I checked my watch; it reads only one pm. It was still midnight, but I was having a severe insomnia. I went outside, into the balcony for the fresh air. The gentle breeze brushed my skin, and it keeps playing with my hair. It was a lonely night, nothing was there. The night was really serene and calm. The brightness of the night was washed out by the streetlight. I tried to shut my eyes still laying on the couch, but my mind was stuck on something. I've felt like someone was bothering from the back of my mind. I took an extensive breath and decided to accompany the lonely night.
A sudden feeling of great madness and regretness churned my psyche. I could say that it was all because of my classmate kathanie's word. But I am not too certain to point out my fingers directly to her. No one could find a dark side of themselves; we only tend to find our brighter side. Maybe I too have a fault. I tried not to review such nonsense gossips of them but still then. My mind was taking advantage of it. I've lost control over them.
"She is such a freak. How can such a ugly duckling can compete with a swan like me. She is such a troublemaker" kathanie let out Infront of me as I am invisible to her eyes.
" But nothing to be worried, it's okay to be not okay sometimes. Everyone goes through such things, maybe the time has stroked on me" I consoled myself, over again and again.
A strong woman never evokes her woes and cry over a spilled milk. She will not pick up the ashes of her buried castle, instead she will think of building a castle and brought up her lost empire once again I am a sister, the source of hope to my mother. I should not stay like this; I cannot let her down. I should refrain from bothering myself about this futile subject...I gave myself a hopeful solitude and closed my eyes and waited for the next morning dawn to rise again.
Though I was broken inside, I paid full enthusiasm to my studies. I didn't have any heed to the back benchers. I was used to it. My flaws had become their matter and subject of talking.
"Anne...do not believe them. Drive away such wantwit things and just shut your ears "my sit mate or I can say my bestie, dorothy consoled me.
"I know it's going to be hard sometimes, it's all my fault to crush on someone who was already booked. I cannot squeeze myself in to their conversation and stop them. Let them gossip about me, until they are quench with that" I told her.
"Don't blame yourself...it's not your fault, it's okay to crush someone. That's what your heart lingers to, and it is unstoppable. Besides that, you didn't confess to him,they had somehow found your diary but take it as your fate. Crush and love are different "she tried to comfort with a deep word.
My eyes sobbed with a silent tear. I cried on her lap tried hard to control my tears from bursting out, but I was not able to deny it.
"Hey...do not show melodrama here. This is not a stage for your drama. Your crocodile years will not change my mind easily. Kneel down and apologize me, if not I will not forgive you. I am not a cheap thing"kathanie crucified me with her thunder roared voice.
For goodness sake, in order to abscond from such gossiping world, I decided to kneel down at her foot and beg for forgiveness. Dorothy appeared Infront of me out of blues and hold my hand. She stopped me from kneeling down.
"Hold your dignity...why are you kneeling down...have you lost your mind?" She cried at me. Her eyes were wet, that was not the first time ,she cried for me,it was third time,she had cried for me.
After meeting her,I could say that ,what best friends are like. It has been nine years of our togetherness. For me she is like pencil to my eraser life. Without eraser,their is no one to erase the error of pencil but without pencil eraser are of no use. Sometimes I do feel embarrassed of myself ,for making my friend to cry for me. I was just a pathetic girl,who is always a unlucky star that makes the sky dull by giving a dull sparkles.
"Edward...why are you here?"kathanie dashed away from the mates and went near him.
"Edward...Anne picked up the fight first. Don't misunderstand me"kathanie assured him with a big lie.
The whole class went hushed after hearing kathanie's word. I could see from Tandin's eyes that he was lost for a moment.
After a short pause, he broked the silenced.
"What ever it is...I have nothing to do with you but I warn you...do not bully an innocent girl. And do not follow me. Do not make yourself so cheap...I have told you dozen times...I am not interested in you. I am here to borrow chemistry textbook...do not misunderstand me"with a cold tone in his voice he let out and leaved the class.
He was my crush and kathanie's too.
We were rival in love , I was not bothered by her but she was bothered by my love for him.
Everyone was lost ..looking at his cold behaviour. kathanie exited the class with the frustration. By looking at his way of talking, kathanie seems not his girlfriend. I was relieved with a light heart. I took my seat. God had saved me, he is saving me every time and I knew that he would save me now and then forever.
"What a glamorous day!" I shouted to the world. The echo of my voice has bounced back from the distant valley. It read only 5pm dorothy left at school for the remainder class and I was on my way back from school.
The reddish light from the western horizon was stronger, throwing a scarlet glow up into the night sky. Still knowing that the blue hours on the way to strike,I decided to sit little bit on the canopy.
"Hey...!" I heard a familiar soft voice from a distant.....