This can't be happening. It must be a terrible nightmare! He moved even closer, as if there's any more space to do so, and wrap an arm around my shoulders. "I don't know what I am to say to make you feel slightly better. I feel like such a monster!" I could see through the blurry corner of my eyes how his mood sunk into oblivion. That's an understatement. It's more like the other way around. In all truthfulness, I'm feeling like the monster in this equation. How could I have not known? To think that he had been waiting for so long, waiting for my eyes to open up. Silently wishing that I could just take notice in him. Just comes to think about how much of a coward I have been. He lifted my face and turned my attention towards him. He looked me straight in the eyes, leaned in closer and kissed me. It feels as if my heart had stopped for a few seconds. He lifted me onto an angel's wings. For a mere moment I've forgotten how to breathe. Heaven has swallowed me in, paradise a mere whisper away. Our lips parted.
I didn't want to open my eyes, afraid that it might all just be one vividly realistic dream. I swallowed my pride and opened my eyes. I know all too well that even realistically wakened dreams ends. Yuuki stood up and walked around the spacious living room. I could tell that he's second guessing himself about his actions. For me it has been incredible and irresistible. He couldn't have not felt it too? I am even more infatuated than I have been before our bittersweet moment. "This had been a mistake, I shouldn't have come... I have a girlfriend!" I heard him comply. I joined his side and heard myself begging: "Please, don't go? Stay with me- p- please. I love you!" I can't believe I'd just admitted it to him. Is this really me whose talking? He faced me in utter shock. He might've already known this much, but I don't think he thought that I would actually admit to it. "You shouldn't. I have-" I put my index finger to his lips, standing on my tippy toes; finishing his sentence: "... a girlfriend, I know!" He closed his hands around mine and stated, "Scarlett, this is wrong and you know it!" I sighed as I pulled my hand free from his.
What am I thinking? What am I doing? Even if the both of us are feeling the aftermath of a shockwave, he would never leave Violette for me. That's just wishful thinking. I walk away and stopped dead in my tracks. "I'm sorry, you're right. Perhaps you should just go join my brother and the rest at the venue. I'm be okay on my own." I said this without turning around, clearly lying through my teeth. I want to scream from the hilltops; sway in the breeze while I'm waiting on haven's answer. I want to turn to dust in a city where nobody knows me. Die an easy death, cold and completely alone. If he's smart, which he is, he wouldn't leave me alone for a single moment. "No way, you can forget about it! I won't be able to live with myself if something were to happen to you," he stated. "I'm sorry," I apologized again as I fall down onto my knees. How am I to breathe without any air? Just the thought of her, in his embrace, eats me up like a deadly virus. One that has no cure. Tears stained the floor beneath me. "Kill me?" I whispered in a fragile voice. I never thought that love could hurt so damn much nor did I know that I could love another more than I loved myself. I love him! I am in love with him. My stomach gave a firm tug. My heart is shattering in its cage. I have zero control over my emotions. Heartache is pushing me over the limit.
I could hear Yuuki's footsteps as he edged closer. He knelt down before me and wrapped me in his warm embrace. I cannot move. I feel so limp within his arms. Sad and broken. "Don't ever say something like that again?" I couldn't look him in the eyes. He would only swallow me in and make it more difficult to cope. Breathing is so hard to do, like it ain't coming naturally. He lifted my face by gently pressing his thumb underneath my chin, and placed a kiss against my lips. It's pretty much the same as the first time around, yet the level of intensity had grown beyond my expectations. Sparks were flying freely between us.
Everything was falling into place when suddenly the doorbell chimed. Yuuki jumped up and ran down the corridor to the front door. I knew it. I can't blame her for not keeping her distance, there's after all a threat lurking within the shadows. Her voice filled the space. Echoing in delightful shrieks. "Dammit!" I whispered under my breath, over and over again. Slamming my fists into the concrete floor every time the word 'dammit' would roll over my lips. Blood seeping through my self inflicted wounds. Feeling a rush of aggravation. "Shit man, stop her!?" Yuuki exclaimed his metaphorical question. Rei grabbed hold of my wrists. I screamed, throwing my head backwards, like I'm being possessed. Trying violently to escape from his death grip. Crying like there's no tomorrow. Paying no attention to the shocked expressions around me. "Kill me!" I screeched. "End my miserable life?" I asked them rhetorically etorically. Violette looks down at me, a hand covering her mouth.
Hachioji and Heike used a combination form of their abilities, golden thread and shadow, to bind me down. Ogami carried me to my room, and laid me down on my bed. He gave my brother a quick call and informed him about everything that happened so far. Or at least what he knew about. A moment later Yuuki entered the room. I just laid there unable to move, strained to the bedpost. "Is she going to be fine?" He asked Rei, who was sitting in the chair at the side of the room. Keeping a watchful eye over me. "Sure, but no thanks to you! What happened here?" Ogami asked. "Well nothing good if that's what you're implying. We shouldn't- no... I shouldn't have!" He said sharply. Rei shook his head in what seems to be disbelief. I stared through a blurry vision up at the ceiling. "She's unstable and you've- KISSED HER?!" He screeched but in nothing more than a whisper, which made the hairs at the back of my neck stand on edge. I could almost hear how Yuuki tried to swallow down the lump that stuck to his throat. "I can see how this could be problematic. I can already see the article's headline: Two girls, one choice.... Whose heart would be broken?" Rei recides the make believe article. Yuuki's mood has sunk into darkness. If I were in his shoes i'd most likely feel uncomfortable, uneasy even. I like to think that it might've turned steamy, in another concept altogether, if they hadn't shown up when they did.
I will have no such luck. It seems that God might've forgotten all about me when luck had been shared between my friends. My heart is most likely the one that's bound to break. He would never leave his girlfriend for me, what's the reality in that happening? Zeropāsento. It simply doesn't matter how many fireworks explodes between us, because in the end he's still the one who's going to have to make a decision.