I wake up and it's well after noon and I smell food. I jolt up and I feel like I haven't eaten in weeks. Strange enough Adrianna was still asleep so I started poking her in the face. I could tell she was getting irritated and then all of a sudden I got hit in the stomach really hard. I groaned then I realized she was laughing really hard. My body was already sore. That was a cheap shot. I was just trying to wake you for food. Her eyes widen, jumps up, and drags me out of the tent. There is food everywhere. It's like they've been cooking non stop all morning. She said it was tradition to have a big celebration after a new wolf turns. Plus, it feels like I haven't eaten in weeks. There was twice as much food now then there was last night. Everyone must be starving the way they have cooked.
After everyone devoured the food we all sat around talking about last night. They all seemed very impressed with the smooth transition. It was probably the quickest they ever had. First transition is usually the worst feeling of pain you will ever experience in your life. To me it seemed like hours of pain, and agonizing torture. It seemed like forever but in reality it only took thirty to forty five minutes. Pretty quick in comparison to the other stories I've heard about and the legendary story of my grandfather's transition. The day seemed to almost pass me by getting to know everyone and taking on tips. Everybody seemed to have their own way to get through the weeks to come. Eventually I found a place to call my parents and tell them about my time and the new friends I've made.
Everyone pretty much did their own thing until nightfall again. Turning that night wasn't quite as excruciating as the first and it was just as quick too. I had more energy and more time to explore everything. I feel different, more alive like I have more to offer than just my ordinary self. I could feel my whole body and mind changing as if you could actually see the difference that this experience has given me. The feeling of being a new person and to feel as if I could be more confident and proud of who I was just rose up inside. I don't like the idea of having total confidence because there is a fine line between being confident and being cocky.
As I head back home and transition into my new state of being, we run at night for a few more days to make sure my transition is completely done and I release the moon. Changing becomes a breeze. I hardly ever feel it anymore and It's been so much fun. I feel like I know every inch and corner of my sleepy little town. I've roamed everywhere imaginable and yet I still find new and interesting things every time I go out. To put it simply our surroundings are ever changing and I don't think anything ever stays the same. If you've ever been to a creek or some small form of moving water you can slowly notice the ever changing path of the water.
Adrianna hasn't been around for a while ever since I got the hang of things and every time I try to ask about her everyone seems to be too busy to answer. I figure it's none of my business what she's doing and if it was she would have told me. I guess she will let me know if she wants to, right. It's weird though, I think I kind of got used to her hanging around me all the time. She never really gave me space except when I went home. Even then she would sometimes sneak up to my house to chat. I don't know, she was growing on me I guess. I honestly didn't think she would become my best friend but I can be wrong sometimes.
My parents seem concerned with my behavior towards some things like the fact that I haven't been focusing on college applications and other stuff that I have been. They haven't really said anything to me personally but my grandma would ask me about things like that. I always knew it was because my parents weren't the type to meddle in my personal affairs like which college or what type of scholarship I was looking to get. I'd usually tell them everything anyways, and it had been that way as long as I can remember. My grandma would always ask about everything because she had no filter and she wasn't afraid to talk about personal stuff with anyone at all.
To be completely honest with myself I don't even know if I want to go to college anymore. My life has completely changed since my transition into a wolf. I'm not sure If I want the same things as I did before all this happened. I want to make my dad proud but I also need to think about keeping my secret safe from the world. I couldn't be myself in college unless I went to a local one and even then it wouldn't be the same as before. Different courses and different careers. It would be a completely different level of learning. I would have to find a different career path soon.
I have so many things to think about and change. I have to do a complete one hundred and eighty degree turn around. I need to stay closer to home and find a suitable career path for my exceptional brilliance that won't startle my parents. Maybe I should do agricultural studies and take over my Grandpa's farm. On the other hand I could go into law enforcement. Hell, maybe I wouldn't even go now. Blame it on the fact that grandpa is gone and I don't feel the same way now. Although that statement is very true my parents and grandma would never know the truth or even half of it. I think that's why I grew so attached to Adrianna. We could talk about everything and I didn't have to hide my true self.
This adjustment period is turning out to be the hardest thing I have ever done. I have to be fake at school, at home around my loved one's and I don't know how much more my heart can take. I wish I could tell them everything and I wish I could include them in my secret life. It's been amazing, don't get me wrong, but It's a rather lonely experience not being able to confide in my parents. They wouldn't have a clue as to how to help me through this anyways and also the fact that I wouldn't know if they would accept it or be mortally terrified of me for the rest of their lives. Maybe I could find some comfort in some of Grandpa's things and a visit with grandma might just help.