"Excuse me? Reyes let me explain something to you. I have been on the screen all my life. For 33 years I have literally lived on the screen. I got so sick of people telling me what to do.
What I should want and what I could do. I have had decisions made for me half of my life. It was just 12 years ago when I started doing what I wanted. And trust me when I say that I have made some terrible mistakes. But I changed, I really changed and I got what I wanted. I didn't want to fall in love with you it just happened and I can do nothing to stop myself having these feelings I have for you" he argued.
"I have a question for you. Why do you sabotage every good that comes to you, huh?" he asked her curiously.
"I don't" she whispered. She couldn't bloody well tell him the truth.
"Okay, so far you have used the claim our age difference and my need for a "good" partner. Both of which are bogus and first class nonsense. As I see it, you have made no good argument why we shouldn't continue to see each other" he stared at her.
Tears were trying to escape from her eyes but she willed them back. "You cannot love me"
"Why?" he asked gently.
"I am not good enough" deciding to tell him part of the reason.
"Says who?!
"Says me"
"I can make my own decisions thank you very much"
"Alexander I am too ashamed to tell you about my past. But trust me when I say that you would not want to be with me if you knew. Accept that what we might have is never going to work. Please lam thinking of your happiness"
"No. You are thinking of your own conscience. You are doing this so you don't have to wake up at night feeling guilty" he yelled.
"And that is wrong?" she yelled.
"If you are doing it purely for your benefit and not mine then yes it is wrong. You are being selfish"
"Trust me when I say that I am not. My past is bad. I couldn't live with myself if my mistakes came to haunt you. I have already hurt enough people"
"Why don't you tell me?" he asked gently.
"I can't I am too ashamed. I can't let myself love you" standing up she turned her face.
"My goodness Eric was right. I can never love another man" she whispered to herself. She could never love any other man for shame of bringing disgrace and hardships his way.
Unfortunately, Alex had heard her little side note to herself and he was not taking it too well
Turning to face him once again "I am sorry Alex. I am so sorry for leading you on"
"Eric" he said shaking his head.
She realized that he must have heard what she said to herself
"He is nobody important" she rushed to explain.
"Really? Eric is no one important? Why you have suddenly gotten over your lover" he asked sweetly but his eyes held anger in them.
"He is not my lover!" she yelled. Wait. How did he know? Her eyes widened in horror.
"Oh l'm sorry, ex-lover, right? And yes sweetheart I do know" he sneered at her seeing the look of surprise on her face.
"Eric Timmons. So that is why you're rejecting me because you are still hung over your ex-lover" he laughed evilly. This was not the Lex she knew.
"How do you know?" she asked quietly.
"Your ex-lover? Well I have always known. Remember I and my uncle are the only ones in the entertainment. My family is rich and so they rub shoulders once in a while. And some of these things tend to come out no matter how hard you try to hide it" he said simply.
"Alex-
"No" holding up his hand. "You know something you deserve to be alone" he lashed out
She gasped at this. She had heard it many times but coming from him was making breathing very difficult. It was like someone had punched her in the gut.
"Surprised Esther? Oh I knew about your escapades with Eric long ago. How you had an affair with him knowing that he had a wife and children. I couldn't understand why you would let
yourself be treated as nothing more than a second hand toy.
But I still gave you a chance. But what should I have expected from a home wrecker? I am coming to realize that Eric might be the real victim not you. Everyone is the victim, Eric, Rachel, Ashley, Diane, all of them. Because of your selfish narcissistic behavior and actions. Hey you know now that Eric and Rachel have separated maybe you can be with him your "one true love". Wait that wouldn't work. Oh I am sorry, I forgot that you like them married right?" he mocked.
She was about ready to pass out from the amount of pain that she was going through. This couldn't be her Alex. She had to explain to him that was the biggest mistake she had ever made in her life. How she regretted it. "Alex please let me explain. I was young and stupid. I-" but once again he cut her off.
"You know for weeks, months I have done nothing but treat you like a lady. Respecting you. Treating you like a treasure.
Never once have I ever taken advantage of you. Never once have I disrespected you. Never once have I tried to take our relationship physical. Why? Because I thought that would get you to trust me and bring us closer to you. To show you how a woman ought to treated" he continued to rant. He couldn't help himself. He was so damn angry.
"What a waste of my time and effort, because now I know.
Now I know that you only go after the married ones huh? Why, does it turn you on to be nothing more than a mistress?
Nothing more than a woman who has no respect from any man? Please do share. Is it your life's ambition to break up families because vou derive some sick pleasure from it? Is that why you don't go for the single ones? Well please don't let me
in your way. Run to your married lover. You both deserve each other, you are both vile disgusting creatures" he said coldly.
"Alex. Please" she begged. She knew he was hurting and so was she. He got it all wrong.
"No. Please don't let me get in your way. Run to your married lover. should have known once a cheater alwavs a cheater. I just feel so sorry for your daughter. She has her whole life and a great career ahead of her but it is always going to marred and hindered by her mother. You know you are right, you do nothing but ruin everyone's life. It is sad your grandkids and your daughter are the ones who have to suffer. And you just don't give a damn. Diane must be one strong woman to still be taking care of a mother who is such a screw-up. Poor Diane, at the peak of her career and stuck with a ..." at this he paused.
She was glad he stopped when he did. She could not take any more of this torture. She knew he was hurting but damn it she was hurting too. His words were killing her. If he only knew how just yesterday Diane had said the same thing before kicking her out of her house. If he only knew how many times she cried herself to sleep because she was racked up with so much guilt over the way her daughter's life turned out. Or the many times she will lie awake praying for God's forgiveness.
By all things holy she regretted it. She regretted ever being with that man. But she never regretted having her daughter.
She couldn't hear anymore. But his next words killed her.
"It is taking everything within me not to call you a slut" looking at her dead in the eyes.
That hurt more than anything. People had said it over and over again. But coming from him she might as well have been shot.
"Alex you don't mean that" she pleaded and hoped that he would take it all back.
"Oh but I do. Here I was thinking about us getting married.
Haha what a fool I was. I have a question if we were married or you were married would you let your husband have affairs?
Why am I even asking? Of course you would, it is after all your fantasy. And I am sure that you will be having a few yourself.
You know what? Get out. Get out Esther Reyes" he snarled.
"I don't want to us to end this way. Let me explain. I have nothing to do with Eric"
"There goes that name again. You really love this man huh? I would give you the names and contact information of some married men but even I don't hate my enemies that much" he chuckled. He didn't understand nor did he care for her lame excuses" he turned around, he couldn't face her.
Giving up she straightened her back and looked "Goodbye
Alex. I hope that one day you'll-"
"Oh Just shut up with the lame cliches and get the hell out of my house" yelling at her as he turned and glared at her.
She held her head high and walked out of his house. But when she got to her car she dropped to the ground crying her eyes out. She couldn't breathe. Why did it hurt so much? Why? If this was her punishment for her sin then she had learnt her lesson. When would the Scarlett sign be removed from her? It became like a sign that everyone could see? In a span of three days she had lost three of the closest people to her.
Maybe Diane and Alex were right. It was time for her to stop screwing up their lives. And with that thought she pulled out of the driveway.