I am going to the office.
And here I am.
"Good morning, everyone." I joyfully said.
" Good morning jazzelle. You look very relaxed. You have a presentation this noon but you don't seem nervous at all." My colleague Jennifer said.
" Why would I be nervous. I've prepared my presentation. And I am confident with my communication skills." I said it confidently.
" that's the spirit jazzelle." The manager said this, but her way of saying this, is quiet strange. She came near to me and said,
" your confidence is appreciative, but if you made any mistakes in this presentation, I'll show you the exit way." She held my shoulder tightly.
" Hmmmm!! I'll definitely not let you down. I'll do my best." I was looking like a frightened kid.
" You'd better." She said and left my shoulder. She went through me.
I exhaled breath and sat on my desk.
It's the time for my presentation.
I entered the room. Heads of other departments and CEO are here. And my superior is also here.
I greeted them first
" hello, my name is jazzelle. I am an intern of HR department and today's I am the presenter. This meeting is about working time overtime, salary and bonus of employees. In every department there are many employees who do overtime......."
This presentation took half hour. Everyone was listening to me quietly. After when, I had done with my words, I said,
" and this is what I observed and researched about the mentality of employees about work and salary. I rest my words. Thank you for listening me."
I said it very politely. I drank water. And exhaled breath.
Everyone praised me. They said I am a talented intern.
But still I feel incomplete.
My superior has not said a word To me. I am waiting for his response. And....
Hey!! he is coming, he is coming.
" Well done." He said. I am just looking at him. It's my first time get praised by him. " hey! I said you did well."
" Yeah! Thank you." I am having a little Lovely smile on my face.
He went slowly after that.
I went back on my desk. All my colleagues were shocked. Because it's a very big deal for an intern to give a presentation in front of the CEO and other departments heads.
I want to make my video diary and tell it everything
"Hey tiny you know Everyone is praising me. But actually they don't know, it's not a big deal. Since childhood I've never had stage fear.
Nervousness and hesitation is something I have never experienced. It's not confidence but coldness. And because of this I never feel or express shyness like other girls. I am almost a tomboy in everyone's eyes." I turned off my laptop.
I want to thank my superior. I've completed my work so I think I should go to his office.
I am going to his office. I only want to thank him for giving me shelter.
Here I am!!
I am knocking the door and...........
I've stopped my hand. After what I am seeing right now, I can't even stand here.