Right now, this very second, am in the shower cleaning myself up after the dust that's still covering my body from the battle.
".. We lost countless of ours during their acts of brutality, three cities were plunged into flames of destruction," as those words rang in my head, I decided to go to the Vampire Queen's castle to see whether they would blame her for the losses.
I know it's best that I rationalize cause it would be easier, but I know I was too naive, I should have taken Firo's words to heart but I just never wanted to hear it.
"Master your only weakness is your failure to analyze the enemy," its because I never wanted to hear it--but why didn't I, if I tried then could we have won?
I think it's time I let go of the past and focus on the way forward,--its time I grow out of my mindset , if I don't I'll keep on losing and I'd hate to become even more incompetent that I would be a burden to Viret and the others. Why - - have things become so tough?
Tears welled up in Krelm's eyes hopelessly.
I grit my teeth and clench my fist realizing I have to make a tough decision, one that would involve me - - choosing a hurtful path--but does it matter - Sacrifices have to be made - - thats why--Ralia, I'll help you my way.
After my shower Firo handed me a towel to dry myself off after that she mixed her blood with another's, - - but some thing's strange when I tasted, - - it felt incomplete without any taste to it.
I go to the castle in a carriage I then look around and see graveyards of the fallen and houses that look to be destroyed during this massacre caused by the merciless humans who attacked.
"Why hasn't she apologized for this!! - - we want to hear what she has to say for her incompetence," I see a man wearing a black suit in tears telling one of the guards near the grave yard who looks to be in mourning also.
"I am sorry on behalf of My Liege - - but she's blaming herself for the attack," the guard with a sword at his waist while being dressed in black signifying he's lost a loved one, looks away in disgrace.
Finally as we reach the castle its silent as the guards escorts me there, I told Firo to stay because I didn't want her to see my apology to Viret for my incompetence.
'I wasn't qualified to be her servant most especially - - how pathetic!!'
When they open the doors they show me a room where Viret isn't there but I see Lirisu and Anna by the throne who then comes running with a unreadable expression sheltering her true emotions, ".. Krelm are you, alright you should be in bed after the--battle."
".. It's okay it's no time to be sleeping right now, where is Viret."
They all looked away as the guards did the same, this time they stayed and then it was Lirisu who answered, "Your majesty has been in her room ever since we saw the devastation the humans caused after we ended the battle against the distractions but don't worry no one blamed her, but she took it pretty hard so i think it's best we give her time alone."
"... I see, I'll come back - - next time," I leave the castle as I have made the decision to never turn back from it.
I look outside my bedroom window as it has reached night time, ~hmmmm~ I guess it's time to go.
I send a letter through the Raven bird Viret gifted to me.
A few minutes later to Viret who was in her room reading the letter next to the Raven bird sitted on her bed gazing into the moon light;
"Viret you can leave it all up to me, I promise I will come back home so you needn't worry about it, am going to plunge all of them into hell."
Viret stood up holding the letter in tears ,"Krelm - - you idiot, its you we should be worried about."
"I have to keep moving forward so to become stronger---, I have to be the bad guy."
Krelm who was packing the blood Firo gave him in small bottles for incase he needed them desperately and soon after departed the Kingdom of Raven Blood to drown the other races in a sea of blood.