-note: what's between the "..." is the dialogue,
what's between the [...] is a character special thought
- warning : suicide and self harm are mentioned
( self harm isn't attention seeking!! and anyone who thinks that is a douchebag period!)
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.... previously:
Videl hurried a little inside to find the first aid kit and some other helpful tools, as Victor seated A shaking Alec-Zander in the living room sofa, Videl came back in few seconds and handed the Aid kit to Victor,
everyone else, Leon, Aleeza, Videl and the twins remained within a distance watching over as Victor who was getting ready to clean the Cut on Alec-Zander's wrist while Alex was trying to calm the Young man down as he cried his eyes out in anxiety.
.... Chapter Begins.....
..... slight time skip...
.....Victor's pov:
I can not express how thankful I was for miss Alexis doing an amazing job at calming Alec-Zander's Nevers, I was able to help stop the bleeding from master's cut,
" I'm sorry for the trouble...I don't know what's gotten into me" Master Alec said sniffing a bit, his eyes were buffy and red from crying,
"listen stop apologizing you have nothing to apologize for Alec!" miss Alexis said gently ruffling Master's hair,
" Miss Alexis is right Master... although I've been by your side for years... I don't know exactly what you're going through! or what gives you the urge to cut yourself...yet I can tell you're having a really hard time right now and we are not here to judge you or shame me... Alec-Zander... we are here to listen to you if you ever wish to spill your heart...you and I rarely spoke about this ever since I put you in therapy" I said while wrapping a clean bandage around Alec-Zander's right wrist,
thankfully it seemed like the wound wasn't dangerous,
"Victor said it all... we're not here to add salt on your wounds Alec! of anything we just want to help you...how do you feel now?" Miss Alexis asked wiping the last tear from Alec-Zander's eyes,
" I don't know how I feel...or what I'm not feeling... it's all vague and confusing...I just wanna go to my room" Alec slowly spoke, letting his long hair down covering his eyes slightly, he stood up from the sofa
"I will escort him there...everyone please go back to the dinning room...Vishal please continue serving our guests and as for you Vivek I want you to go to the guest house and wait for me until I come there and don't move anywhere else!... Oh! this almost slipped my mind! Vidal follow me after you bring Alec-Zander's Breakfast with you" I said ordering everyone into doing their jobs,
.... Aleeza's pov:
I watched as Victor walked Alec-Zander to his room, there was a tightness in my chest from earlier when I saw his cuts fro the first time,
[ maybe I shouldn't have screamed that he was bleeding, I should've tried to calm him down like Alex did]
as told, everyone did what Victor asked of them, I alongside with Alex and Mr Leon who remained silent throughout all the altercations that already happened, the Three of us went back to the fancy dinning room, Alex removed her shirt despite us being with her in the room,
" what? I'm wearing a tank top underneath? I ain't going naked on you" she said when she realized we turned our head away in courtesy,
Vishal the twin girl, poured for me and Alex some sort of a drink, Piña Colada she said while Leon asked for a cup of cappuccino, she then left instead of remaining with us in dining room,
sitting down on my chair despite not wanting to eat anything I got hit by a question right away,
"how did ya know" Leon asked me, he had the same type of stair of suspicion that Alex usually has, like father like daughter I guess
" about what?" I replied to him with a question,
he raised an eyebrow at me " the cuts on Alec...you screamed for Alexis to check his wrists! how did you know?!" he asked again more clearly,
Alexis was also looking curiously at me, somehow she's got the stomach to munch on the Mexican type of scrambled egg Videl made earlier, I decided to cheer up and try eating too,
"although not everyone cuts their wrist... it's the most common part to do so... I have a one year older brother...is my only brother too... Sidharth...Alex you probably still remember him... he used to buy us sour candy as kids.. Sidharth does it too... back when I was still living in my family home...I started noticing one day that Sidharth was avoiding to wear anything sleeves or that didn't have long enough sleeves...at the beginning I didn't think much of it...but one day it was really a hot day...he was wearing a hoodie and my dad kept nagging at him to remove it but Sidharth didn't agree" I said taking a bite out of the biscuits Victor made,
" what happened next?" Alex asked after taking a sip of her juice,
I took a deep breath and continued "Sid was so mad because of dad he went and crashed at a friend's house...his friend's parents were always overseas and they allowed Sidharth to stay with Their son when they aren't around... unlike us...I mean we're a brown family with strict parents and add the fact that my dad is not exactly the perfect Open minded dad either since all he does is push gender roles on my Brother cuz he's the only boy in the family... I was worried sick for Sidharth since he didn't come back home for the night so I went check up on him since I knew where his friend's house is at ... when his friend opened the door I asked about Sidharth and he said he thinks he's in the bathroom...his friend left the house for a bit to give us some privacy...so I climbed up to the bathroom and I heard something"
taking another deep breath I spoke again
