I'm writing this with a heart full of tears,
Brokenness,
Agony,
And dilapidation.
Life can never be the same without you
And I can't deny that,
But once again,
I have to do things for your joy,
Contentment,
And desire.
The truth is that I'm deeply in love with you
And I'm already losing myself loving you.
It hurts me the most to understand that I'm
Bothering you with my stupid feelings.
I mean.
If I truly love you,
I shouldn't have you bothered for any reason.
Thus:
I plead with you to block and delete my
Number and unfollow me on social media.
So that whenever I become so weak as I have
Always been towards you;
And hunt for your number again,
I won't be able to reach you.
This won't be easy for me and I know that
But I have to deal with these pains in full
And at once, perhaps.
I have to punish myself for being too loose,
I have to fight and kill the spirit of love in me. It's getting me killed.
I'm now dead to you,
Whereas,
I might be
Soon or sooner.
Nwunye m ruo mgbe ebighi ebi,
I wish you luck and someone that loves you
More than I do.