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My dream.....
I truly hoped that my dream was not only a dream, but it should have been a real world wherin I would have enjoyed my new life. But life isn't so easy...
'IF' this word.... this word has been used a lot in my life till now. I am a graduate engineer who has just graduated and still finding jobs. It's not that I haven't accomplished some goals in my life....
It's just that I feel empty.
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The happiness that I would feel at times when I achieved something has long been lost.
I wish I had the chance to relieve my life once more...
Let it be man let's just wake up now and continue with the daily life. My day starts with me waking up from my stupid fantasies. Wake up, brushing teeth, having a lousy bath, eat the breakfast, then just rolling out of the house for lined up job interviews..
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Most of my days after turning 22 have been like this. Even though I have completed my studies and am trying to find a job, why is it that I don't feel anything. It's been like an evolution towards machinery as my age increased. Since when did I start to transform into a machine who just follows the orders given to it by the humans or in this case the society.....
Ignoring all these thoughts, I started to travel on my journey. Each day would be like this, it's just that the society would be the same only with different locations. Tired of all these daily travels, I started walking towards the nearby park. I sat down on a nearby bench and started thinking about the earlier dream which had occurred to me.
I think I have been too much attracted towards fantasy lately, even though I had started the novel just yesterday I had the dream which was quite similar to the original world. I felt too lively there.....
Why?
What is it that I am missing so much in my life?
It's not just this one time, it has happened to me quite a lot of times... Once I had been transported into the world of blue planet, wherein all the people were trying there hard to become Beast masters.
Another time it was an apocalyptic world which had suffered a zombie invasion.
( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡~)
In another one of my dreams, I had been transported to a world where there had been dungeons spawning all across the world...
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Once, I had been transported to a cultivation world full of martial artists...
I enjoyed spending my time there, even though it was a little too less than even half a day, I enjoyed my journey, but it always ended with abrupt endings.
At times I would feel too hot because of the fan stopping.....
At times I would hear loud sounds in my ears, which would be so unbearable that I had to wake up. Most likely those came from the idiotic alarms...
Sometimes the whole world would start to get flooded, and it would be at that moment that I would understand that a dam is going to break....
Sometimes I would be enjoying my walk, but I would suddenly fall off a cliff, likely to be my bed...
Ahhh.... Ignoring all those thoughts I decided to focus on something very important..
What is it that I was lacking in my life?
I had an answer to this question but, I would always question myself whether it actually is the right answer. The thing that I actually missed was 'excitement'.
I was not quite sure about it, but I thought that in all of my dreamy endeavours what I actually felt was excitement. An excitement to explore a whole different world where I would not have to follow the usual norms and have some kind of free restraint on myself. A life where I would explore some unusual stuff that was not present originally in my own world.
A thrill of being able to perform and experience all kinds of magic, being able to perform all different types of super martial arts, being able to contract and enjoy a life with all kinds on beasts...
Ahhh man I would have loved to have a chance to transmigrate in any on those worlds...
Saying those words, thinking about all of those stuff and wasting my time, I would always spend some of my day in such a way. But there was one thing that would always hold me back when I would think of enjoying such an excitement.....
Family
I love my parents more than anything else in this world.
I know that the prerequisite for going on such a journey is always one of the following;
1. jumping off a bridge or a building
2. having a meeting with truck kun
3. getting betrayed by your boyfriend / girlfriend / friend (which is invalid for me since I am a single guy with some project related friends)
But one thing that would always bug me is what would happen of my family once I get moved into another world. What would my mother do when her most precious child which she had raised for so many years suddenly disappears... What would the father that taught the child to stand on his own legs feel like, when the child he raised vanishes into thin air.
What would happen to the beautiful family if an essential part of it fades away.... Won't it break apart such a beautiful relationship.
This is the only thing which holds me back from having such thoughts of transmigration.
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How nice it would have been if we had the chance to enjoy a whole new different world, while also living along with your own family. This would make sure that no setbacks remain.
Man, only if such a life existed...
Huff... I have wasted too much of my time here. Let's go back home now. I got back on my legs and walked towards the end gate of the park. Getting out of the park I followed the footpath. I saw an old lady standing by the traffic light.....