Meredith's POV
I pulled over from the road immediately to ponder over my foolishness.
Why do I want to go to see him badly? It's not as if we have some kind of relationship between us.
I loath him, he was the reason why I lost my best friend but why can't I stay away from him? Why does it hurt so much when he requires me? Why can't I just let go?
I have been reckless all my life except for the last year and a half when I had to reorder my entire life once again.
It was hard adjusting without my mother, and since then I have thought of everything carefully because no one is there to clean up the mess I make.
That's why I can't understand why I feel this way, I have been lying to myself I fell in love with him, I don't know how it happened but it did.
I hated him now I love him with the same intensity and the thought of him being hurt crushes my soul.
