It was funny how she came to this building twice in just hours.. And she didn't even work there... I bet people there already knew her face...
When she got there it was 1pm in the afternoon... The weather was nice and beautiful. And Vanessa would have stopped for a while to admire the beauty of the afternoon but she barely even noticed her own self., more or less the weather and the clear blue sky...
When she got to the restaurant., she saw him sitting there., like a lost sheep.., or more like a criminal in front of the judge and jury, about to receive judgment... He looked like he didn't sleep a wink last night...
Well that was probably because he was busy... Very busy in his office., on the floor, doing some serious work...
He raised his head and saw her... His expression paled even more... His face had a mixture of different emotions. But Vanessa was in no mood to notice his different kind of emotions...
She took a deep breath and walked over to him, pulled out a chair and sat herself down...
" so what did you have to say huh??... She hoped her voice didn't give away the pain she was feeling right now... She hoped she sounded bold enough... And well she did..
Mark could feel the coldness in her voice... He didn't know how to start... He thought he didn't love her anymore., but now he had no idea what he felt any more...
"Look Van., I'm sorry., I have no excuse or whatsoever... I messed up and I'm sorry about that... Was all he could say... This was all that came out of his mouth... Is he really serious right now... She caught him cheating and this was all he had to say...
Maybe she just didn't see this before., but this was not her Mark.. This was not the guy she fell in love with years ago., and sadly was still in love with...
"you're sorry?... Mark that's really all you have to say... I would ask you one question Mark and please be truthful to me... I deserve that at least... She said... He didn't give her a response., he just looked at her waiting for the question...
" how long have you been sleeping with her... Vanessa asked... Under the table. Her hands were in a fist... She clenched them so tight that her knuckles had gone completely white.. Her thin nails dug into her delicate skin... She hoped his answer was something like a month or just months and not more...
"T.. Two years... You could hear it in his voice., he was ashamed of himself... But Vanessa was disgusted... Two years.. She felt like a knife was being shoved into her heart in slow motion, and it was excruciatingly painful... Unknown to her, her eyes had already let out the ocean they held in them...
"I'm sorry van., I didn't mean to hurt you., I don't know what came over me... I think I fell out of love with you at some point.. I really didn't want to hurt you... It was like he didn't think before he opened his bloody mouth..
" But you did Mark.., Why Mark... Two years... She didn't know this but the pitch of her voice was soon increasing... Two years, and you didn't have the decency to tell me you fell out of love with me., you didn't feel it right to think of our years long relationship... The disgust for the man in front of her was increasing..
"we've been together since high school Mark... high school... And now you tell me that you've fallen out of love with me after I caught you with your another woman huh.... You couldn't break up with me like a decent person even if it was because of our relationship over the years.... Her voice was really high now., she could not control herself no more... She felt like slapping the guy right in the face... Maybe she should have brought Jenny she probably would have landed one on the guy's face by now...
"I'm sorry Vanessa., but I didn't know how I was to tell you this... He said.. Now she was certain he didn't think before he spoke... He didn't know how to tell her so instead he'd been sleeping with someone else for two whole years... He'd been lying to her for two whole years... Vanessa felt like her head was starting to spin... She couldn't believe that this was the same guy that talked about growing old together., and having a dozen kids surrounding them... He was a completely different person today.. Or maybe he has been for a very long time and she just didn't want to see it...
She had nothing more to say to him... He hurt her deeply.. And it was a wound that would probably take years to heal... She wiped her tears., and then stood up..
"well I guess this is goodbye for both of us... She said sniffing... I wish you luck with your 'Coworker'.... She made sure to emphasize on the word Coworker... Then she walked away... Mark sat down there., he was suddenly terrified.., he hadn't expected a goodbye from her... Not so soon.. He could not explain what he was feeling... Regret.., pain.., sorrow... What was it exactly... He had no idea., but all he knew was that he wanted to stop her from going..
He raised his head and realized she was already almost out of reach.. He bolted up from his seat., ran towards her..., and was about to run into the elevator but collided with someone... He looked up at the person... He recognized the young man...
"I'm really sorry Mr Bryan... He said., then moved on., but she was already gone... He was going to pursue her., but at that moment he got a call from his boss... Regretfully., when the elevator door opened up again., he went up to his office..
As Vanessa ran out of the building., she hoped he didn't follow her.. Thankfully a taxi pulled up in front of her and she entered quickly... The taxi started., and on the radio a song was playing... It said..
I thought that I've been hurt before., but no one's ever left me quite this sore...
She knew this song very well..., it was Stitches by Shawn Mendes... Although she never thought the song could ever apply to her until today... But it turned out that it fits her life perfectly.
The next part of the song only made her cry harder... It said..
"Your words cut deeper than a knife".... Marks had said he fell out of love with her... She could still feel the pain in her heart from when he said those words.. They were like knives straight to her heart....
"Now I need someone to breathe me back to life"... Was the next words in the song... But she felt like she was a not going to find any such someone anytime soon... No one would come and help take this pain away from her heart... No one to take out the knife from her breaking heart.. No one to breathe her back to life...
The song was really for her...
Don't worry sis., your friend did tell you God works in mysterious ways... So you never know what's waiting for you...
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Jenny suppressed the urge to call Vanessa... She really didn't want to leave the girl for a minute.. Not after what she almost did last night... As she was pacing the house worried., Vanessa walked in... She saw her swollen eyes.. She knew her friend had cried her eyeballs out for that jerk...
"How are you feeling... Was all she could ask... But Vanessa's reply shocked her deeply...
" I'll go Jenny... I'll go with you... Let's go there...