when I found they are interesting, as quit.
The 3rd question Chan's got to answer to himself is: Do I take challenges at some point of my existence?
A. Yes. Pretty often thought.
A1. Yes. I even attach to others while doing it.
A2. Yes. It's part of being who I am.
A3. Yes. Suddenly pineapples.
B. No. But I would, if I get a chance.
B1. No. But I have the intention of doing it.
B2. No. This is a waste of time and waste of energy.
B3. No. That's the stupidest thing people do when they get bored.
C. Frequently. I use social media to watch how other people challenge themselves.
C1. Frequently. I get inspired by other people who take challenges.
C2. Frequently. I use my potential of being part of challenges on the Internet.
C3. Frequently. I interact with my classmates to upload challenges on social media.
So when someone asks me do I have the right answer of knowing who exactly am I? What I've done? Where I'd do? I need to get to know myself first.
***
The next day at school Chan finds Tila in a great mood. Tila enjoys spending time with Chan, because she's feeling good when is placed of the position of the adviser. Tila finds Chan attractive, but she'd never had backside thoughts about their friendship. Chan shares mutual warm intentions with Tila, but the only difference between them is that Chan wants to be listened, the same way Tila wants to listen.
- Hey, Tila! I figured it out! Thanks a lot for you helping me.
- No problem! I'm happy to help. What your intuition has telling you?
- My intuition is not a key factor for my development, or for my decision making. I think I solve my problems in other way. Way more effective than before.
- I like what you say! Tell me more about it! I'm all ears!
- Nah! I think I should try it before I spread the word outloud. This time I'm gonna go for the actual results.
- Why do you say that? Didn't you started believing in bad luck?
- Not even close. My opinion is that if I spend a little more time for discussing my situation, I'm gonna lose the right moment for action. It's not that simple, you may say. But it is. You want something - you go for it! You dream of something - you make this comes true. I'm not sure if you'll understand me, but I'm sure you'll try to.
- Well, particularly yes. Also, I'm proud of you. You sound like an grown-up now.
- Thank you, Tila. I'll contact you as soon as I achieve at least one of my goals.
- I believe so. See you soon!
- Use a spoon! - Chan laughed kindly and took the floor that leads next to the Dean's office.
Chan swallowed with difficulty 3 times as a sign of embarrassing. He looks forward to meet the Principal in order to discuss his decision for resignation.
- OMG! OMG! This woman freaks me out! I don't want to see her! Please, don't open the door! Hold the door closed. Don't open it! I feel just fine waiting here someone else to welcomes me. I'm gonna write an official statement about my position. Why I should see this woman in person? I don't need to shorten my life this way. Hold the door! HOLD THE...
OH, HI! ... Principle Wisdom! - accidently Chan breaks off his inside debating, because the Principal had opened the door of her office.
- Hello, Chan! I suppose I haven't been kept you in wait for a long time. How's at school? Is everything alright?
- Everything is fine, but I came here to discuss if there's a single option for approving my resignation.
- Come in! I don't believe what did you just asked for.
- Yep, Dean. There's nothing to do with you or with the school as a whole, but... I...
Look, Madam, no hard feelings! This is my life, I'll do whatever I please. With or without your blessing! - the Chan's emotions escalated the way he couldn't kept any patience to leave the most important for the end of the dialogue.
- OK. Let's make this clear. You want to use your rights for pausing your education, because of personal reasons. Is that correct?
- Yes, this is exactly what I want to do. I'm gonna be back again as soon as I solve the puzzle of my life.
- Is there anything I should know about what's happening with you, Chan?
- Not really, Principal. Please, do me a favour and let's ends up this conversation ASAP.
- Fine then! As a student from this school, you have the opportunity to pause your education in various ways. Once for period of 6 months without the need of restarting the school year; once for period of 12 months with the condition of renewing the following class you've been missing out; once for period of 18 months with the condition of changing the form of education from presenting to online studying. You need a motivational letter, also you have to make an appeal for suspension. Please prepare copy of your ID, plus you should pay the tax for approval and consideration of your application. If your applying documents are accepted, you're free to go.
Any further questions?
- No, thank you for your time, Principal. You were very polite and comprehensive. - said Chan with a stone just fallen off his chest.
- I wonder if you can rethink it and change your mind. - took a keen interest in Chan's opinion.
- Not for the time being. Someday I'll be back again.