"I heard my brother crying for the first time...I was stunned I couldn't bring myself to knock on the door...and I didn't have to ... shortly after hearing the water run and close... Sidharth open the bathroom door and his face drained of colors when he saw me...I noticed he was grasping his arm...he quickly hid it behind him... something was sticking out from the inside of his hoodie's pocket...my hand reached for the object in his pocket and I pulled it out to see a box cutter...it was still drenched in water...and that's how I knew" I said,
I wasn't perfectly perfect in dealing with my brother's Self harm, in fact I badly handled the situation it almost costed me my relationship with my brother, thankfully with the help of therapy and others I was able to learn from my past mistakes and try my best to help and support Sidharth despite how I felt about the self harm issue,
[ although I don't think I handled Alec-Zander gracefully this time]
"I see...it hits close home for you I guess...I ain't got no siblings or anyone in my life before like Sidharth and Alec-Zander...I knew about Alec cutting himself when I first befriend him in highschool...now that I think of it his wrists were always bandaged" Alex said to me,
" yet you and Victor handled it pretty well compared to me" I said praising her efforts earlier in calming Alec down, she shrugged at me while looking at her plate,
"I was terrified Azee...I failed to notice his cuts when I found him earlier in the woods...since he wrapped it up before I made it to him...I dunno if it's my place to tell you this...but that one time...Alec kinda of cut himself really deep... Victor had to rush him to the hospital and I remember getting a call from Videl at 3am about it...we tried our best to help him and to remain as calm as we can...I selfishy thought it was finally over... Alec hasn't done this in a long while...he looked so ashamed of himself it hurts me" She said,
"Self-harming again after not doing it for a while isn't anything to be ashamed of" Leon said finally breaking his own silence, both me and Alex turned out heads to him,
" he probably thought he had his self-harming under control...but now Alec-Zander started hurting himself again and nobody not even himself is sure why... relapsing like this could mean you're on your way to a better recovery!" He added smiling for a bit
" oh wow you sure do know Alot of random stuff?! or you just like to flex some knowledge" Alex commented on her dad's statement,
[ I still can't register in my mind that Leon is Alexis's dad despite the obvious similarities in their personalities]
" it's nothing new on me I dealt with somebody like Sidharth and Alec-Zander in my life... someone who's closer to me and you Alexis...and judging now that person has had at the very end a great recovery that followed multiple times of relapsing" Leon explained making Alex raise an eyebrow at him,
" who the hell are you talking about?" Alex asked,
"my girlfriend I mean your mom...Leah" Leon replied bluntly,
" Miss Leah?!" I gasped, Alex and I were stunned, we never knew Miss Leah did self harm,
" wait wait wait how come she never told me?! why?! wait that explains Those weird bracelets with quotes on them she always wears " Alex said thinking out loud
Leon smiled sadly at us "I figured she hid that from you although I admit it's awfully wrong for me to tell you about her experience when she's supposed to be the one telling you...but I feel like you should know how strong your mother is...she overcame so many things you don't know about" he said Finishing his drink,
he got up and was soon followed by Alex who was curious to know more about what he said
I was left by myself in the dining room, just me and my thoughts, what an eventful week I was having, sometimes I wonder why do I find myself in situations like this
[ I haven't seen my therapist in a while...I hope they don't get mad?]
....time skip...late afternoon....
.... Leon's Pov:
Victor came back presumably from Alec-Zander's room, they brought a doctor earlier to inspect the wound on Alec's wrist,
we all sighted in relief when the doctor said it wasn't serious and that it should heal fine after taking a good care of it, shortly after the doctor left, A slender build short person with dwey light skin and rainbow dyed hair and piercings up and down came rushing into the mansion,
turned out it's Alec-Zander's therapist
"Sorry for being late hyungs I was getting a haircut...ever consider changing the address since you guys live in the middle of nowhere" said The therapist with hair that was Wispy Short and had Contrasting Bangs,
"oh hey! you cut your hair again Ra-on...I suppose you did say you wanted a punk hairstyle before" Videl said greeting, all the servants gathered to welcome the therapist,
" Raon is an ancient Korean word that means joyful am I correct?" I said stealing the general attention to me,
"correct? and you are?" Ra-on said extending her hand to me for a shake, I accepted it with a smile
"Leon McClanahan at your service! I'm Alexis dad! sorry of I'm being weird I like introducing myself!" I said proudly, I can see Alex rolling her eyes at me, Aleeza gave me a secret thumbs up,
"oh melon head got a new dad now?! congrats that's some big news!!... oh wait this isn't why I came here! it was nice meeting you all but I have to check on Aloe Vera first see ya!" Ra-on said dashing inside the house, she must know her way in very well,
" age who ya calling melon head you Punk ass?!" Alex shouted,
"Melon head is understandable but Aloe vera? who's Aloe Vera!" Aleeza and I asked in union confused
" oh that's a nickname we made for Alec haha it's an inside Joke ugh kinda hard to understand since you're new here" Alexis explained,
.....few minutes later....
