It hurts!
"Haahh...Haa...Hah.."
My back, my arms, my head. It hurts...
I clenched my teeth out of frustrations and anger.
I was frustrated and hurt, Why does this have to happened?..
Hey?..
You're in there right? The one they called God. Hey, tell me, why does this have to happened to me? Ever since I woke from this body, all of the things that had happen to me was all misfortune.
My mother died, I lost my memories, Then my father left me, I mostly get beaten every day by my aunt, And even now? All of misfortune was thrown at me, what else are you going to throw at me?...
It hurts! It hurts! The hell? It hurts like hell!
I can't even move my arms anymore, "Shit!" I screamed i with anger and grief like a cat that took its last shriek before passing.
It hurts! I don't want this! Who would even want such things?..
I don't want to continue, if I'm going to live with misfortune every single day, Then I'd rather end it myself.
"Ugh!" I tried to get up using my hands but I wasn't able to as it was so excruciating just from feeling it.
I desperately get up and sooner than later, After many failed attempt I managed it, I don't know why I still have the energy, may be it came from my resolve to end my pain with my own two hands or just something else.
I wondered onto the place with full of trash, a Thought even cross my mind before I reached the edge of it.
"Maybe I was also trash and that's why they have thrown me here?.Do I belong here?...Tsk...
Whatever! As I made up my decision, I finally grasped where am I when I examined the place using my left eye that I can barely use because of wounds and bruises on it.
It seems like I was on the top of the building,. I don't know why there's so many trash here on the top of the building but all I can think of was "It was perfect, If I jumped on here or fall from here, I can finally rest...
As I walked towards the edge of the building, I noticed that my hands and body are trembling.
Shit! Didn't you already made up your mind? Don't be a scaredy cat!
With all of my strength, I approached the railings and noticed how dusty it is. I tried to leaned against the rail but I stumbled onto something and fell on the ground, making my body bounced on the rock with s crackling sounds. By then, my gaze was focused straight onto the buildings next to where I am.
All I can see now was just how tall the building just by looking from the floors it have, if I really jump off here, I'll die.
Is this really the right thing I should be doing?!
I clenched my arms and grit my teeth as I close my eyes in grief. Tears streamed down on my face, I can't accept the fact that I am this pathetic.
It's just death, nothing serious. "Haha.." A low laughed escaped my mouth.
I filled myself with such thoughts and manage to get up again, When I'm finally about to let go of myself by Stepping on the air after Crossing over the railings with my left feet, sudden, I heard a girl yelled.
"No!"
My resolve was interfered by the sound, I wasn't sure why I bother looking for it then, as it becomes loud, I noticed that it came from below.
loking from the road where I plan to jump and fall, I noticed a car where a girl, next to her car that seems to have came out of it just now was yelling something.
" Kiomei! Don't do it!"
She desperately yelled while she looked at my direction.
"Kiomei!.... It's me! Your sister!"
Kiomei?... Who is she yelling at?..
Whatever, Let's do this, it's not like I car---
"Kio--- No," "Matsuki Satoro!"
When I was about to take my first step, The girl who's yelling since earlier called my name and was able to stop me from killing myself.
The way she called me made my heart thump so loud and gave me goosebumps, before I knew it, my sight started to become vague. I feel a rush of blood onto all of my body parts, and then I collapsed. As I experienced such thing, I was smiling, why? Because if I lost my consciousness here, surely I would fall onto the ground and bid a farewell to the world or so That's what I thought...
***
I opened my eyes, seeing an unfamiliar ceiling that has a white plain design. what a peaceful ceiling it is.
Am I in heaven? Heh, No way. Me going to heaven? I couldn't even imagine it.
"Kio- Matsuki!." Suddenly I heard an angelic voice. I looked where it came from and saw a woman who's clad in black suit. Sitting near the bed where I was lying, holding her hands together with her glum face.
who is she? And what is she doing here?..
Is she some kind of grim reaper who's going to guide me or some sort?..
Wait? What am I doing here? Laying on some kind of fluffy bed.
"Ugh..Why am..?" I put a hand onto my head after I felt an intense pain in my head. Then as I use my hand I felt like something .
I tried to get up, but all of a sudden I feel my body sinking onto the bed.
Argh.. My body feels so heavy, What happened to me?
Is human supposed to feel this when they died?.
"It looks like you finally wake up." The woman continued.
"You shouldn't move for now," She suggested upon holding my hand and sighed in relief. "You made me worried,! I thought you were gonna jump off from the building."
Huh? what is she talking about? Ugh... My head, it hurts. Didn't I already died though? I mean who wouldn't die from falling from that building. I think that was at least 20 floors.
But... Hey, you're kidding, right? I mean this..I stared at my hands not on the strange woman, and see my hand was covered in gauze And temperature chart and seems to be some kind of holter monitor by my side that you can only see on the hospitals.
I nervously tilted my head and looked on the lady, then
"Wh-what happened?" I managed to mustered up some strength and asked.
"Well, I don't know much, but you passed out near the railings, I'm glad that one of your hands got hooked up from the railings, if not.. If not you would've been in the after life."
Huh? It seems like I survived with an extreme luck..
Luck? Hahaha!...
It seems like I will continue to live? You gotta be shitting me!