WHERE AM I?
The moment I opened my eyes I started to think. I found myself lying in a bed, I could hear people's voices, and someone was shouting. I found myself starting to think the same question: where am I? Who are these people? What am I doing here? What happened to her?. I couldn't think straight even if I wanted to because everything was jumbled in my head. It hurts so much. It hurts so much that somebody stops this pain. Why is there pain in my head?. She said it will be quick and we will be free before we even know it.
WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!
Somebody tell me what is going on. I want to keep my eyes open but couldn't because they are getting heavy.
QUIET EVERYONE BE QUIET
Where did all the people come from? Somebody answered me. Then i can hear someone shouting
"The patient has regained consciousness"
The moment I heard those words all hope was lost inside me.
A person in white coat walks up to the bed that i am laying in and asks
"How are you feeling"
I wanted to answer but no words came out of my mouth. From the looks of his he seems to be the doctor because of the white coat that he is wearing and the badge hanging around his neck. Questions started to appear in my mind. How am I in the hospital?
What happened?
And then i hear him say
"You were lucky we saved you on time but unfortunately___"
After saying this he fell silent. Silence enveloped the whole room. I don't know what he was going to say nor was I interested in it because the situation seems unreal.
My head hurts really bad. I can see him talking to the other woman who was shouting before. She seems to be the nurse incharge of me and then everything seems to fall into pieces.
I SURVIVED!
DON'T FUCK WITH ME
HOW CAN I HAVE SURVIVED?
I am angry, I've never been this angry in my life. If I could've moved I would've killed everyone present in this room starting with the doctor.
I can clearly see it with those eyes outside the room through the window. Those disgusting eyes gave me those detestable looks. The moment I saw those eyes I knew who they belonged to. Those are the eyes of my father
FUCK! NOW HE HATES ME MORE BECAUSE HE HAS TO PAY THE HOSPITAL BILLS
HAAH HAAH HAAH
I'm laughing so bad he can't hear my voice. Otherwise he would've said something like this
"Why'd you have to go that far to disgrace our family's name, why are you even alive you bastard, I knew you were a failure you couldn't even kill yourself properly."
I HATE HIM, I LOATHE HIM, I DESPISE MY ENTIRE FAMILY, I DESPISE THIS WORLD WHO MADE ME LIKE THIS BUT WHAT CAN I EVEN DO I AM ONE PERSON IN THIS WORLD OF 7.8 BILLION PEOPLES.
I can't move my arms and legs. It seems that they've broken because of the fall. I didn't wish to continue this hell called living. I wanted to die everyday, I killed myself countless times in my head so that when the time comes I won't be afraid. I steeled my resolve because the day i would kill myself was today and that was when I met her shinning in the dark night.
Ever since I was young I hated people when they looked at me but I couldn't bring myself to hate her. She had the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen, maybe the most beautiful eyes in the world.
The moment our eyes met I knew what she was thinking and what she was going to say to me
"You have very pretty eyes" she said
I couldn't speak even if I wanted to; her voice was like a sweet song to me, a complete symphony.
My heart started beating faster, faster than ever I couldn't understand what was going on with me.
And then she spoke me to me
"Are you ok?"
"Yes"
"The night is pretty isn't it?" she asked
No words came out of my mouth. I was too captivated by her beauty.
Her eyes, whom I called beautiful, had no life in them just like mine. I knew why she was here and what she was going to do.
Her hair was dishevelled, bruises covered her body. The skirt she was wearing seemed dirty and was torn around the area of her breasts.
Her state was like she had gotten in a fight before coming here. I couldn't get myself to ask the reason for the pitiful state she was in. i don't know why but i think the reason she looked so pretty to me was maybe because of the state she was in.
"Which is more painful, hanging yourself or cutting your veins"
I heard her asking me.
"None"
"Why is that"
"Nothing hurts more than living"
"Quite a philosophical aren't you"
She said and smiled.
Fake, her smile was fake. I knew it the moment I saw her smile because I also smile like that. I don't know why she was forcing herself to smile despite all the pain she was enduring but it looks pretty to me.
Her condition was not good. She had bruises over her body and a cut on the thigh of her left leg. It wasn't made by a sharp object because the skin around the wound was not cut. The nail of one of her toes wasn't there but despite all this pain she was smiling in front of me. A disgusting sensation rose from within me which wanted to make me puke but i couldn't. I wanted to hate her for enduring the pain till now but I couldn't make myself hate her.
She was passionately gazing at the stars without even noticing my gaze. When looking at her I remembered a quote I read on the internet.
"She was a fair maiden, a beautiful virgin born on a summer's day and married on a summer's day"
I don't know why this quote came to my mind but i knew one thing.
She will die under this beautiful night.
"You're looking at me very passionately. Are you having any lewd thoughts about me?"
She teased me in a playful tone.
"N no I don't"
"I was just_ _"
After saying this I fell silent.
"Just?"
She shook her head while asking me.
"I was just thinking how beautiful you look under the night"
She stared at me for a second and turned around. Our eyes met and for a moment we just stared at each other after that she placed her hand over her belly and said in a low voice eyes fixated on me.
"Have sex with me"
CHAPTER 1 END PHEW__