I had spent the last 3 hours staring in the mirror thinking about all the horrible things that had happened to me and especially the way I looked. every time I looked in the mirror all I could feel was the disgust I felt like I was ugly like I had gained a billion pounds. I returned to my bed where I laid there not moving not even to go to the bathroom for hours upon hours when finally I came up with the idea of only eating on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, and on the days that I didn't eat I would only chew gum and drink a lot of water. a few days pas and my suspension were over I was finally able to go back to school and I had only eaten a salad, apple, and oatmeal during the entire day and really small portions of them, and then the most unexpected thing happened a new student came up to the table I was sitting at and asked if she could join I obviously said yes because duh I had no friends anymore. she sat down and we started talking for what felt like forever, i learned that her name was dawn and that she was from Alaska. the next few days were happy but hard the happy part is that I had a new friend the bad part I only lost two and a half pounds which is really good but not enough. unfortunately, dawn started to pick up on my eating habits she found out because i was with her twenty-four-seven her parents had kicked her out for coming out as gay so i invited her to stay at my place since my mom was m.i.a. she made it very clear that I was hurting my body by eating like this but i didn't care all i could think about is how much weight i would lose and just the thought of eating made me sick as if i didn't need it anymore. dawn started buying me gum that has lots of weird healthy stuff in it to try and get me to eat more but I got really mad at her for it I mean how could she after everything of told her but eventually I forgave her really fast and by really fast I mean 15 minutes later. the next day was not so good, I was walking with dawn to chemistry and suddenly I felt extremely dizzy and the next thing I knew I was falling onto the ground my and there was a stripe of blood against the lockers. Dawn immediately pancked and was screaming for help but everyone ignored us and just kept walking past until dawn rawn to the nearst teacher to try and get help. finally i woke up but this time not in a hospital but in my bedroom with a huge bandaid on the back of myhead but for some reason something felt different i screamed and shouted for help but no one was there except the eco of my own voice.read the next chapter to find out where she is and what happened to her.