She was called as Eleanor Rosie. Dororo keeps teasing Edward. Usually Edward rarely smiles in the class but from the day, Eleanor stepped into our class, I keep seeing him smiling all the time. That pierced my heart into infinite pieces. I was totally broken but can't fixed the cracked on my lost soul anymore.
"Anne Halford....control yourself...he isn't your only world. There are thousands of person which you can rely on. Strong woman never cries for a man "I whispered to myself and controlled myself from bursting out with tears.
In the blink of an eye... I found school administration declaring the monthly test results.
"The monthly topper award goes to....Edward Arthur" examination committee made an announcement. I was happy for him but not too excited as before.
"And the second award goes to Eleanor Rosie! "as soon as the examination committee announced, the crowd gave her a round of applause.
I've heard the girls talking"they will make a perfect couple after all"after hearing that,I realized that I really don't deserve him in my life. Not even a little bit crush. I hold my tears back .
It was a calm night but my heart refused to stay calm,I went to balcony....and cried there.
"Cry as much as you can...let your sadness and madness flows with your tears. Though I am your mother, I am not capable of telling you not to cry for a man, because I know how it feels, I have gone through the same situation as you did. But Anne...let me tell you one thing. You cannot always follow what your heart says. You should know that sometimes the hero also stumbles. Anyhow, you will not understand until you find out the truth. Sleep now you need to go to school tomorrow "she patted on my head and went to her bed .
I'd knew that I don't have that ability to open up my feelings for him but I've attempted so many times to show up that I really love him.
It was a monotonous day for me. Back then.... everyone had gone for lunch but for me, I have lost my appetite. I remained back at my class while my friends had dispersed for the lunch. To my surprise, Eleanor Rosie...my sit partner had skipped the lunch too.
"What a coincidence..."she appeared Infront of me. I smiled at her. I was little bit jealous of her but I didn't bothered their relationship. I didn't betray her...I didn't spoke with a harsh words after all it was all what my fate demands
Since the day she arrived, we haven't had a good and friendly conversation, since she always used to head near Dororo and Edward .
"Anne Halford...are you the one who is having crush on Edward?" She confeited me. I was totally blank how to respond her. I was strucked with thousands of thoughts whether to say yes or no.
If I say no...one day she will find the truth. If I say yes...she will be mad at me"I was distressed by her question.
"Who told you?"my mouth stammered.
"Kathanie...she had shown me your diary "she let out, with a little bit annoying tone in her voice.
"Eleanor...love is blind...I don't know either where this feelings came from...as I realize myself I found out that I have crush on Edward. But Eleanor believe me,I don't have any intention to separate two of you. I am trying to stop my feelings for him. You deserve him. He may look cold from outside bit deep within his heart, you can find a warmth in him "finally my heart became light after admitting her that I have feelings for Edward.
"Unbelievable....I thought Kathanie is joking. It is true right "she yelled at me on top of her voice and banged the door and made a lighting exit.
Day pass by somehow but the nights were wagons of pain. I was totally battered. Crying and giving myself a hopeful solitude became a part of regular habit for me.
Through this sandpaper of life,we met lot of people on the verge of mending our life towards the perfection. People comes around and goes away. But they leave a footprint inside our heart that cannot be erase.
At first,I thought that love was only the main happiness builder but in fact ,it was not like that. Instead it will let us drench into the lunatic world of love.
Edward has left a biggest footprint in my heart,this memories are like a spots of leopard. A leopard can't change its spots like that I cannot think of changing my mind of erasing his footprints from my heart.
"By this time...I hope you all are well prepared for your examination. It's high time for you to burn the midnight candle. This exam is not just an exam but this defines the quality of your life. You should not be loosing your hopes because the exam is not yet started. I am happy...that I've got a student like you all. I want you all to stand of your own feet and make yourself feel proud Infront of others. I may not be able to meet you all In person...because I need to go for examination duty. Please don't forget to choose a correct stream...follow your interest not others word. Stay like you used to be right now, in your new school. I know you all are good students....good luck in your life "our class teacher madam Stephanie gave us a good farewell. Tears began to roll down from my eyes.
"That's right...I need to work hard "I whispered to myself.
By that time, both Edward and Eleanor was fully engrossed on their studies.
Edward wants to become doctor, whereas Eleanor dreams of becoming nurse. But for me I even don't have a goal.
"I don't want to depart from him "that was only thought rushing in my mind. I worked hard in order to opt for science stream with Edward. I haven't spared a single minute in vain, I fully engrossed with my studies...