Rachelle must be waiting for me. While taking each steps I am thinking about the things I did this whole day. The unexpected dinner, same choice of food, him being angry for that cake, and that ice cream moment and most unforgettable words,
" you belong to me and you can only think about me." His words are echoing in my mind.
I am at the door of my house. I knocked the door. Rachelle opened the door.
I am getting in.
" Jazzelle are you okay? Where were you? You said you will be working overtime but don't you think it's too late. That boss of yours did he give you hard time, is he…." Rachelle is extremely furious.
She is asking questions one after another. I stopped her and said
" Don't worry my dear, there is nothing like that. We worked and then we went for dinner." I seem to be blushing right now. There is a little smile on my face.
" DINNER!!! Jazzelle you went for a dinner with that man." Her voice is very loud. She is shocked.
" what do you mean by ' that man '. That man is my boss. He made me work overtime Isn't it obvious for him to take me for a dinner."
After saying this. I sat on the chair. I am drinking water. I took off my coat.
Rachelle sat next to me and hold my hand. My hands are red.
" jazzelle did you eat something what you shouldn't? Are you having a allergic reaction? Why is your hand red?"
She is looking at my hand.
I pulled my hand and said, " it must be because of this coat, you know, this winter wears are not my thing."
I am just making excuses. To prevent her from asking more question, I stood up and said,
" I am tired, I am going for wash up first and then will go to bed." I started walking.
I am taking bath right now. I am looking at hand. My hand has turned red. It isn't rashes , it's just redness. But when I think about how I got this.
( In the car when superior grabbed my hand, that moment came into my mind.)
After taking shower, I am going to bed. Rachelle is already asleep. But before going to bed I remembered there is something I need to do.
I took my laptop and sat on the sofa. I turned it on. I am going to make my video diary.
" hi Tiny." I said everything from the start to end. " tiny! Until now I've never let anyone know about this, that how I get this redness, and how this happened to me. I need to be more careful I can't let this happen again. Now I am going bye bye."
I am going to bed.
In middle of the night. I and Rachelle are sleeping.
A hand is coming to me.
That hand is on my waist,
it is scrolling over my belly,
the hand is slowly slowly scrolling up.
I can't move, I am trying to move but can't, and hand is touching my body it's crawling like a bug,
a shadow is coming near me it's coming and,
" noooooo!!!!" I shouted. I woke up. I am taking deep breaths. It was a nightmare. I am sweating badly. I am frightened.
" Jazzelle are you okay?" Rachelle is awake. She is worried.
" yeah I am okay, it was a nightmare I think." I smiled and said, " don't worry"
" jazzelle you are frightened, see how badly you are sweating and you are asking me not to worry. What was it about?"
"huhh?" I reacted.
" the nightmare, what did you see?" Her expressions are serious.
I laughed and said, " Rachellele, you are worrying out of nothing. And you know I don't remember my dreams. Now just sleep quietly."
My facial expressions are normal. Rachelle didn't ask anything and slept.
Though I always have nightmares, but tonight it was scary. I never shout no matter how scary the dream is. But today I was really frightened.
I am wiping sweat with my hand. I covered my face with both of my hands. That hand appeared again. I opened my eyes quickly.
I don't think I can close my eyes tonight. I am looking at my hand. This redness hasn't gone yet. I put my hand on my forehead. I am having a slight headache.
I slowly descended from the bed. I opened a drawer and took out a medicine. These are sleeping pills. I can't be awakened whole night, I need to go to sleep I don't have any options. I took the Medication and went to the bed.
I am awake, but head feels like someone has placed a mountain on it. It's so heavy, even alcohol is better than sleeping pills. Why did I take sleeping tablet recklessly.
I am still on bed. Rachelle came.
" Jazzelle! Did you take any medicine last night?" Rachelle is near the table where I put my sleeping tablets in the drawer.
"ummmm medicine? What medicine?"
though I look like a thief who is caught red handed but thankfully I control my expressions very well. I acted natural as I don't know what is she talking about.
" you use this mug only when you take any medicine, it's here, so I thought you took some medicines."
Rachelle holds my mug in her hand,
I got off the bed. I went near her and took my mug from her and said with a smile,
" aahhh this, I was so thirsty and was feeling lazy to look for a mug, this was here so just used it."
" Okay! Let's eat breakfast, you were sleeping quietly sleeping and you had a bad dream last night so I didn't wake you up, and ordered breakfast for us."
She put her both hands on my shoulder from behind and is taking me to the dining table.
We are having breakfast.
"Jazzelle! It was your first day as his (superior's) secretary and he asked you for dinner, do you think he is trying to pursue you or something." Rachelle asked.
I laughed slightly and said, " of course not. He has a girlfriend and he Isn't a person who'd two time.
" I think that girl whom you saw last time is not his girlfriend, Maybe you mistook it."
" I don't think so, last night I mentioned his girlfriend many times but not even a single time he denied it. Isn't it obvious that he has a girlfriend." I am very calm and smiling.
"Are you okay? You are smiling but it is making me sad? She makes a puppy face she sounds like she pities me.
" aahhh!! don't pity me, I am not pathetic. I don't love him, he is just a unrequited love. A crush." I Coolly said
"I am done eating. It was delicious. Do the dishes for me, I need to go early today."