While Nanren still didn't know what to say, the scenes in his dream came back to him one by one with her being so close to him.
Ah, I think it was red again.
'I may desire him, but he doesn't need to know'
It was a song he listened to this morning. Nor had he simply explained her situation.
"I can't tell you that"
He lowered her gaze, calmly standing next to him, even though he was doing nothing. So this is what happens when you love someone.
Love?
What was it ?
Within two weeks he realized that it wasn't just bedding. Or if love was just sex, hers wasn't love.
Someone who only cares about pleasure and satisfaction would not be relieved to have the person they love by their side. Or maybe it would be easier if he only thought about his body.
Unfortunately, people's desire to be accepted by someone else and the fear of rejection were also present in him. He wished to be accepted by her loved one. But it was a norm that was officially banned by society.
Ki Nanren knew himself well. He also knew that he was weak and weak.
Maybe that's why he loved him. He didn't judge, and he protected him like he never crushed him. So what if he loves it? Still, there was no room for these feelings.
It started with the minuses from the very beginning. It's like an impossible race to win. Which could have resulted in a heavy emotional blow.
He was afraid.
"Nanren, it's okay"
He was completely out of his thoughts, cold hands caressing his head, but it felt warm inside. He was still resting her head on his shoulder. That's what it felt like to love someone. Like dark chocolate.
But what if this relationship is somehow accepted? Something he hadn't thought about for 14-15 days, now came to her mind. His heart was beating fast and he was shivering. If it happens ?
He hadn't thought about it, but he had feelings that felt really … really exciting. Just like adventurers dealing with death. The slightest mistake was worth your life, as you were full of excitement because of the adrenaline. But they would still get drunk on these feelings and lay down their lives just for the pleasure.
Feeling a sudden impulse, he opened her mouth. As if the thought had fascinated him, he wanted to confess.
But at that moment, the scenes from his dream came back to him, and his breathing was getting heavier and heavier.
***
The dream, perhaps the moment when he was most affected, like that erotic memory that has penetrated his subconscious...
While camping, they were in the forest.
Some distance away were his teachers and friends, but he didn't care, Yun ignored the matter as he approached with his wrists against a tree.
His heart was about to burst with excitement.
"Yun…" he wanted to stop, but his tongue was elastically slid inside his mouth, covering his lips.
"Um..."
It was quite attractive in the moonlight. Especially his sharp blue eyes, which were the targets of his prey, caused him to be quite ecstatic.
"Haaah" wasn't even giving him a chance to breathe, he felt the need for more oxygen as his heart rate accelerated, but Yun, who wasn't giving him a chance, was struggling to breathe because of it.
Oxygen was getting more and more scarce every moment, he tried to push hard with his fingers from his chest, while he was not moving like an iron wall.
Finally, he slipped her fingers into her combed cotton and squeezed it until it turned white, a tear falling from her eye to her chin.
"Haah haaah!" Even when he left his lips, he did not go away. He was letting her breathe, but his lips were still touching hers.
His legs were shaking, he had no energy left, as if he had not had the arms holding him from his waist, he would have fallen to the ground, and all the blood was pumping into his face, red up to his neck.
At that moment, he pushed his hands off his shoulder, and when he was pushed, his head hit the pillow, not the tree.
Bed ? When was he in bed?
Is logic asked in a dream?
Anyway, his hands were tied with a tie from his wrists to the top of his head. Ah, was this tie that Yun thought looked so good when he wore it? His dream was worked out to the smallest detail.
"Stop!"
He was squeezing liquid into his right hand, holding a suspicious bottle in his left hand that he didn't know what it was...
"STOP!"
"Nanren?"
He lifted his head, eyes trembling. "Ah," he bowed his head, blushing again. What was he thinking?!
"Nanren, are you okay?" Even now, he was sweaty and out of breath. He was dreaming with his eyes open.
Hearing that "I'm fine, please leave me alone" his voice was rather weak, even though he hesitated, Yun understood that he needed to be alone. So, "Okay," he said reluctantly. "At least answer my calls"
Nanren shook his head like a good boy.
"Ok"
"Then... I'm going"
Nanren stood up first and ran off.
Yun remained silently in the bathroom for a while.
"System..."
[ ? ]
"Get me basic books on communication"
One of her favorite things in the past was to recognize her shortcomings and improve them. He knew he wasn't good at communicating, but he didn't realize it was that much.
When emotions and logic were balanced, only then would he succeed in business and the people who did it.
[Okay~]
[Already set and ordered, shipping tonight!]
-To be continued-