There was no way I could talk to him. There was so much I had to say to him, but I didn't have the courage to do it. For some reason I wanted to kiss him right there and then, but he's with someone else. He moved on, and I didn't! Maybe I should? Maybe I should give someone a chance? I'm always having guys bugging me. And I have Hannah trying to set me up with all these guys.
I could always give Brandon a call? He did give me his number, so I can give him a call and possibly go out again? Is it the best thing though? Should I just move on? Yes! I should! Clayton did, he was obviously in love with Riley and they seemed happy. When he wrapped his arm around her the way he did it reminded me of how he used to do it with me.
Forget him! I'm better off! I can get myself a new boyfriend and be happy and I can move on.
I take out my phone and I find Brandon's name...
"Hello?" He answered. Thankfully.
"Hey, Brandon!" I said.
"Oh, hey Kassie. How's it going?" He asked. For someone reason it sounded like he didn't really want to talk to me. I'm actually starting to feel bad.
"Everything's good. Actually, I was wondering if you wanted to go out again sometime?" I was nervous, and I'm sure he can tell. Silence on his end.
"Hello? Brandon?"
"Yeah, I'm here! Um, Kassie..."
Oh no!
"Kassie I enjoyed our date. I really did. Hannah told me that you broke up with your boyfriend and said how you were alone."
I'm going to kill her.
"I know you weren't really ready to move on from him. And I completely understand."
"Brandon, believe me when I say, I am over him. He has a girlfriend now. And I'm pretty sure it's serious." I tried to convince him.
I guess he didn't believe me though.
"I'm sorry Kassie. I actually started talking to someone just recently..." Great!
"Say no more! I'm happy for you Brandon!" Now I really feel bad. Because of me, he moved on. Why is everyone doing that? Am I not worth it?
"Kassie..."
"Bye Brandon!" I hung up.
God I feel so stupid! Why did I think he would want to take me out again?
Today I decided to stay home, I told Kim I wasn't feeling well. That was a total lie though, if Clay was to come back at all I can be home and avoid him. Hannah came in and saw that I was crying.
"Who do I have to beat up?" She asked. "Me!" I answered. "What do you mean?" "I mean, I'm the one who made myself cry. I've ruined everything. No one wants to be with me. Clayton moved on, and even Brandon." She had a sympathetic look. I don't need her pity right now.
"You called Brandon?" She smiled. "Yes, but clearly he has started talking to someone."
"I know. Her name is Christine. She's actually really nice."
"You're not helping." I said, crying. "I'm sorry, but Kass you should've given him a chance." She was making this worse. "You're supposed to be my friend and make me feel better."
"I am your best friend and that's why I'm telling you!" I guess she's right.
Hannah went into the kitchen and got two bottles of water from the fridge. She handed me one of the bottles. "Thanks."
"Okay, tell me everything!"
So I started off with seeing Clayton at the mall and that he had a new girlfriend and how I wanted to move on from him. I know deep down I still care for him. But I wish I didn't. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and just punch him in the face. He is such a jerk for doing what he did. Why did he even do it? Why did he have to hurt me that way? Maybe I should talk to him and see why exactly he did it?! Maybe once I know I can move on.