Going down for breakfast, the pack has gathered at the table. My eyes scan the room searching for Deimos and widen I find he is not present. He is not here and so is Theia. Sitting at the right head chair of the table I wait with the other wolves. The Luna waits for her male who is dallying around with another female. But I keep my head high, back straight. I am Luna and I will act like one. The tension around the room is disrupted by a door opening and the high-pitched laugh of a female, a female I can easily recognize. Theia. So, my sensations were right, they were together.
They stop mid path eyes widening when see us all at the table. I feel Deimos eyes on me, but I spare this male not even a single glance keeping my eyes straight on the table. Clearing his throat, he walks to my left and plops down while Theia sits on his left, a seat specially saved for her. A seat she didn't have to fight for, something that was given without a question when asked.
"I apologize for the delay; I barely knew the time that passed by. You may all start eating." Deimos loud voice booms across the hall and with those words he stabs my heart as always. Didn't know the time that passed by? How long were they together? Does she keep his mind that busy? That he can't think of anything but her and what they were doing? My lips wobble, my shield will fall soon. My thoughts are interrupted when I take notice f Theia's ring. She wears it on proudly. The color of the ring reminds of something but I can't seem to remember it.
I keep feeling both Theia's and Deimos eyes on me throughout the breakfast. Demos is probably wondering why I am so quiet and why I haven't looked at him until I find what I'm searching for. Finishing my meal first before the others I get up, the screech of my chair against the floor catching everyone's attention. Silence takes over the room.
"Thank you for the meal, I quite enjoyed it." I show the females my sincere gratitude in return receiving warm smiles. They are happy, they pleased their Luna. If everything goes down at least I'll have my females who will resurrect me from the dead. I walk out of the breakfast hall to the secluded heat of Deimos castle. I take slow steps letting the breeze flow through my hair. Closing my eyes, I take in a deep breath of nature's scent. Nature can heal the scars of those who are broken. It came to my aid every time I was bleeding and here it is again.
My peace is cut short by Deimos scent overtaking my senses pushing away nature's. Slowly turning around, I look at him, really look at him. Is he worth my suffering? Is he worth to fight for? Is he worth to bleed for? Is.. is he worth to die for?
"How can I help you?" My formal tone ruffles him. He doesn't seem to like it. Good, I'll do it more often.
"You have been quiet today? Why?" He asks me his voice calm and cold as always. This male barely talks to me unless he has questions of my inattentiveness towards him. So how can he speak gently with her? How does his tone change when he speaks to her?
"Answer me, mate." He is quite persistent, isn't he? And what will he do when he knows of my inner turmoil? Nothing. That is Deimos.
Loud laughter bubbles through my chest out my mouth. Looking at him eye to eye I tell him what we both already know. "Don't pretend to care Deimos, I can see through you." This time it's my voice that turns cold. His eyebrows loop down to a frown, with that I begin my walk away from him. Grabbing my elbow in his hand he turns me around with a harsh tug so we stand face to face with no space between us.
"what's wrong with you? Why are you acting like this?" His question annoys me, sparkling anger.
"What's wrong with me?" I laugh once more. "No, the question here is what's wrong with you Deimos?" I tug my hand back from his grip. "When you have the answer to that, come find me." His frown deepens to my answer and this time he walks away. So that's how much he will fight for me?
Walking back to his castle. The eerie quietness adds to my depressed state. I wish for something more. Something warm. I want to fill this lonely castle with laughter and joy. I want my pups running around and mostly I want him by my side. Standing next to me, holding one of our pups looking down at me with warmth and love in his eyes. Tears flow down my cheeks as my mind shows me pictures of what I could have but would forever remain in a dream. Wiping my tears for what is to come.
Mid path I come face to face with Theia. We both stop just looking at each other. I do not want to start a conversation with her, I see no need for it. Trying to walk past her she stops me with her soft voice. "Would you like to have some tea with me in my room?" She asks me with curious eyes. With a single nod from my side, we both head to her room.
Sitting down on her bed she pours me some tea handing it to me. Thanking her I begin taking small sips. My eyes scanning her room slowly trying to understand her personality through how her room is structured. Overall it's filled with bright colors considering her bubbly personality, it suits her quite well.
"It's great to finally meet you." Her voice breaks my thoughts. Looking at her to continue indirectly. "You are more beautiful than I imagined." She whispers a soft smile across her lips. "And I still can't believe you were an Alpha."
"Are." I reply, my chest puffing up voice strong.
"I'm sorry?" She doesn't understand what I'm trying to tell her.
"Are an Alpha. I will always be an Alpha." I tell her my truth. Her eyes widen a little while she replies with a small nod.