As I sat up after casting the spell, I realized, I didn't know what it is that I was to do now that I had the spell up. I knew I won't be able to break it until after three days but what was I going to do then? I won't be able to use my powers or anyone else would in about a seventeen-kilometer radius from my room. So what was I going to do?
I didnt have friends, a social life, or anything here. All I had was... Homework?
I downloaded a few music files and played them while I took out my notebook and... well, better catch up with my academics while I had the time.
i started with engineering mathematics and, I'll be honest. I didnt understand not even in the slightest what I was supposed to do. i tried reading the lecture slides and all i saw was nothing but ands and gibberish on the paper. Egyptian Hieroglyphics were better. i may not have been the brightest student in those days but i was at least better in their mathematics.
reading it made me indecisive of what exactly their math wanted me to find. waves? sequences ratios? angle? i doubted they even knew what they were doing. no wonder everything of theirs lasted only one night.
i did only half of the questions before i gave up put everything away. I put my headphones on and took a walk as a thunderstorm formed in the horizon. If i say i wasn't concerned and enjoyed my walk, i would be lying. But of course, i am the biggest liar around.
i didnt go off to other places in my sleep. i did dream yes but it was just that. dream. eyes closed resting on the bench at my little island, location hidden somewhere in the ocean. it was not in the same longitude as any country in africa so i loved it. extra sunlight when i needed it, though it was rather cold and windy this time of the year. but it was what it was.
a soul doesnt feel temperature. as long as nutrions and other particles science havent discovered yet existed, i was okay. i could live anywhere on earth. as a ghost.
or in space.
during the night, it had rained. maybe, probably because of me. seeing him woke up a lot of memories ive kept hidden that were not supposed to see the light of day and... i truly felt alone. I cant stay around the guardians for way more than seven days a year without pissing the gods off and sparking a war.
so i couln't think of them.
but, i failed to... i scoffed at the thought of the people I've trusted, giving eternal life to someone who've cost me all my friends and they've never told me about it. never bothered to for hundreds of years.
even when my parents were... I'm not supposed to think of them. i reminded myself. no matter how many times i missed them, i cant think of them.
but it was just okay. i can try to be human for once. no more seeing beyond the borders. No more being dragged into to other places and...i was happy. i am happy. i could dance in the rain. if only...
lets not ruin the mood with useless thoughts. if she was born, she would appear. if she was still somewhere in the land of the dead, well, she would come out soon unless...
lets not ruin the mood please. besides that girl is around. i can play with her. pass time by her side.
I returned as day broke and stared at myself as i slept. i didnt look tired at all or anything. But this is weird. really weird. but then, how am i here? i wondered as i stared at myself. i should be in him, not staring at him. and how the fuck am i outside this body when i have a spell all over town?
was it because i was worried about the judge like i was in 2012 atter i made a swan into one?
where was he again nowadays? i felt like checking but... Nope! not opening that part again.
I sat next to my body and thought about my own life in general. i was tamed. really really tamed if this was all i was reduced to. no life outside guardianship.
i rolled into my body and laid fully awake. i guess i now know why the former saint vanished right after the war. He didnt have anything else to live for.
i didnt go for a run. it was okay. im still in good shape. plus i cant make any colossal mistake and threaten the lives of others.
i went for breakfast earlier than my usual time and got in the till queue three people behind that girl. she paid with a debit card and.. i saw only her initials when she took the card back.
T. O. now i was a few syllables behind.
Great!
i went to the feeding queue and she saw me heading towards her line which was facing the direction of the till. she smiled secretly and looked down for a sec when our eyes met.
my stomach danced like nobody's business. at least i didnt cry.
"good morning." i greeted her as i cut the line behind her. i wasnt going to go around bars just to get a meal today.
"morning to you too." she said turning to give me a smile then back to the people in front of her.
"How was your night?" i asked.
"it was okay." she responded giving the kitchen helper her meal coupon. i did the same and... she definitely bought for way too many people. "you look happier today. something must have happened last night. laid anyone?"
"no!" i answered quickly. how can she... oh right. I'm nineteen. people my age have sex on daily basis.im only the usual outcast. the nineteen year old virgin.
"oh god. that was fast. what did you do?" she asked turning to me. "usual," i told the helper as i gave him my plates.
"nothing. its early for those kind of questions, dont you think?" i asked. plus we were in public.
"not really. come on, we are all legally allowed to do it."
"should i have envited you over for a movie and see what we can work out?" i joked. she lit bright red for a sec then turned normal.
"maybe, but you can't do that, you dont know my name." she teased, smilling casually at me i think. cute.
"i know it starts with a T. and there's an O." i said.
"you are a disappointment." the chef said looking at me with a disappointed look. i didnt know his name either.
"Im not." i defended myself, "i just am bad at names."
"is it hard to get a girls number?" the chef asked.
"no, i just..." I started but instantly knew my argument was going to be bad. "Im bad at names." I ended up at saying in a whisper. "why don't you ask her what her name is?"
the chef looked at her. she shook her head and looked at me. "Nice try." she said smiled and walked away. danm! almost caught her.
"so you really aint gonna tell me?" i asked her as we walked towards the table that held tea and sugar and spreads.
"you gotta try more before i tell you." she said putting her plates down and applied jam to her bread. "so did you do the emath tutorial questions we were given yersterday?"
"no, i didnt understand not even a single thing. honestly, i thought i was reading cuneiform." i responded thinking of the first time i read cuneiform. it was all gibberish and total crap.
she bust into a beautiful high pitched laughter that made my heart race.
As she laughed, I momentarily saw Kiara in her eyes as she looked at me. My smile momentarily faded as she added, "you quite funny aint ya, old guy?"
Kiara's first words when i told her i needed to repay her for her kindness. What was going on? was she really Kiara's reincarnate?
"i try not to be." i responded as we walked out of the cafeteria.
Just as i was about to put a plate down for the cats that came running when they saw me with the food, she put a plate down and looked i looked at her.
Was she the one who fed them yesterday?