Let's back up a bit... Mother has a total of four children.
It was a normal saturday. I woke up and got ready for my day. I took my siblings outside to play for a while. Around eleven, I took them inside. I made them lunch and put them down for a nap. Then I went outside to enjoy a few hours to myself. One of my friends Koa saw me and so we hung out. He told me to follow him. He wanted to introduce me to a friend of his. I didn't think much of it and just followed him. I didn't know just how much my life would change at that moment. He knocked at the door and there he stood. The boy looked like an angel. He was tall, thick, handsome and he was smiling at me. He opened his screen door and motioned for us to come in. Then offered us drinks. I declined but he handed me a cup of ice tea anyway. I didn't want to be rude. So I took the cup from his hands. I nearly dropped the cup when his hand touched mine. He was quick and managed to catch it as he gripped my hands. My mind was racing. This beautiful boy touched me and in return I turned to jelly. He just smiled at me and guided my hands to the table. Once he let go and I managed to get ahold of myself. I took a sip and held the cup in my hand. My cheeks were on fire, my heart was racing, my mind was focused on him and only him. We made eye contact and it was hard to look away. Koa tapped my shoulder and I could barely find the strength to look away from him. Koa said Mana meet Josh. Josh quickly said I know who she is. Then Koa said well duh I was talking to her. I giggled a bit and Josh smile beamed at the sound of my giggles. I took a long sip and then quietly stood up. I walked over to the sink and washed my cup. He never took his eyes off of me. Koa walked into his room and offered to set up the cards. I turned to place my cup into the dish rack but noticed there was none. Josh leaned across me. He was so close I could smell his soap. The warmth of his body and the rhythm of his heart. Slowly he reached across me as I froze in place. His entire body brushed up against mine. My body felt weak. I tried my hardest to hold myself together. My knees were weak and were about to give way. He quickly ran his arms around my waist to catch me. His other hand holding a wash cloth. I slowly caught my breath as he gently walked me to his bed. Then he took the cup I forgot I was holding. He asked me if I was ok. I nodded my head slightly and he walked out the room. Koa tugged at my shirt. I turned towards him and noticed he looked a bit worried. I told him I had a dizzy spell and I would be fine. Josh returned to the room with two chairs. He told me to stay on the bed, he and Koa would take the chairs. I nodded and we started to play. After a few rounds of rummy. Koa looked over at his phone that was vibrating. He answered and looked over to. He had to leave. We all stood up and I got ready. As I made my way through the bedroom door. Josh grabbed me and gently pushed me up against the wall. My heart skipped and I forgot to breathe. In this moment our lips met and my body crumbled. He held my arms above my head with one hand. His other was around my waist holding me up. He slowly kissed my lips, then moved to my neck and back to my lips again. The world around me seemed to have disappeared. Time itself slowed, sounds around me were silenced and my mind only saw us together. It was like I was watching a movie but in my head. A loud bang followed that broke our moment. Koa had stormed out and left us to it. That was when Josh was called by his father. He grabbed my hand and took me to meet his father. His father looked me up and down. Told me his name was Kevin. Then invited me to dinner. That night we had a true Hawaiian style dinner. We had laulau, Kailua pork and cabbage, purple sweet potato, lomi salmon, fried fish, poi, rice and poke. I ate very little and very slowly. Trying to be careful not to embarrass myself. After dinner I tried to help clean up. His father sent me out of the kitchen. Josh smiled and said it's okay. When he spoke to me, it was like I was lost in his voice. I didn't say much at all. I just smiled and nodded. I told them thank you for having me and letting me stay for dinner. As I looked at my phone and realized it was getting late. I quickly grabbed my things and headed out the door when Josh grabbed my hand. I froze as he slid his jacket over my shoulders and followed me out the door. He held my hand and we walked. We were lost in conversation when I noticed my sister Maka. She was hanging from a tree and was filthy from head to toe. My brother was asleep on the front porch, completely naked. My baby sister was nowhere to be found. Josh laughed as he helped me grab all of them. I started to panic as I couldn't find my baby sister. I got the two I found and headed to the bathroom. With much to my relief I found my baby sister. She was playing water in the toilet. I turned on the water to give it time to heat. Headed to the