James' POV
Carramel and I are walking home in late afternoon sun, our hands are swinging between the two of us as we make our way down the street. School has be obnoxious and irritating today, the paranoia leaking into every activity even if I'm not the one who's being targeted.
I kept entering Carramel's kind throughout the day to check on her and make sure she was okay. But after the fifth time she shut me out and refused to let me in claiming that I was being overbearing and her own anxiety is enough to deal with. I'm trying to reign in my over protective nature but it's hard with Carramel being so small and almost never in my sight for longer than a few minutes.
'If you keep crowding her, she's going to start pulling away from you. Holding on tighter only lets someone slip away easier. Let the bean breathe.' Sloan says and I sigh knowing he's right.
"What are you thinking so hard about over there." Carramel asks me and I think about telling her, but as I said, I'm working on it.
"I'm trying to figure out what we can do tonight besides work on homework." I tell her and she cringes.
"Well tonight there is no besides, I have to catch up to the rest of the class and do the homework I got today." She tells me and the sigh that she lets out is full of exhaustion. I know for a fact that Carramel didn't sleep last night, her tossing and turning the thing that repeatedly woke me up in the early morning hours.
"Do you want to take a nap, maybe?" I ask, not wanting her to think I'm smothering her, but also needing to remind her that it's okay to take care of herself but of course she shakes her head.
"I think I'm going to give the reigns over to Jessie tonight so I can rest. She paid more attention in class today than I did so she should be able to handle it." She reasons and I begin nodding my head until I freeze as I remember what happened yesterday with Jessie around and I immediately begin sweating in nerves.
"Uh. …" I stutter, unsure how I object Carramel's decision without embarrassing myself by tipping off why. "Are you sure? I mean we can just go to sleep for the night and wake up early." I tell her and she scrunches up her face a bit in contemplation before shaking her head.
"No that won't work for me, I'll just wake up grumpy and needy." She tells me as we turn on to the last street to head home. I let Alex drive home today, his sister had a female emergency and needed to get back to their house quick. I didn't mind, I always love walking with Carramel and just spending uninterrupted time together.
We make our way on to our property and head into the kitchen to grab a snack while my mind is going haywire.
'I'm going to fucking die.' I tell Sloan and he snickers at me, completely amused by my nerves.
'I think it's cute that Jessie gets you all flustered.' He tells me and I growl at him, which only makes him laugh more before he settles down. Carramel comes to sit across from me and sets down a napkin full of chips for us to share.
"How was class?" I ask the bean trying to distract myself from the wayward thoughts that are entering my mind. Like the way Jessie's wolf gleamed in the sun and the way she winked at me yesterday. I start in surprise when I feel my cock begin to get hard on my thigh within my jeans, especially when thinking about Jessie asserting her dominance … over me.
"It was okay." Carramel starts and I blush slightly when I realize I forgot I asked her a question. "Best class was Species Religion. Mr. Cedric is such a down to earth teacher."
I nod my agreement as I begin to munch on the chips in front of my turning all my attention to Carramel. "I remember taking him last year. He was always the best person to talk to about anything. Good vibes only is the best mantra ever." I tell her and she hums her agreement. It's not long before our napkin is clear and thrown away and I basically have to carry Carramel up the stairs to my room.
"I think I'm going to let Jessie take over now. I think I just felt my last brain cell die." She informs me and I chuckle at the words. As she closes her eyes for a second, I wipe my sweaty hands on my pants and try my best to remain cool and collected like always. It only takes a minute but soon Jessie is opening her eyes, blinking weirdly before she takes off the glasses and sighs in relief.
She sets them on the bedside table and then turns so that her gleaming black eyes make contact with my green ones. "Hey James." She says with a crooked smile and it takes all I have not to stare at it.
"Hey, Jessie, hows it going?" I ask but I am very much distracted by how her aura changes every time she appears. Instead of shy and sweet like her human counterpart, Jessie is steady, calm and confident as she sits in the chair at my desk, and leans back, her legs opening to accommodate what I know is a sizable package.
Holy hell get a grip.
"I'm okay. I'm glad Carramel decided to rest. She was running on pure fumes by the end of the day, but she wanted that time with you walking home." She says as she leans down and her elbows come to rest of her knees, making her smooth soft muscle flex a little in response.
"That's good. I always enjoy our walks." I say as I move around the room and start cleaning. My usual response when things get too intense for me. I feel Jessie's eyes on me as I move around the room, straightening up things that are already in place and it's not until I've run out of things to do that she finally speaks up.
"What's wrong?" She asks me and I open my mouth, about to lie before she continues. "And don't say it's about yesterday. If it was you would be ranting at me."
Stupid cocky wolf and her perception skills.
"It's nothing, I'm fine." I tell her but I don't dare look at her. I freeze as she gets up to walk towards me slowly.
"See I would believe you but it seems like the stick shoved up your ass is bigger than usual." She teases lightly as she comes to stand in front of me and I gulp at the metal image of her, her muscled arms, sleek dimples and the challenging look that's always shining in her eyes. "Is it me?" She says with a raised eyebrow.
I choke on air at the sudden question, hating how spot on she is. "Why do you ask that?" I ask her slowly not wanting to tip any scales.
"I'm making you uncomfortable, aren't I?" She mumbles and takes a step back and even though I could have sworn that's exactly what I wanted, I don't like that she did it. "If it helps, I can just do my work at the desk, or go downstairs." She offers and I internally panic.
"No!" I almost yell and she raises a brow at me in question. "You don't have to leave. Or do your work alone at the desk it's just … I'm just … and you're. …" I groan in frustration as I fuck up the words and stumble along my thoughts as she stands there and looks at me patiently not rushing me at all.
"Come on." She says taking the lead and I let her, biting my tongue as she takes her book bag and mine and bring it over to the desk. She fixes it so it's not leaning against the wall and puts a chair on each side of the table. "Let's get some homework done." She tells me and I slowly sit down in the seat across from her and she smiles before instantly getting to work.
I copy her movements and grab my notebooks and text books that I need for my homework from my book bag and put them on the table to get to work. Every couple minutes, however, I'm peaking up at her to watch the way her body moves as she flips the pages of her books and does her work. When she concentrates she bits her lip, the teeth makes making my abdomen tighten.
She looks up at me and catches my gaze on her and she sits up and smiles. "Do you need some help?" She asks politely and my cheeks are heating up just from the fact that she caught my ogling her.
"Uh, no. Thanks." I mumble as I look back down at my own paper to plan out my essay. The rest of the night goes like that, me sneaking glances at her, my body reacting and her pretending not to notice.
When we finish with our homework for the night, we both shower and get ready until there's an awkward pause, more on my behalf than her, when I realize that for the first time, Jessie and I are sleeping together. Deciding to make the first move, I climb into the right side of the bed and lay down on my side facing away from Jessie's lean body that is uncovered except for her pants that ride low in her hips.
I feel the bed dip as she climbs in as well and in no time I'm falling into a deep sleep. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I find myself wrapped up in Jessie's hold, her body the big spoon to my little as her legs tangle in mine. If anyone asks, I would deny it but waking up in arms of Jessie makes me blush and I cuddle closer before falling back to sleep.