"Your father will be here in a few days."
"Does that mean that we have to return to our room?"
"Yes Adam."
"Mmmhhmm…"
"Oh, stop groaning. We get to come back after father leaves." He looks up at me with those beautiful eyes, "..Don't we?"
"Yes, Little Lucian. You always do." I smile gently as he lays his head back into my chest.
Adam snuggles up closely.
No matter what troubles they cause, I still love these two.
He comes gliding in the door pulling them closely for a hug.
"Mmmm…. I've missed you!"
"We missed you too father!"
It still surprises when they speak together as one person even though they do it often these days.
When he closes his eyes the softness of his lashes catches the breeze before Emmanuel closes the door.
"How have they been?" He rises letting go of his leatherbound bags for Amanda to take.
"They've been good. No trouble at all."
"Hmmph…." The twins step aside and turn to walk behind him.
When he embraces me, no one else exists.
"Aaahhmmmffpp…aahh..aah…mmpfff…."
The sounds that our skin makes when touched by the other makes me tremble more than the tail pumping in and out of mine while the one between his legs works the tight hole between my butt cheeks.
"AAAAhhhmmm…..sskk..hh" Each time he bites my lip, I'm reminded of Vastava. Lucian has his ways about him, but there are many things that the two of them do so alike. I can't believe…. I never noticed…
"What should we do today?"
"The boys have really taken to riding the horse."
"Oh really?"
"Yes, Father!"
"It's so fun!"
"Hahahahaa.hahaha…. okay, we will go riding today."
"Yay!"
It's beautiful out. I never tire of this nice Parisian weather. I breath in the air around me as if for the first time. For some reason, even if we have done things a thousand times, it always feels like the first time when he's with us. We tie the horses to some trees while Emmanuel lays out the blanket for us. It's nice being able to let our tails out in this secluded section of the estate. When I'm here with them…I can truly be myself and not the image of Patheos that I had to always portray when in front of them back on Zathira. It's the same when I was with Vastava. It's a relief to be around those that know who I am.
"Penny for your thoughts."
Ah, yes, he's always looking at me…
"What is that?"
"Something I picked up from the West. Those colonists have a dialect all their own."
"Hahahaaam…. just relishing the fact that I can…be this way…"
"This way?" Leaning his elbow on his bent-up knee, he turns his head to look off into the distance with me for an instant. "Oh…yes the soft vulnerable you that we have come to love. But I would be lying if I said I didn't want to see that other part of you that you hide so well…"
Tilting his head back slightly he gazes at me to see my reaction. I must admit, that did make me flinch. But he knows…to let loose such power on this planet…is not something I think it can handle.
"You're happier with us. Beasts in their natural forms."
He laughs taking a grape and tossing it in his mouth. I laugh under my breath bowing my head. Hearing the twins laughing in the background, I close my eyes and let his words sink in.
****
I've told him once that I wouldn't mind having a child with him. I've teased him about it a few times…. but…he shrinks away from it. I know the reason, but it doesn't stop me from trying.
"Patheos, one of these days…I will conceive a child with you."
We look at each other for what seems an eternity. He moves his gaze to the boys behind me. I know without looking that Amethis is staring at him. The twins are not oblivious to anything, so why keep secrets from them. With the way that they love him, you would think he was their dropnutem. If only.
"Boys, come eat." I say to them.
As they come running, Patheos bows his head again and smiles softly before gazing up at the sun.
"It's a beautiful day today."
"Any day with you is beautiful Patheos."
"Hahmahhaa…so cheesy."
Later that night, he asked me something unexpected.
"Tell me a secret Lucian."
The color of his eyes seems to twinkle as he looks at me. Yes, he does know that I'm keeping something from him. Something…. that I keep buried deep inside of me. Only Vastava knows it…If I tell Patheos, he might experience some pain from such a grim reminder of his dropnutem.
"Patheos." He trembles whenever I call his name this way. Just as I shiver when Vastava calls me. "Not yet. …it still…haunts me even now. Just…give me sometime…"
"I understand." Brushing my cheek warmly, he leans in for a kiss. "Take your time."
I exhale slowly. Closing my eyes, I feel him wrap around me. I open my eyes in a slit as I gently embrace him, devouring him for the second time tonight.