room to find clothes for them. Josh was in the bathroom showering them by the time I got back. I quietly stood at the door watching him with them. He was careful and playful at the same time. So I placed towels on the now dry and clean toilet. Then headed to the kitchen. As I passed through the living room I noticed mother. She smelled really bad and she looked it to. I pulled leftovers out and put it in the microwave. Josh called for me so I headed back to the bathroom. He had my brother wrapped up in a towel. He pointed to the girls and said I don't do private parts that don't belong to me or aren't of my sex. I giggled and said it's ok I got that part. I looked at the girls and said ok time for the no no places. He walked out and the girls got to cleaning their areas. Once I got them all cleaned and dressed. We fed them and got them to bed. Then he said tomorrow please bring them over with you. I nodded in agreement. He continued to hang out while I began working on mother. I got her in the shower and had her get cleaned up. Then I began cleaning up. Hard liquor bottles everywhere, joints, and many other drugs laid out on her table. He tried to get into my room but I really did not want to explain to him about all the blood. I tried to stop him but he made his way in there anyway. Moments after entering my room he just pulled me in close to him. The next thing I knew he was checking my arms, legs, stomach etc. I told him it'll be ok and that I was ok. He pointed at the blood. So I just said it was nothing. He went straight to work at cleaning it. I told him I would do it but he pointed his finger at me. I fell silent and sat in my bed. Once everything was cleaned up, he joined me on my bed. I guess he knew I was beginning to panic. He quickly told me it's okay, we aren't having sex. Which is when the fear and panic left me. I asked him why he was helping me. He said it was because he's been watching me for the past year. He has loved me since the very first time he saw me. Then he ushered me into the shower. So I followed instructions and got cleaned up myself. When I got out the shower, his father was talking to my mother. My stomach knotted up. As I thought, well this is it. There goes my chance of happiness. Josh saw me and pulled me into my room. A few minutes later they left and it was just me, mother and my siblings. The house was quiet. After about maybe twenty minutes mother came into my room. She told me to wait for her in the living room. So I did exactly what she asked of me. I sat quietly waiting for her. Next thing I knew there was a searing pain on my back. Then another and another. Mother was whipping my back with her metal trimmed, stripped leather belt. Water was dripping everywhere and my back was conflicting. It was warm, wet, cold and it felt like it was on fire. After it was all done, she didn't say a single word until after she was done. All she said was that's what you get for coming home late and inviting strangers in her house. Then she said don't make a sound and don't move. I shook my head to let her know I understood. Then she covered my back with a sheet. My back felt like it was on fire. The burning sensation was so overwhelming a cry left my mouth. She walked to me and slammed my head to the ground and I passed out. When I woke the next morning my back hurt like crazy. I was still on the living room floor. I was fully clothed and everything was cleaned. Mother was sitting on the couch feeding my siblings. She said good morning and told me to get the laundry done. She handed me some pills and told me they'll help me through the day. My back was feeling a little cold and wet. So I went home to change. I got yelled at because I ruined a perfectly clean shirt. Then she followed me into my room. I thought I was really in for it now. Only she came to me in a kind and gentle way. She helped me pull off my shirt and grabbed a roll of gauze. She put some medicine on the few cuts on my back, then cut gauze and placed it on my cuts. Then she wrapped my lower back and around my waist. She gave me more pills to help with the pain. She grabbed me a clean shirt and helped me put it on. Then she got up and walked to my door. She stopped and looked at me. At first with the look of love. Then a look of something else. Just like that her loving voice was gone. She looked me up and down and said do you see what you do to me? Why can't you be a good girl? Why must you make me do these things to you. You know what, just get out. Go outside and take your siblings with you. I will finish the laundry. Just get out of my face. I shook my head and practically ran out the door but she caught my hair. Then said if you tell anyone or show anyone. I will tell them you did this to yourself. That's why I did it so low and on mainly your sides. To make it look like you did it yourself. Now get. I didn't say anything. I just grabbed them and slowly made my way to Josh with my siblings.