The time Blair left It was as if the world got a little emptier, Alice didn't know what to make of it, the feeling of being connected to the other wolves was like emotions, and when Blair vanished Alice felt heartbroken.
A similar feeling probably would have been the day Fenrir left to take care of Eyvor, or Eduardo leaving to take care of Luna, Alice has experienced loss all over the world by now, and it felt to her it was part of the reason she so stubbornly continued on this pointless escapade.
She had to shrug love off, revenge grew ever stronger in her heart as day by day she failed to find Bloodeye Jack, and through time it became like an obsession, an addiction, she grew her fleet bigger and bigger hoping one of her ships will cross Bloodeye's path.
