CHAPTER 14
Watching their meeting I grow more uncomfortable. What is their relationship? Clearing my throat to get their attention towards me. Deimos comes out of his haze and points towards me. "Theia, this is my mate." Deimos introduces me. Her eyes widen with surprise and turn questioning towards Deimos. His eyes slowly begin to sadden and they turn away from her. This further agitates me. Who is she?
Turning towards me she puts out her hand. "Hello, I'm Theia. It's wonderful to finally meet you." Smiling to her words I shake her hand still wary of her presence. She leaves our side to mingle with the others. My eyes watching her every movement often catching her meeting Deimos eyes making my heart twist and clench. Who is she?
As the sun sets bringing forth darkness, the welcome ceremony they prepared for her comes to life. The lights sparkling and soft music playing in the background. The loud laughs and chatter of the wolves make it all livelier. Theia often sticks close to Deimos.
Are they just friends? Who is she?
Deimos feels my eyes on him and he looks in my direction. I quickly turn away from him not wanting him to see my doubts. After their conversation, he walks up to me. "May I?" Deimos always respects against him.
Bowing their head with sly smiles directed towards me they all answer with "Of course, Alpha!" Deimos grabs my hand and leads me to his table. Theia watches our entwined hands with a look I can't quite seem to decipher.
"Why did you bring me here?" I question him while we wait for the food to be prepared. My eyes searching for Theia's.
"You have been sitting with your wolf the whole evening. I know you do so mostly when you seek comfort. So my question is what's making you seek it?." His words taking me off-guard. How does he know so many things about me while I know nothing of him?
"If you need come along, you can always bring your pack members to here."
"Really? It's great, thank you. Deimos.
"I have told you before, mate. I watch you. Now you answer my question." He answers my unasked question making me frown deeper. With a huge sigh, I answer him of my feelings.
"My wolf is feeling very agitated. She sees and understands something that I don't but she doesn't wish to tell me." I tell him my truth. He looks at Theia who is sitting across our table laughing and smiling with the pack members. He's hiding something from me. I look around at the pack members. They all are. Why? What is being hidden frome me? Who can I ask for truth?
Ragon pops in my head.
After the ceremony, Ragon leaves to complete an urgent job given to him by Deimos while I sit and ponder about why and what everyone seems to be hiding from me. I can't seem to work it out as to why I'm making it a big deal. Why do I feel like I have to find out what is going on?
The lights are put off and all the pack members are all asleep with the moon high up in the sky sharing her light for us. I watch Deimos and Theia from my balcony as they drink and laugh to themselves. The soft night breeze blows pushing my hair across my face.
Feeling something under my eyes, I swipe my hand across only to feel wetness. I rub more. I'm crying? But why? I don't have a reason to cry unless.. unless my wolf is upset. Why? Why is she so upset lookin at them? Aren't they just friends? I don't sleep well throughout the night, twisting and turning trying to get some rest. But how can one sleep when there is wary and mind is filled with unanswered questions.
Daylight seeps through the windows in my room and I am still wide awake looking up at the ceiling. I didn't even get a minute of sleep. Getting ready for my early morning jog, I see Deimos and Theia running in front of me. Getting frustrated I run faster in front of them and away from their sight. What is this? Were they together the whole night? I hate this, I hate these feelings growing within me.
The whole pack meets in the field preparing for training including Theia. Deimos keeps an eye on me throughout the training. I guess he has questions as well. I ignore him till the end of thr training not missing Theia looking and observing Deimos and me. What is with this female? Before Deimos could get to me, I find Ragon.
"Ragon, come." I order him and he follows me with no questions asked.
"Yes, Luna?" He asks me softly.
"Answer me this Ragon. Who is Theia?." I finally voice out my question. His eyes widen for a second but he quickly hides it.
"Theia is Alpha Deimo's close friend. They have been together since they were pups, Luna." He answers my question looking straight into my eyes. He wants me to believe him.
"That I know, Ragon. But there's something you are leaving out." I tell him without hesitation.
"No, Luna. That's al-" Ragon begins to support himself
"The truth! I want the truth! All of you are hiding something from me. I need to know and you will tell me, Beta." My voice growing louder by each word pouring out my frustration.
With a deep bow and sad eyes, Ragon leaves telling me, "Sometimes not knowing is better than knowing is better than knowing, Luna. My duty is to protect you."
Her blonde hair seems like gold that sparkled in the sun pluged over her shoulders. Her eyes blue like two sapphires, hidden often showing a peek beneath her thick lashes and her lips plump and red that seems blossom soft in a pout. Delicate ears frame a button nose. A set of dazzling, angel-white teeth gleams when she smiles. Her body sculpted by the gods gifting her with thick hips her curves that would make any male fall on their knees to have her. This is Theia, her beauty so bright that at times I feel the need to cover my eyes from the aura she gives away.
I sometimes wonder why some are blessed by the moon goddess and seem to have "perfect" everything, while I wallow In my self-pity breaking apart lying on the ground bleeding and no one seems to notice. No one… including your mate. It's a slow death. It's like you are burning yourself from the inside as that's the only way you can stop yourself from crying out. You who are meant for greatness happily walk into the cage you built for yourself.
Days have passed by since Theia has been here. Each day is haunting, making me not want to wake up in the morning just so I don't see them. Every morning they run together and I can't help but feel jealous. It's a painful one. She has everything with him that I need as a mate. I stopped running these days, just so my eyes don't have to take it, I can't take the pain every time he looks at hers gently and chuckles softly to her jokes. Every time she touches him and every time he touches her they are slowly peeling away my flesh, leaving me bare to the heart-wrenching pain that follows.
But my wolf pushes me to gather strength often telling me we can overcome this, but she's stronger than I am. The difference between us is that she stands tall while fall apart. So she lends me her strength for today, for what is to come. She is preparing me for something, I feel it in my bones. My heart is wary and my mind is cautious. I don't know if I am ready to take it head-on. But I know I must do this. To find out about their relationship. I need peace.