thankfully it seemed like the mood lifted a bit,
leaving Aleeza to chat with Victor inside, I decided to spend some time with Alexis instead walking and talking outside,
behind the mansion is a beautiful garden, we marched there chatting about Alot of stuff like what we like to do and what we hate to do,
turned out My daughter takes after me in her love for snacks and swimming and sports in general, she's also as hot tempered as I am and hates snakes as much as I do,
" you still won't tell me more about my mom" Alex asked me slightly angry,
" I already ran my mouth earlier enough...I shouldn't have told you about her experience... she's going to kill me if she finds out I told you without her consent!" I said defending myself,
Alexis looked unamused " ugh fine...but anyways...ugh I don't know sh!t about romance.... I'm aromantic and shit I have no interest in or desire for romantic relationships...but I can't help my curiosity so I kinda wanna ask you... it's been 19 years? you still in love with my mom?" she asked
" oh I never stopped loving her one day...call it true love but my feeling are strong and real about Leah" I replied smiling mindlessly,
" lol weird but I guess it'll cute?! idk anyways how does it feel to be shorter than my mom?" Alex said smiling smugly at me,
" oh look at these 6 feet people's audacity! you're bragging cuz you're as tall as your mom how mean!! so what if I'm short! I'll wear high heels big deal?!"
Alexis bursted laughing at me saying " lol I'd like to see you try shawty!"
" well fun fact High heels weren't actually made for women! it was meant for men use as the very first type of high heeled shoes appear ancient Iran (Persia) in the 10th century!" I said flexing my historical knowledge
" holy sh!t for real?!" Alex voiced loudly,
I buffed my chest a little " aha! absolutely! And it was the Persian army that had the honor of wearing the first high heels!" I said with the same proud tune, we continued talking about and sharing some fun facts with each other without touching anything personal,
meanwhile... inside the mansion....
.... Victor's pov:
while Miss Ra-on went to check on Master in his room, while Miss Alexis Joined her father outside for a walk,
I remained inside for a little chat with Aleeza, Vidal just brought us some tea, I asked her about her reaction earlier, since she was the first one to notice after all,
she explained to me everything about her experience with her brother Sidharth
..... few minutes later....still Victor's pov
"it seems we have more in common that I thought Aleeza" I said sipping on my tea
" Victor...you don't have to be ok around me...I want you to know that... earlier when we found Alec you looked like you're going to faint" Aleeza said placing her tea cup back on the table, I do not know how a human being can be brave enough to stare directly into another person's eyes, but Aleeza maintained a steady eye contact with me
as if she was trying to read my emotions,
" I appreciate your concern my lady but I'm perfectly fine now that Master is safe and sound" I replied breaking the eye contact as I shifted my attention to my reflection on the tea cup,
I have always hated how unusual I appear,
[ how can she look at me so sweetly and not be scared...this hideous grey hair I was born with... people thought I was a living dead because of my pale complexion...my eyes... I am horrible...]
" Victor...Are you by any chance insecure about your looks...look I'm not judging I too I am hella insecure about my weight and stuff" Aleeza said snapping me out of my dreadful thoughts, I glanced at her to see she was still staring at me like before,
" oh...you noticed... again...not that I have made the effort to hide it by all means...do you not think I look like a living Dead Aleeza? that was often what I received as a child" I asked her, she gazed at me a little strange before her face
" you look like a living without the dead" she replied,
that caught me off guard " excuse me?"
" honestly Victor as someone who struggles with with insecurities about my own looks... it's kind of hard for me to comfort somebody else in the same situation cuz I feel like a hypocrite since I can't get over my own insecurities...but I'll make an exception from what I know" Aleeza spoke taking a deep breath,
"You're hot graceful gorgeous smart skillful Brilliant elegant and Very MUCH ALIVE and I've never felt so Amazed by another human being especially not A man ! in such as hort period of time as much as I'm Amazed by you Mr Victor Zain Zomierski!" she uttered
..... Videl's pov:
I felt really bad for the trouble Victor ran through today, I decided to bring some pastries to serve him and miss Aleeza since they were drinking some tea, and it appears both of them are a sweet tooth,
i was coming back to the living room with a plate filled of some drop biscuits when I heard something as soon as I set a foot inside,
"You're hot graceful gorgeous smart skillful Brilliant elegant and Very MUCH ALIVE and I've never felt so Amazed by another human being especially not A man ! in such as hort period of time as much as I'm Amazed by you Mr Victor Zain Zomierski!" that girl Aleeza Half shouted, wow so straightforward
[ I'm just gonna except the fact that I'm fina be a single hot b!tch forever cuz if I don't get someone to compliment me like Aleeza do to Victor every day? I'm not doing relationships]
I just had the honor to see Victor accidentally spill his whole tea all over himself out of shock, I wanted to laugh real bad at this drama scene
" omg I didn't mean to startle you Victor let me help!" Aleeza said grabbing a cloth napkin nearby as she started helping him dry his clothes, she had to be particularly on top of him to do so ,
"no no it is fine I can handle it miss Aleeza!?" Victor pleaded, omg his face was hot sauce red as he got up,
"no it's my fault again i distracted you" Aleeza said following him around,
again I wanted to laugh so bad but that could get me in trouble, so I sneaky back before they saw me.
.... end of chapter.....