Zaffera's Pov
I quitetly make my way through the house to get to my room without bothering anyone. It's quite early or late now depending on how you look at it and everyone else is asleep. My leg is doing much better now as I'm acctually able to put weight on it without it causing me a blinding pain. The woman's house was quite comfortable and it helped me in recovering much better. I'm glad it wasn't just another person out to murder us for some reason.
I was meant to meet up with Ginn earlier as promised when I was first assigned to this mission but due to today's events I had to warn him that it wouldn't have been possible today. Little did I know that when I went to reach for the door handle and pushed my door open I would be welcomed by a beaten up and bruised Ginn laying on my bedroom floor. He is full of cuts and bleeding wounds and... A BLACK EYE!? I rush to him and gently raise his face to meet mine holding it with my hands. His skin feels even softer and delicate than usual and the lukewarm temperature tells me the incident must have been fairly recent. I wonder who did this to him but most importantly why. Ginn is really not the type to get into fight. This is the first time I've seen him in this state since I've met him.
"Are you alright?" I ask him worriedly.
"No" he emits out of his dry throat in a husky voice, coughing slightly afterwards. I can smell alcohol and poisonous herbs on him as I lean even closer to embrace him softly to not hurt him. He rests his head on my shoulder. I can almost feel he's eyes shutting.
"It's because of the door...", he continues after. I pull away confused and ask him for an explanation to which he responds saying: "You know how I gave you that contact... Well it came with a price an-and I paid that price."
Warm tears start streaming down my cheeks. I'm looking at him in disbelief, unable to process what he is saying or perhaps not wanting to process it as the conclusion is too much to bear. I make a slight movement to dry my wet checks to which he groans and 'ow' in pain when I accidentally stand on his hand with my knee. I quickly apologise to him. I want him to smile. All I need is for him to smile. Though I know he's not the type to, I really want him to busrt out laughing and tell me that this is all some sick twisted joke and none of this is real. But as expected he doesn't.
"It's not worth it." he breaks the silence. Suddenly I can audibly hear a buzzing noise in filling the room and my ears go muffled. His lips are still moving but I can't make out any words and the low light makes lipreading impossible.
This the second person telling me this in a space of less of a day. This is someone else getting hurt because of it. The warning should really be that in seeking the door you die slowly rather than immediately. In fact it would be better off immediate. First it was this injury and now Ginn. Maybe, just maybe me and Fenyang should let this go.