Sophia p.o.v
Screaming her name like that in the empty hallway made me slap my mouth,I looked around and I was relieved that I was the only one. I didn't even realise that I called her name out loud.
I quickly walked into the class and spotted an empty seat, I looked at the person next to the seat it was none other than brian.
I quietly sat next to him and took out my books,he barely looked my way as he was busy flipping pages of the book and talking to someone next to him.
Then Ms. Allen our English teacher came in and the lesson began,as she was reading a novel and I took a chance to write him a note saying:
I hope you're not mad at what I said about samra hope you'll understand that.
I slowly pushed the paper to his side, he looked at my hand and then at me, I gave him a small smile and turned my head to the front to listen to her.
He hesitated at first but then took it and read it, I looked at him and what I thought did happen he looked pissed and scrambled it and turned away.
He didn't bother to give me an answer and just listened to the lesson and by the time the lesson was over he immediately left his desk and left the room.
I felt disappointed for making it worse and chose to let it be after all, I just wanted to warn him from being with her but it seems like my effort is going in vain.
I thought about it and maybe am not sure trying hard to convince is ever going to work so I chose to step down and let him see for himself.
Everyone was gone by now and I was the only one left so picked up my books and left the class.
As I putting the books away I spotted samra and her friend talking again I didn't bother to eavesdrop knowing that they might start talking about Brian of which I decided not to care about him but instead focus on my studies.
As I closed the locker I heard Martha saying that she would never try to embarrass herself in front of a guy after he rejects your confession.
"By any chance are you talking about me?" I asked curiously.
"What? No, wait what makes you think that I was talking about you?" She asked me.
"I saw you looking at me during the class when I was sliding the note to Brian" I said as I raised my left eyebrow.
"Well I didn't mention your name so am pretty sure that you're not the only girl in this compound are you?" She asked.
"No am not but the way you said sounds like you're referring the so called confession but what makes you think I was confessing my feelings did you see me write that?" I asked.
"Then what else was it? If it wasn't a confession of your feelings huh?!"she asked as people who were standing and walking around the hallway suddenly looked our way.
"That's none of your business Martha you better watch what you say or you will be hold accountable for your words"
"Well if you refuse to say what you wrote am pretty much going to say it was a confession and you got rejected on the spot right?" She asked.
"You're no one to make me say anything and it will be better to stay out of my life like you did before got it?"
She looked at me for a second and walked away with samra.
She surely knows how to make me uncomfortable, I shouldn't have even talked in the first place.
My God when will this finally stop?
I asked no one in particular.
I took a deep breath and went to the cafeteria for lunch.
It was after lunch that we had a free period so I went to the basketball court and sat on the bench as I went through some work.
Soon the boys came and so as the cheerleaders who started practicing their choreography when I spotted a familiar face it was samra she was in the squad.
She was with Martha and they were practising the choreography, it seemed like other students were cheering and clapping as they did incredible stunts.
Even they boys who were practising for the upcoming season of the game they stopped playing and watched the show by the end of the music everyone clapped and chanted their names including brian too.
As people kept on cheering, I saw Brian and samra together and they were staring at each other and I couldn't help to feel sick so I took my belongings and left the room.
I came back to my dorm room and put the books on the shelf, I took off my jacket and hijab and sat on the chair.
The image of them standing and staring at each other appears in my head, I couldn't help to feel angry at them.
I know that am not in any position to own him but I can't help it,I feel attracted to him that I can't stop thinking about him even when he simply doesn't look at me like the he does with her.
I didn't even realise that I was shading tears until it dropped on my book, he seemed to be interested in her and he wouldn't let me explain the situation that he might get himself in trouble.
As I happen to be the assistant student president I happen to get information about students who are on scholarship which was given by Samra's mom.
I don't know why I get negative feelings that he might get expelled but he doesn't seem to care at all.
He seemed to be not informed or doesn't care at all about the outcome of him being with her.
He is the type who gets girls try to flirt with, he got the looks and the body that girls always steal glanced at and most of them even come to watch him practice inthr court.
As for samra well what's there to say, she's beautiful and popular, mostly surrounded by everyone she gets what she wants whenever she wants it.
They both surely seem to be having the attention not that am insecure about myself I believe am ok too but this what's happening to me is something I can't explain.
Am trying to get a guy's attention who happens to have another girl's attention, no matter what I do he doesn't want to listen and now it looks like am in for a shock of my life.
"Will they become official and start dating?
Should i interfere in their lives untilthey separate ?" Questions running in my head and not be able to make a choice it seems to stress me more.
The way they were getting closer made me feel unease and wanting to be with him is making me more anxious.
I don't know what will happen tomorrow but for sure rumours might start after what happened in the hallway.
"Who knows people might ignore it and continue living their lives " I told myself....