"Actually…I was just kidding" There was a long silence as Nanren said with a strange expression.
"Nanren...you bastard!" Even though she knew she was alive, tears continued to flow uncontrollably.
Even as he wiped his face with his hand, tears kept flowing over and over again.
"Get"
Without thinking, he reached for the handkerchief handed to him and pressed it to his eyes.
"Do you want to see your family?" she heard a low tone. "No" meanwhile, Yun was wiping his nose, ignoring the awkwardness of his gesture. When she cried, it flowed immediately. What will happen? Even this move with +Sss looks + charisma was cool!
Nanren did nothing as she wiped her nose, but stared at him silently, as if there was a special effect.
'I think I'm only just beginning to see his true self,' thought Nanren. Because in his eyes, Yun had drawn a flawless image for some reason when he had only become the equivalent of the inaccessible 'Mountain Qaf'.
No, he didn't stop. What made him feel so perfect? He was deep in thought for a moment. How was Yun the moment he met her? It was silent. And...
He had features that he didn't have.
For example, power. He had a large family behind him, and he, on the contrary, was an orphan. Yun was a logical person, on the contrary, he was quite emotional.
Yun had a reckless personality, while he was quite obsessed with himself. Yun was determined, it was his courage, and he was the opposite.
Back then...
According to what he told me, he must have tasted death at least once, right? When they first met, maybe it was death that made him such a strange person. But...
Now when she died and the system was crying out, she felt pretty strange and empty. Yun surrendered himself to death. He could seek help, he could struggle, or he could fight. But he gave up.
He didn't even move a finger.
Maybe he felt that living this long was enough.
Maybe he was weak.
Maybe coward.
Maybe he's tired.
Did he know the consequences of giving up from the start? The price he paid in front of his family?
Maybe that was the moment when he was abandoned and alone faced with all the nakedness of the world.
He looked the same as when he died. Yun's appearance didn't change at all, but when he looked at her, something felt different.
He died.
Yes, he is dead. Who was breathing next to you then? Yun valued his family, so who was it that abandoned him? Maybe it wasn't family. No it really wasn't. But the system that tells him 'he has to behave badly'? Of course he was forced to do something and with his logic that seemed so cool (!) before, he minimized all the damage possible. By sacrificing yourself.
What's left over?
Broken bodies, battered, hopeless, artifacts of destruction and devastation.
Maybe if he had read about these events in a novel, a fiction, or a book before, he might like the progression and love these 'characters'. Being in it is another.
The center of events, the beginning and end of everything. If it was a heavy drama or whatever it was, it would have been a pretty popular scenario if it was going to end with a 'stupid' sadness.
But!
In this reality, however, things were different. The events, emotions and moments before your eyes feel so absurd and empty.
She will be angry, she can't be angry. It's like there's anger, he can't feel it.
And it feels pretty weird now.
That feeling of inaccessibility that was before, that invisible wall in between, and whatever it was, everything has been destroyed, ruined. Just a walking distance in between. When he throws his hand, he can touch it, and what he touched was nothing but a wounded heart.
That sense of mystery and wisdom that existed has disappeared. A fading person standing before him. His breathing is very slow, his gaze is numb, and his soul is quite old.
A depiction of someone who is about to be crushed under this responsibility.
And when she successfully shed that burden, she was in front of him in a different state.
Unconstrained by anything, the moment when he could finally stop and breathe, sighing with fatigue. He could see, as if he had caught that moment.
He pressed his lips together, his eyes as dark as the dark night. What he doesn't understand is that he gives up so easily. Why had he agreed to strangle himself with those chains when he had broken all the chains? And Nanren felt an unwarranted tinge of madness as he thought about it. It's like a little thorn. Small but annoying.
How did he say he came back? Somehow the 'chip with consciousness' had been repaired? Somehow?? By chance? So it's a mistake to be here! Something that shouldn't happen!
He closed my eyes and took a deep breath in distress. When he slowly opened his eyes, his presence beside him had vanished into mist as if it had evaporated.
And again loneliness.
The night is tremendously bright and beautiful, but also quiet and simple.
When he was alone on the balcony with his own inner voices, the thoughts in his head were quite noisy. Or..?
Was it actually just an illusion?
Maybe he was on his own from the very beginning.
-To be continued-