Today, I just rolled over in my soft bed. I intend to leave this bed, then clean up my body. I decided to go to campus, even though I didn't attend lectures, at least I could let yearning my beloved campus or Clara. For a long time I didn't met her. Maybe I will ask her; how are you today? Long time he did not answer calls and reply to my messages. Ah, this is make me feel longing.
Her anger was unreasonable and unwarranted. What exactly made her so upset? Did she think the doctors and I were acting to trick her? Or how? Frankly, I was confused by her attitude. If only she would accept my call or explain whatever she was feeling, my feelings wouldn't be like this.
I got up from the bed, then went to the toilet in the room. It's still hot, but remembering what Doctor Karl's said, I didn't intend to take a bath with the cold water. I don't want to go back to that place again. No!
If only to meet Ryan—as he wanted to be called—I would do it everyday. I must getting to know him better and accompanying him. I shook my head quickly to get rid of the thoughts that were starting to run wild. What was I just thinking? Again, I won't tease him unless he really wants to.
After driving slowly and carefully, finally arrived at campus safely. For a sick girl like me right now, successfully arriving somewhere safely is an achievement. I should be proud of myself.
The campus hasn't changed much. Of course. I haven't come here for just a few days. Especially, for attending classes. I've really lost interest. Somehow explain to mom and dad about this. About my messy lectures, also about the disease I suffer from.
Eventhough it was much better, but still they should know this. Maybe, I will arrange a schedule to visit them in my hometown. With Clara, if possible.
***
I don't want to go to lectures. This is not Doctor Karl's schedule. So, there's no compelling reason to be more excited. I decided to visit the cafeteria and order some snacks or something so that I can take the medicine on schedule.
He gave me a vial with a medicine box attached to the outside. Makes it easier for me to remember when to gulp the granules. And he ordered to take it anywhere. I have to consume a lot of minerals especially those contained in water and much advice he told me. Thank to him.
Now, I'm sitting in the place where I and Doctor Karl had quarreled. I will never forget that incident. For the first time to make a fuss with a lecturer, is the same as seeking death. However, he seems to have realized that he had made a mistake. It had confessed that yesterday when he took me home.
I sighed tiredly. It turns out that being alone without any friends is really boring. I wish I could meet Clara to apologize. Should I peek into his class? No! I'm truant at the moment, peeking will only attract the attention of a lot of people.
I have downed six pills in cash today. It was really excruciating, but I had to do it in order to survive. For the sake of what? For whom? Who knows? So far, I haven't found a reason why I was survived. Don't ask about my relationship with Mom and Dad.
They were good parents, maybe just unlucky to have a stubborn girl like me. They would do anything to make me happy, but to me their attitude was too much. Overprotective and too panicked to know something had happened to me.
Even back when I was in Senior High School, which should have earned my trust, I was the opposite. Dad was always on guard whenever Blake came to the house. Maybe he was worried that his only daughter would be kidnapped or even killed. Like my father always watched on television.
Sometimes, the spectacle does affect a person's mindset.
This day, I am still annoyed with my father's attitude. Especially considering how much I liked Blake. And his departure was like a victory for my father, as evidenced by the way he looked happy when he found out that the man was no longer with me. Sad memories.
I got up from where I was, deciding to meet Clara at her house. While, I'm in a good mood. If not, maybe I'll just let this problem drag on or get better on its own. This time, I will give in again, for the sake of our friendship.
***
Only half way, the engine of this old Mercedes was faltered. Sometimes, it makes a sound like coughing. What's up now? Isn't that enough time to wreak havoc on me?
I stopped the car on the side of the road. Hoping there was someone who could repair or deliver this car to the repair shop. But, which happened, quite the opposite. Suddenly the atmosphere of the streets was deserted as if there was no life. I waited for someone to pass in front of me, but nothing.
Shit!
In the distance, a gray cloud hung and moved closer to me. Oh, please, not now! At least wait until the towman comes, or someone saves me.
But unfortunate can't be denied, just as I said hope in my heart, the water droplets got impatient and started to fall. I can only sigh and can't help but accept the falling water from the sky that wets my body.
The peach colored shirt I was wearing was now soaking wet, revealing a contrasting purple undergarment. It's a lot of bad luck. I don't know what was in my mind to wear clothes that don't match. Never even imagined this damn car would break down! It was raining.
Perfect!
I've started shivering. Better get in the car and take cover in it. If there are police later, just say if my car breaks down. Because that's the truth. Alright, that's a good idea, instead of just standing around in the sudden pouring rain.
Just get into the car, a black SUV stopped not far in front of me. Not long after, the owner of the car came out with an umbrella in his hand.
How could I not recognize the car, especially the owner.
"Jenna, what are you doing here? And your clothes ... look! You're in the rain." Doctor Karl pointed an umbrella to protect me from the pouring rain. I wiped my face wet from this uncompromising rain.
"Uhm, my car suddenly broke down. And unfortunately it was raining. You can see, no one has passed since then." I said in detail before he lectured by bringing up my health condition.
"Okay, I'm here now, right? You get in the car, I'll take you home."
"B-but my car—"
"Just leave it, we'll call the towman." He ordered then quickly pulled me to cover under the umbrella and followed him to the car.
Wait, since when did he become this dominant? Is this still the Doctor Karl I know? Or someone else?
With all my thoughts running wild, I followed his lead. He opened the car door for me before getting in and sitting in front of the wheel, then slowly drove his horse through the pouring rain and empty streets.
***