Chapter#22: You're getting weirder...
[Jacob Seo's P.O.V.]
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It was late at night when I arrived at the apartment where Noona and I were staying. I don't know what time it is now but I only know one thing; I'm sure, Noona will be upset to me because at this time it has taken me long enough to stay outside again. We talked before that it won't take me late at night outside but here I am now like a thief slowly opening the door. Of course I have a key, but I'm afraid Noona might catch me just before I get inside my room.
I slowly turned the doorknob and opened it but to my surprise something suddenly fell behind the door.
"OMY! What was that thing?" I said and quickly opened the door and saw Clyde lying on the floor sound asleep.
Don't you tell me that Clyde slept here at the door and he was waiting for me to come?
He was still sound asleep even though he had fallen off his back on that cold and hard-rock floor. I went first inside the apartment for me to fix Clyde's sleeping position and place. I patted his cheek and then whispered to him, "Babe, why did you sleep there? Why didn't you just wait for me in my room?" I stared at him with concern and astonishment.
I noticed he was holding a lot of paper and they seemed important because he hugged it tightly. I noticed that he was a bit dizzy and have bruises that seemed to be from scratching or eye rubbing. He stared at me and then suddenly hugged me.
"Jacob! Where did you fucking go? I was so damn worried about you—us. Next time, say goodbye or inform us to where you going. You should and should never be gone for almost a week without warning," he said crying as he hugged me.
"Huh? What did you say?" I said then rubbed my ear then fix my posture of sitting.
"Wait a minute, sit on the chair first, let's not be here by the door," I said in astonishment and then made him sit on the chair in the living room.
"Hey, Clyde. Babe. I don't know what you mean. Calm down there, please?" I worriedly asked my boyfriend because I saw how badly he was crying and how badly his puffy eyes looks like.
I hugged him tightly before speaking again, "What do you mean I've been missing for almost a week? It seems like a while ago, it was still morning but at the same time it's weird because I didn't know why I woke up in a closed Laundromat earlier and it was midnight. Do you know something I didn't know was happening to me?"
I hugged him again because he started crying again.
"Are you for real Jacob, I'm already starting to be scared of you. You keep on being yourself and then suddenly you fight with me telling you're not Jacob and worst of all, you always seem to be disgusted by just being with me. I can no longer understand what is happening between the both of us. You know what? You can tell me if you don't want us to continue this. But heck!—Say it in the right way and not in this painful manner," Clyde said before he rudely removed my arms which was embracing him.
"I'm getting tired, Jacob. How come after 2 years, you are now acting like this? Do you already have another love interest? Is it a man?—A woman?—Who?—Tell me. If you have a problem, tell me. It's not good to have both sides we're still having a bad time, every time you were acting strangely. I don't want to think of something bad against you but you're really getting weirder every time we're together. Have you tried to go to a doctor? Mr. Seo told me last time, that you haven't been able to go back to the Psychiatrist and I should accompany you incase he doesn't have time for it or when Hae Soo-shi isn't around," Clyde said and stood up while staring at me...
I can feel his stressfulness and his temper getting worse. What did I do? I don't know what bad I kept on doing. Yesterday was just so happy because it seems like Dad and Noona are gradually becoming more relaxed with us and then suddenly something like this is happening? Just yesterday we were at a resort because of team building of the academy's soccer players but why is the atmosphere so bitter.
"What was there and why do you need to go to a Psychiatrist Jacob? Are you sick? You didn't even tell me? Please let me understand what's happening to you, baby. I'm not a fortune teller, so I can't just predict what was going on to you. I don't want to lose you… If I could just lock you up every time you do something weird I'll do it, but that's an absolutely absurd case when I do that to you," he said as tears flowed from his eyes. He gently touched both my cheeks and wanted to stop the tears struggling to escape his eyes.
"I'm sorry baby. I really don't know what's happening but can you do me a favor? Please stay with me in times I'm not in my normal shape and whenever I'm feeling better. I still want to observe it," I said, then hugged him and caressed his hair.
He nodded while sobbing inside my embrace.
"Can you also tell me to write down whenever you notice something unusual in my behavior? Maybe it's just because of the medicine that's why I'm going crazy or maybe it's because I'm not getting food on time or I'm unintentionally skip on taking medicine. Please do that for me, babe," I said and let Clyde lie on my lap.
"I will definitely do that for you. Everything I will do for you just not to depart from my side," he said and nodded while gently caressing my cheek.
"Go back to sleep, Babe. Never sleep near the door again. I almost stepped on you earlier," I said and gently patted his head to help him fall asleep.
I stared at him. He looks very stressed out. I haven't stared at him in a long time and I miss his face. Like how the lines marked on his forehead when he was in a hostile mood. Even the lines that form near his nose when he smiles plus those pretty dimples that he has. It really melts my heart but for some reason I think I really missed those a lot. It's like it's been long since I haven't seen them. I feel like I don't always seem to be there whenever he does those things, I feel distant for some reasons. I do not know why…
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