I was annoyed because they are rushing me to leave without preparation, what I hate the most is that rushing me, I ask them to give me some time to prepare because I don't like leaving without even a little money in my pocket. After talking with them I rushed outside and leave the place, I went to my friend's house and stay for a while and calm myself.
I don't know why but I'm this kind of person that wants everything to be in line, my friend invite her friends as well and they came with liquor I'm not surprised my friend loves this kind of event. It's because I'm not in the mode I buy cigarettes and go to the seaside, while smoking I also love to watch the waves of the ocean "sigh" is the only noise you can hear from.
It takes an hour and then leave again and went home I don't know if I can take it, I'm still thinking if I'll leave or not. If I leave how about my child but if I don't leave my friend will be embarassed, it's so hard to think about this situation but I have set aside side my feeling. I hate to say this but I can't take it leaving my child is a big sacrifice for me, but I will try my best. After that, I packed all of my things and leave without saying goodbye to my daughter and son I left when they are sleeping.
When I'm on my way to the airport my boss called me and tells me that if I'm sure about leaving, I responded that this is for their future I need to be strong.