"... Huh where am I it's dark and I can't see and feel anything, oh!! I fought that adventure and won but now it looks like I've died again, --it looks like I can't move, am I gonna die again,--but I don't want to--- disappear again."
And just when I was peering into the abyss once more, - - she appeared.
"... Human, look at how pathetic you look now, "I could hear a voice in my ear it was Ralia's but I couldn't move I tried to ignore it but...with one whisper rang deep inside me.
"... Hey human you've killed your own kind how does it feel, that means your the same as the one who killed you, your hands reek of blood, there's no turning back - - - you have to decide if your a hero or a devil, you filthy murderer."
She then crouches down and laughs my face so much so I wasn't going to control her I wanted to hear someone criticize me about my actions before I go, "Pftt___ HAHAHA HAHAHA, serves you right nothing will change if you don't lose those emotions of yours, your always smiling to shadow your weakness aren't you human but now if you want to change,___you have to evolve into a heartless devil."
Those words struck me hard, - - I hate to admit it but she's figured me out, - - but it's too late for a sense of self pity - - - now I already have blood on my hands but right now I want to spill even more, - - but it's too late for that mentality.
I could hear the voice in a joyous tone excited as she has struck a finishing blow,".. Good bye for now - - - human I look forward to seeing you evolve into something greater cause your inescapable death has yet to come so overcome your incompetence. "
As the voice and the dress of Ralia is
slowly drifting away from my sight I am-- all alone.
She's right I am just a muderer the same as the one who killed me, - - its when I realized - - - there's no saving me but at adhering that fact I wallowed in excitement instead of sentimentality for what I just did to those intruders, it was a sin that I must pay for because of my irrational simplistic human mindset---well..."
....
"--It's so quiet and cold with no one but yourself, so this is how permanent death feels like. "
.....
"... Young master , young master!!! " it feels like someone's calling me,--- just ignore it.
".. Young master wake up, please wake up,"as the darkness disappears and as the light appears my eyes are open, - - where am I.
As I try to move around my entire body hurts but with no signs of wounds, ~hmmmm~ it seemed they healed, I guess this is the aftermath after going all out.
"Firo how long was I asleep,"I ask the maid before me who's crying for me , am an idiot for making a girl cry , an utter disgrace.
"Master you've been unconscious for three days it's been since that happened , but;"
" Young Master your finally awake," as I look at the timid purple haired maid who is crying her eyes out for the first time, I feel sad also maybe it's because I share a connection with them, is it rational or irrational to feel this way, it's inconvenient for a soldier to have these feelings of sadness but why does it hurt when they're in pain, the same thing happened on the battlefield that almost killed - - - I am still incompetent.
As I grit my teeth in for my failure to comprehend a situation, I remember what happened and quickly get up even though my body aches, I want to know.
I ask my maid in a serious tone, "Firo did we win or did we lose."
She then extends the chair close to her and sits next to me next to the bed I seem to be lying on with an unreadable expression, "Master after you killed the leader of those intruders and we managed to kill two of the humans, and before we could kill the other two, another person wearing a cloak with an orb came and teleported them away to safety - - but," as I look at my maid who has turned her face sideways I ask the obvious question.
"... What did they do when I was passed out. "
" Master while we were trapped in the barrier, the country was attacked by many human adventures, the ones who held us were a distraction to hold the queen and the Raven Blood knights who were in the stadium at bay, master- - due to this ambush we have lost countless lives through their acts of brutality, and most of the cities mostly three of them have been destroyed and plunged into flames---- sadly we have lost."
I am stunned at what I just heard as I clutch the blanket that's covering my body," What did you say that means-- we lost. "