I'm all dolled up.
This wasn't how I envisioned it in the beginning at all, but so much has changed and I no longer have control. Cyran sent them up two hours ago. He wants me to look perfect, but he didn't bother finding out if that's what I wanted. The fact that he didn't tell me the whole pack would have to witness just reinforces my belief that something is tragically wrong with him. He's trying to fake it, but it's the truth. At this point, I don't know why he's even mating with me.
He should've forgotten all about me. He should've just chosen Emilia and lived happily ever after with her.
I look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. This isn't Mia, but not in that I'm-going-to-cry-I-look-stunning way. It's almost like he wants me to morph into someone I'm not. I'm only relieved that he didn't send Emilia up here. I can't take any more of this humiliation.
